HAPPY OKTOBER!!!
106% for the month, 89% for the year, giving me an A grade!
birthday plans are up and running. i am 74 hours way from that starting.
i am going ahead and making plans for my 2023 goals. do not know what i want to call the next year, we will have to wait and see.
my plans for writing in November are happening up, quite well. i have various ideas and i don’t know how this all will feed into my plan.
things need to be done and i am off!
i started a list of what i want to get done in 2023. is it early? will I get some of them done before this year? time will tell.
i did get the 1st of the birthday gifts! i got the Labyrinth tarot deck and Earth, Air, Fire and Water by Scott Cunningham! so excited!
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i really would like to know.
i am in an unending cycle: i hit a bottom, i make plans on getting better, i do the plans for a bit, stop, hit bottom, make plans on getting better, i do the plans for a bit, stop, hit bottom, etc. etc. etc.
why can’t i break out of it, once and for good? why can’t i be a fully functioning adult? for fuck’s sakes, i’m going to be 42 next week!
i have identify the problem. now i need to work on this shit. i need to drag myself out of this circle, into a new shape.
do i put the answer on a book i will buy and not read for year? another tarot deck? some flaky ideal posted on Tumblr? shadowwork?
is this a letdown of Autumn starting? is this me reacting to all the retrogrades (that i don’t believe in)? the new moon? my impending birthday?
i’m on a step but i don’t know which one.
i am going to have to claw my way out of this pit, once and for all.
i can do it. i can claw my way out.
there is no way for me to go but up.
i end this month at 119% done, 90% for the year, with an A+ grade.
this weekend starts the last quarter of the year. i think i am going to start making a ToDoList for next year.
i still don’t know what theme i want for next year. this year’s theme of “A Witch’s Journey” did not go as i planned (and with 3 moths still left, who knows where i will end up).
i need to do a real blog.
