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what do you call it when you have things to do and have no will power to do them?

i did get all my lunches made, clean the kitchen, did the dishes, clean out the dove and oven, and me and Mom made a Dollar Store run.

i get home, had things i wanted to do and just did none of it.

did i go anything on my Goal List? no.

did i do any bits that just needed to be done? no.

i was maxed out on all the things i had done this morning, mostly was stuff that wasn’t really for me.

and now i write about it.

weekly update

i’m up to 6% done! i am making myself read almost every day. i have hopes to do my weekly post to get my blog posts numbers up. i am still losing weight without doing anything too crazy. i want to try to start walking next month to get that working out badge clocked out.

i did do my ~*~Interview Precious ‘Possum Lenormand. i know that some of my goals are more long term and will not grant my high marks right now. i still can make some forward progress (reading) that will get me some serotonin.

Witchy Prompts, Day 20

List a few of the deities you worship and associate each with a quote your think represents them best!

 

I won’t worship anyone so, I have no quotes to post.  Prompts Found Here.

Venus of Willendorf

this year will mark 17 years i’ve been a witch. in all those years i have never felt any pull to worship any one deity.

i’ve never really tried to find anyone and i’ve been open for anyone wanting to lay claim to me. so far, no one.

in the last 3 years, i’ve been noticing things. and within the last few weeks, there’s been more noticing. it led me to just yell out that you need to hit me with a clue by four if you want me.

and it might have hit me last night.

she goes by the name Venus of Willendorf. i know i found her long ago and somehow got a magnet version of her. the figure is one of the oldest ever found and it’s all guess work who she is and what she was for.

i remember the first time seeing her thinking i have that same body. she is not all thin and lithe. she was a woman, fully formed. i felt like she was me, she was a part of me.

and last night, out of nowhere, i started off Goggleing her and looking and found her.

and this morning, i am rereading her Wikipedia article and she was found near Willendorf, Austria. a bit more Goggleing and she was found some 500 off miles away from where my family comes from in Germany.

she could have been made by my ancestors.

i’m getting her. i’m gonna try to make her a pretty place.

and we will see what happens from there.

Witchy Prompts, Day 19

How have your Gods affected your life?

 

I don’t know but I can tell you how become a witch has affected me.

Being a 13-year-old Catholic school girl* and learning that there was a Goddess, you can become a witch, and magick is real, that was all I needed to hear. It was another 10 years before I was able to start studying it but the last 12 years have been wonderful.

I don’t feel powerless. I know if shit gets bad, I can do something about it. Bitches at work, fuckers bringing me down, they are in my freezer right now. I need help with knowing the unknown, I throw my cards.

*I identify as non-binary now.

Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 18

What are your thoughts on godspousing?

 

On one hand it sounds completely bat shit crazy. On the other hand, it sounds like being a nun in the Catholic Church.

I know I don’t know much about it and what I read I think are from people who are not right about it.

 Prompts Found Here.

miles before i go before i sleep

drinking is what keeps me warm anymore.

i did watch Euphoria last night and Nate might have had the best line of that entire show, so far. i almost like him now. almost.

i am getting some stuff done for my year goals. i need to get with the crocheting.

i am reading. i think next month i want to crack into a new deck to study.

i have a habit. it’s not the best but at least i’m not doing drugs.

i am moving forward with my goals. bit by bit, i am moving forward.

Witchy Prompts, Day 17

Do you associate certain Gods with specific songs? Share them!

 

I think David Bowie is one of the Higher Powers so his music is divine.

I think of Thor (more of the Marvel one) when I hear AC/DC’s “Thunderstruck”.

Andrew Lloyd Webber wrote Jesus Christ Superstar, a whole musical version of a passion play.

There are songs that make me think of Deity over all, like the story of the “Hallelujah Chorus”. It’s said when Handel got writing that part, he was crying because it just poured out of him so fast.

There is the overall feeling I feel when I use to perform in a Baptist church orchestra and certain songs, especially when the choir joined us, that I felt the spirit coming down over us.

And that is my view on music, overall. I use the term “It felt like church” when I went to Ozzfest. The way Hatebreed and Disturbed person and conducted themselves on stage, I felt the Spirit there.

I just need to think on this more and write how I see music and the Great Divine work together.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 16

How do you communicate with your deities the best?

 

I talk, out loud to them, the them that listen to me. I don’t know who it is, I just get the urge to just talk out loud to them.

 Prompts Found Here.