i’m 190% for the month, 32% for the year, giving me a A+ grade.
i am just not moving forward.
doing anything seems all lost to fucking Tic Tok.
what makes me not be on Tic Tok is pot.
it’s been a week of me taking a gummy on my nights off (Tuesday and Friday) and let me tell you, it’s been great.
i don’t hurt, i can feel my blood in my veins, time stops working but i can deal with that.
i felt better the whole week. i didn’t feel the need for my plain gummys, i don’t remember the last time i drank. just having a gummy twice a week has improved my well-being.
i got all caught up with my TV. i got a book read/deck studied. hopefully i will crochet while watching The Last of Us.
where do i start?
Matthew came up last week, ate all my food, and over all we had a good time. we saw Grandma and Ant-Man and we went to the weed store and i got a bag of gummys…
yeah, that was its own trip.
i like the store, have recommended it. it was my first one and it was a good experience. the gummys are a variety pack and i tried the a half one of the full power one (i am treating this very carefully and trying to write down what is going on because, SCIENCE!) and it was great! i felt so wonderful and free and it was great.
last night i tired half a gummy of the half power and it was ok. longer to do things and still felt good. still have one more flavor/level to try.
i have rethought of doing workouts as calling it my Dora Milaje training. now, i feel a need to do it and try my best at it. i am aiming for 4 days a week of doing something and so far, so good.
maybe the feel of limbo is still over me but i am working on moving forwards.
