trying to move

i am trying.

no SIMS tonight, i need to get shit done.

after i post this, i’m throwing cards, shower, meditate, and start a notebook.

this notebook is going to be a planner of sorts. i want to make list and plot out when i can do stuff and then DO IT!

chatted with Colt last night and i put words together.

i realized i have this habit of "doing ThIs will cure me of my current problem!" and then doing the thing, being better for a while, and then going back to square one.

i need to make real changes, no matter how small, to be able to move forward.

there is nothing holding me back but myself.

LIVE

i need to write and this is a half ass way of doing it.

i need to write, with pen and paper, something that might not make it to the world’s view and just kept to myself.

i know i need to write a plan. i tried this week and i got somewhere but not as far as i wanted.

i need to buckle down. do more, play less, get shit done. i don’t have doom hanging over my head, i have light and life and spring is almost here.

which means fall is starting soon (on the other side of the world) and i’m taking that energy and move forward with it.

i need to go. no more with plotting one thing that will cure me and then it happens and i don’t change.

change, i need to change and live.

Witchcraft X

What are my views on cursing/hexing?

 

Let’s say your friend get sick, cancer. You whip up a wonderful healing spell, to help them get cured of cancer.

It’s a healing spell, nothing as bane as a curse or hex. You would never do that!

But to the cancer, it’s a death curse, pure and simple.

Any work is bane work if you think about it. You want a job, you craft a spell for it, it pushes other people out of the way so you are the one getting the goods. You cursed someone so they didn’t get the job.

I firmly believe in hexing and cursing. It’s not evil or bad, it’s another tool in your caldron.

Witchcraft Prompts

Shadow and Light

 

This past week has been not good for me. I didn’t know I was waiting for Thursday afternoon.

It started that morning with work being work and me reaching god statues and being recognized by management that I am awesome. By the afternoon, I received not news but realization that a dark cloud that’s been over my head since May is now fucking gone.

I woke up to the sun shining and the cats singing. I saw this spread the other day and thought that this will give me insight but I have that now. I still want to do it because getting better is a never-ending action and this will get me to a new level of better.

What is hidden? Forget-Me-Not. What is hidden is this new life I can live out now. Things are going well and I don’t have to fear pending doom.

What is revealed? Sage. That I am done with one part of my life and can move to the next part.

How can the shadow serve you? Daisy. The shadow can show me the way to the light.

How can the light guide? Violet. I just need to bask in the light.

I thought February was going to be my starting month. I didn’t know that I needed things to align and it would take all of February.

I am ready for March.

Witchcraft IX

Simple or elaborate spells/rituals? Why?

 

Some days I need to pull out all the stops, light all the candles, put on the ritual dress.

Some days it’s just yelling in my backyard.

I need both. It’s just the way I roll.

Witchcraft Prompts