hello darkness my old, old friend.
been off for 4 days and didn’t get anything done.
and i don’t know what to do about that.
i thought the herbal stuff i order would help and it did not give me the wham that it did the first time so, i haven’t used it since.
i hate to say that being off from work is not helping because work gives me structure.
along with that, i not not try NaNoWriMo. i had a set of prompts and idea and went with it.
and i just don’t have the passion for fiction, right now. i don’t want to go down the poetry path, because i’m not that depressed 20 something white girl anymore.
non-fiction? do i have it in me to write real words on tarot? that’s only 642 words per card to write a book on it. what do i have to say about the tarot that hasn’t been said already?
weekly update
it’s going.
i need to make a tarot planner. i need to just make some calendar pages and sort out the moon readings i want to do.
and i might just thought out the want of zodiac because i can not find the info i want.
it’s been a nice few days off.
i am not finding what i want for moon signs. i don’t know what to do but make my up own thing for it and i don’t want to do that.
or i might. i don’t know.
i never plan on going down this path of worrying about moon signs with my card readings. with this idea of me making my own planner, and even crazier of maybe publishing it, i just want to be sure of it.
ate Taco Bell, got nothing at Barns and Nobel, and Black Panther was good!
dropped the ball last night. posting something tonight.
Babies came over. best thing of the night? opossum hunting with Mutt Hubert.
we did find one, an angelic white one.
they started playing Christmas music at the store today.
i hate it here.
i have a question.
next March will be 18 years since i did my self-dedication ritual and started studying/practicing witchcraft. i know there has been some dry years in that mix but it feels that the last 4 years, i have been getting my shit together.
and in the last month, i have started following a lot more witches on Tumblr. people who seem to know what they are doing and smart about it and then find out they have been practicing for a few years.
and i keep thinking i need to throw open the ask options and the voice n my head say no, you don’t know anything.
i am not not happy with my practice. i think i need to rethink on who i am and where i want to go.
i think i need to build a daily practice. i think i need to rethink the witch part and the religion part.
i think this is another goal of 2023.
