i finished fucking Dune.
this has not been a month of getting stuff done.
i’m to 88% done for the month, still at 44% for the year, still a D grade.
still reading Dune, i am crocheting more, and i got my head right and i am meditating.
meditating, there’s something there. i don’t know what but i keep seeing something.
need to clean my living space.
i have 87% done for the month, putting me at 44% done for the year, a D grade for now.
i am working my ass off to get Dune done right now. i play the movie and i read the book. it seems to help me. i’m 91% done with the book and i am so ready to be out of the sand.
i need to start meditating. i can’t seem to get to that lvl yet.
i have been working out. that’s a plus. i am seeing results from that. good results.
need to get off this blog and onto working on my goals!
my goals have been moving forward very well.
i spent part of the day printing off things for my Book of Cartomancy. i think i can get it down this Saturday.
at work i’ve been watching Dune while reading Dune. it puts me in the right head space to read that fucking book.
i don’t get it. i don’t get why this book is suppose to be the greatest sci-fi book.
i want to start writing or at lest plotting this new story i got cooking. after the queer media i am soaking up right now, this book will there be queer as fuck. will there be any cis, straight people in it? why?
OH! and because this is my own fantasy world i am building, the queers are out and welcome.
i know i need to make it not all white people. that is gonna be a bit tricky but i think i can pull it off.
if i can just start meditating…
i got my Book of Shadows printed off and put together. i need to work on my Book of Cartomancy. that might take some time, seeing i’m going to have to write some things instead of printing all of it.
i have started working on my afghan again. that is slow going but it is going.
and i am reading Dune. i just don’t see what makes this book so freaking great.
and no way would Zendaya end up with Timothée Chalamet. i’m team Tom Holland all the way.
i want to start writing. i have these characters in my head and i don’t know their names.
and there is world building and i’m making it queer as fuck! no straights are in this story! PRIDE!!!
i need a drink.
i start the month off with a 79% done for the month, 40% done for the year, giving me a F+ grade.
what is killing me is that no matter what, me losing weight is not happening. i am trying to work out more. i have been working on eating better.
i feel that i am doing what i’m supposed to do and nothing is happening.
i need to work on my #ToDoList today.
is there a shift in me?
i set the timer for 5 mins. when it goes off, i’m going to do a 10 min walking workout to get steps in and to count as my new objection.
i really want to set a plan for this summer of me doing 1 of 3 things a night: working out, meditating, or resting.
the cards last month kept hinting at that i should be meditating. and i said i would and not do it.
i don’t know why i’m being so hardheaded on this idea. i also know that i tend to be want to meditate more in the summer than any other time.
it is June and that’s a sign that it is summer.
maybe this is the shift i’ve been waiting for.
HAPPY PRIDE!!!
i need to redo my goals for my business. i had big goals and i don’t think those are coming true. i am improving my skill set with the cards, just don’t have any passion to write like i see other’s write.
i think i can write but then i-
it’s work. there are days that just suck me out and my gods, i need to get better.
it’s the start of summer and there is a mind shift in me. i need to take that view and put it to work.
i have cut done on playing Age of Mythology. that is one step to getting better. small things are getting me to a better place.
i just want it all, now.
