spring update

hi. i am still alive. i think. i don’t know.

stuff i want to talk about but i need to sort it more on my end before i start making public statements about things.

movies are getting shuffled up and plans are changing. trying to sort dates out so i can have a plan.

trying to see a real light in this darkness i wanted to be in. “I'm just learning how to smile/And that's not easy to do.” i thought things would change and no, they didn’t. don’t know how it is on the other end.

i was hopeful. he was just full of hatred.

TikTok sounds like they are gonna have auto-captions so maybe, i can start making vids.

need to get back to my Book of Shadows. and then a book of cartomancy. and then just a book on tarot.

need to eat breakfast and start my day off.

and pull some cards.

weekly update

i did not get all my cleaning done i wanted to before Matthew gets here. i still have 2 days but i don’t know how much i will get done between then and there.

and there will be cleaning when he is here. i can’t take three days off and not work on improving the basement.

is think i will get my Book of Shadows in order when he is here. there some stuff i need to print off and take care of.

and then, maybe in a few months, i can make just a book of cartomancy.

of all my goals for this year, it’s the writing that is not coming along. i have ideas, but nothing that wants to be written down.

and then there’s the crazy idea of writing poems.

time to shower and wind down for the night.

shit gets real

i don’t know if the diarrhea was caused by stress or a bug but it took me out the last two days.

hi, how are you?

my day off started with me shitting myself after having a work-related dream about all the fucking pallets and having to move them around so much.

and the day went downhill from there.

i didn’t eat for most of the day, had a Coke from McDonald’s (gods it was great), and made it to Jeff and back without having an accident.

took a nap, woke up to feed the cats, the clothes i put on Wednesday morning kept on till i took a long hot shower, TONIGHT, washing me head to toe.

i still don’t feel 100% myself. i took today off of work. i will go in tomorrow and fight the good fight.

Season of the Witch, Part III

Season of the Witch, Part III

Let’s look on how things are going so far.

Grow my business. No readings last month. Did get my crafting table cleared off. Once I am done with my Book of Shadows, onto the tarot research!

Write 52 blog posts. This post will make it 60%!

Read 3 books. Read 4 books. Read 5 books. I have hit my goal of reading 3 books so, I upped it. If anything, my reading is doing great this year.

Develop a daily practice/meditation. Still a no with this.

Set up an ancestral altar. Not yet. I need to set some time to work on my family tree, at least once a week.

Crochet. New rule: If I am watching TV, my ass is on the couch and crocheting. More crocheting, less gaming.

Write. No spark in that field. Maybe a poetry challenge is in order.

Improve my body. Weight is going down. Steps are going up. Workouts are increasing.

I feel that I moved forward this month. I hope to take this motion and move more in March.