i am 90% done for the week, 41% for the year, giving me a D.
the reason is because i added 3 goals for the year.
by July i want to use my oracle deck!
my one big win is this is the 2nd day this month that i am below 280 lbs!
i am kicking ass!
i am 91% done for the month, 42% done for the year, giving me a D+ grade.
i need to write about my adventure i had on the first.
i am excited about what summer will bring me. summer always feels like a season to me, that things are different and time moves different. that i need to do things differently.
i don’t know if i’ll get back to meditation, because that was always a summer thing, but i want to get back working out. i have a plan for that.
i need to read my books and get back into stuff. i need to put down the phone and get back into stuff.
i feel new. like this season is new, that i am new, that i am starting something new.
i don’t feel free and i don’t feel trapped. i feel like this is where i’m suppose to be. that i got so much time before the season changed and things go another way.
i am feeling, it.
i have plans, i want to write things, i want to live next month.
i’m not going to Springfield, i’m not seeing a Marvel movie, i’m not celebrating 14 years with Matthew.
i am going to do things i want on the 1st. i’m going places and doing the things i have not done in a long time.
i hope to find something. i don’t know what i’m looking for but i will know it when i see it.
“Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same” that line is hitting me harder and harder. i know i was changing, i didn’t think i would get to this way.
i am making wild plans and going forward, the best i can.
i am 106% done for the month, 39% done for the year giving me a C+. ta da?
some are up days and some are down days. i need to find a happy middle.
i am nervous about my plans for next week.
i need help. i need to find help.
and i think it’s coming towards me and i really need to work on that harder.
- there’s a cardinal, female, that keeps banging on my window.
- Mom said that Renelda said that’s the dead looking in at you.
- i keep going to my outdoor altar with a deck. i keep asking questions and drawing cards.
- i need to buy Snoop Dogg wine tomorrow.
- this isn’t daily witchcraft. or a part of it…
