i don’t know where to go with this.
work is not good right now. i also have many reminders of 2 years ago with Endgame weekend.
and i really haven’t taken my vitamins in a long time…
i feel like i need to scream and let out so much rage and feels and at the same time, i have nothing inside of me.
i’m a hot mess and i don’t know what i need to do/take/be to get out of this Lake of Sucking and be back and human/ish.
maybe it’s the full moon fucking with me. maybe it’s too close to Beltane to think clearly.
maybe i need to burn it all down.
like a basic bitch, i order the new edition of Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom, by Rachel Pollack and a RWS deck. i’m actually excited to work with the RWS deck, for some strange reason.
this month has been fruitful with the card readings. hoping to keep this going.
i think i need to start writing but nothing sounds good. i have some ideas but, eh.
and i got an idea for a spell. i don’t know what all i want to do with this spell but i want to do something.
i know Matthew will be here this weekend but, there’s nowhere to go and nothing to do so maybe something will get done.
i also know that two years ago this night i was in a gay bar in Springfield getting drunk.
it’s still a full moon. time to do some magick of my own.
