am i still alive?

am i still alive?

i know i am not living.

this past week has been stressed plus. work was just stressing with a F.O.R. and big wigs showing up. on the day of, i was the only blue shirt there and i was on side 1 for breakfast. i hold power and must use it wisely.

home is stressful too. Monday, the people will be here to put in the new floor and new shower and MY shower will get fixed (leaks like it’s on). ALL the things had to be to moved out of the rooms and we are done to just the bare necessities.

i have this thought that if the floor Grandma put in lasted 50 years, maybe we can get 50 years out of this floor. Jehoshaphat will be 52 and maybe a grandma in her own right.

i’ll be 96, gods willing.

i cleaned the hell out of my bathroom today.

i made hell of progress today. i just need to move. i want to try to do 20 mins a day this week, just to keep things going forward.

May is coming up and i didn’t get one last year. it was robbed from me. but i am so much better then i was an year ago that i refuse to let shit bog down on me anymore. i have one stressor in my life, and the more i think of cursing him, the more he falters, without me throwing the curse.

i am taking a shower that should clean my soul. tomorrow is the start of my work week and there is work to be done.

Witchcraft XV

How do I believe divination works?

 

I use cartomancy for my divination so, how do the cards work?

There’s layers to it. When I throw my cards I feel I am yelling into the void and the void is giving me clues and hints.

Sometimes I think it’s the deck itself that is doing the talking, like this set of cards know what’s going on, not that it’s any higher powers talking to me.

With that, I have use cards to talk to higher powers/things that go bump in the night/my Friend in the backyard. Ask a question, pull a card for the answer.

Sometimes I think I am looking for an answer and the cards make me think about that is going on.

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Witchcraft XIV

Which (witchy) holidays, if any, would I like to celebrate and how?

 

Halloween is my high holy day. I ward, I light a fire at night and watch The VVitch outside after casting my spells.

My practice is right now at a time of change. I am marking the Witch’s Sabbats because I have the Seasons of the Witch oracle decks and using them in my daily draws.

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Witchcraft XIII

What in nature am I drawn to; the ocean, animals, the trees, etc.?

 

I like penguins, groundhogs, opossums, and vultures.

I love lilacs and all the flowers I have growing around my house.

I love the Gasconade River.

I like to get lost in the woods.

I love living out in the sticks.

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doing it

i am doing it.

i made a plan last week. cue up my podcast, set timer for 20 mins, and go.

i got shit done. i got The Work done! i am making steps on getting this place up to snuff for wanting to do all my goals for the year.

i hit the 60% mark for the month. that is low but i am proud of the shit that got done.

i am making strides and i pray i can keep this momentum up and going!