2025

hello.

i tried to get the groundhog out to jump start spring and it didn’t work.

here we go…

Mom made my shirt.

let’s focus on the good things.

again, it hit me the other day.

i am done with my goals for the month, 64% done for the year, giving me a B-.

there is nothing to report.

hello September!

i don’t know where to start.

hello November.

well, it’s December.

place

no more goals being added to the 2026 list. the cards said so.

one goal was added right before the call of stopping was called out. a goal i hope Izzy can help me with.

i got my crafting table more or less cleaned off and all my notebooks situated.

i was going to go after the crafting shelves and no, i need to work on my bedroom. i need to clean it out, move my bed, and organized the shelves.

see what is under my bed…

i need to put everything in a place. i just have books and stuff everywhere with no real purpose.

same with the crafting shelves. i need to organized it so everything has a place.

i have a place and i want my things to have a place.

update

i’m still doing the cleaning. the last move is the crafting table and getting my new desk up and running.

i did get a new altar out of all of this. it’s stupid, with a Funko Pop of Sylvie and Loki (hey, god and goddess, am i right?) but it’s a place to burn a candle and some incense.

still coming up with more goals for 2026. i am working on them now, so it’s not like i’m just sitting here.

everything is fine. i have no need to come here and vent and moan and try to get my head right.

hell, i stopped morning papers because there was nothing in my head that needed to get out.

have i worked out all my issues? what is hidden so deep in me that it was not come out yet?

maybe i can start writing that new story in my head and work on that other project.

i am not being optimist about next year. i am being real and making small plans for everything. keep focusing on making myself better, not giving myself to anyone or anything, that will not serve me better.

well, it’s December

well, it’s December.

and there is nothing Christmasy in my life right now. it is great.

i have been off the last week or so and today i tried to fixed it.

i got up and started cleaning. i’ve started on the far end and am working towards the front.

got all the laundry put away, switch out my socks and jeans, and started working on an unfinished project from summer. i am trying to get things organized, each box with its own set of things.

my 2026 goals keep adding up and i am ever hopeful that i will get everything done. so far i am 17% done with January, so i got a start.

day 30

like Phantom said, “It’s over now, the music of the night!”

day 29

i didn’t give up on my 2025 goals. i’m going to call it that i did 90% of them and as years past i just gave up and burn things this time of year, i am doing better.

what didn’t get done in 2025, rolls over into 2026 so, here we go.

i am almost done with NoJoMo. it was trying but i think i have pulled it off.

i go back to work tomorrow. theses past 3 days have not been as grand as i had hoped.

day 28

i really need to sit and write out a real entry but, not tonight.

day 27

dsfghs

day 26

time to do drugs and take a shower.

day 25

my period started this morning.

that explains a lot about the last week.

day 24

i got my three-day weekend coming up and i am going to clean and cure myself.

day 23

somehow i still got burnt out, all right before Thanksgiving.

maybe i can chalk this up to my mind not feeling it but my body feeling it.

i really need to clean. i gotten into the cycle of “it’s bad/it makes me depressed/if i clean i’ll feel better/i’m too depressed to clean/it’s bad/it makes me depressed/if i clean i’ll feel better…”

i’m hoping that i get a 3-day weekend for Thanksgiving and can make a dent.

i need to go to bed.

day 22

work is ok but for that one fuckwit who works there. i realized i think about him too much so i keep repeating "I call all my power back to me" to calm down and banish him away.

i don't have any magic on me when i'm at work so i need to make me come charms to keep shit away from me.

the weather has been wonderful. it feels like i'm in a horror movie this whole month.

it's been great to have November, with all the fall elements and no fucking Christmas being shoved down my throat.

McRibs still are evil.

i worry about my friends having enough money to survive while i'm living large, but not large enough to share.

day 21

maybe tomorrow i’ll have the energy to write.

day 20

i am tired. time to take drugs and forget everything, at least for one night.

day 19

i need a day off.

day 18

i am tired.

this week has been hitting harder than usual.

i went to the river today. just took a right and went there. cleaned up some trash that fuckers had left and was gifted with 2 sticks, win win for everyone.

day 17

i am looking forward to my CD coming this week. then, i need to learn to rip it onto my phone. then one night this week, take a gummy and let the music wash over me and cleanse me of my sins.

i need to get cracking with my year goals. only got 84% of them done and i am hoping to make it to 90%. i am not going to kill myself getting them done but i want more.

it’s time to work on them and then to bed.

day 16

coming home from work, “I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For” popped up on my Pandora. and before i could ask the question out loud, i said yes.

i have found what i’m looking for. i found happiness.

i was such a frog in boiling water when i was at that fucking store.

day 15

it hit me today.

it’s ungodly warm for November, the sun is shining, the leaves are at a contest falling off the tress that you only see in the movies, the ground is wet with leaves, in that sexy fall way, and it all come to a point that this has been the best November i have felt in a long time.

because i am not at the fucking store.

there is no hint of Christmas anywhere near me, there has been no talk about Black Friday or shopping or any other shit. it’s been November.

and when i mention plans and traditions for Thanksgiving/Christmas, no one is judging me for not doing it right.

i am living my best life right now.