October 22, 2017

October 21, 2017

5 yr blog, day 1475

“What new word have you learned?”




it’s not that i learned the word “queer” this year but i’ve learned how to use it.
2016: asexual and demisexual.
2015: from a while ago but i’ve learned polyamorus and metamour.
2014: really have not learn any new worlds lately.
2013: fag hag.


and 99% of all this has to deal with Colt. 

it’s been, interesting, to learn about my sexuality. 
and part of me still thinks i am nothing but a straight girl and i’m just putting on airs about shit. 
but, i know i am not straight. there’s too many flavors in me to just roll as a straight girl.




31 Days of Witchcraft, Day 21

31 Days of Witchcraft inspired by http://fayepath.tumblr.com.
Day 21: Favorite gem?

amethyst.

October 20, 2017

5 yr blog, day 1474

“Who do you count on?”



Colt, Ethan, Jessica, Matthew, Nicole, Shelby.
2016: Colt, Jacob, Matthew, Nicole, Shelby.
2015: Colt, Jacob, Matthew, Nicole, Shelby.
2014: Colt, Matthew, Nicole.
2013: Colt, Matthew, Nicole.


i’m glad this list has grown in the past 5 years.




31 Days of Witchcraft, Day 20

31 Days of Witchcraft inspired by http://fayepath.tumblr.com.
Day 20: Favorite flower?


lilac. don’t care if it’s a “bush” that’s my flower.

October 19, 2017

5 yr blog, day 1473

“What was your last credit card purchase?”


beeswax and penguin pjs.
2016: no clue and i’m not looking it up.
2015: crap from the store.
2014: soap and vitamins at the store.
2013: Much Ado About Nothing, on blu-ray.

i have to get my credit card under control. i know if i can pay it off and not use it, i can start saving money a whole lot faster.




DarkShark/darkwich



my thoughts turn to Florida and to my DarkShark and to memories that have come to the light of day.
once upon a time i had an Angel. he lived in Arizona.
he came and visit me.
one night, after many years, we had a hardcore talk. we decided that i would graduate and move to Arizona to be with him.
and 30 days later he had a girlfriend.
he came and visit me one more time, still having the same girlfriend.
and i am looking up my old journal to remember things.
and he left me and i never really have heard from him.
that was 12 years ago.
and the other year at Nicole’s, i started crying over losing him. i am so happy with Matthew (and you Colt) but i was there in her kitchen crying over losing him some 11 years ago.
this post did not turn out the way i planed.
my thoughts are on those October nights 12 years ago and with my DarkShark as he’s in Florida.
i pray he finds what he needs and not what he wants. sometimes we get what we need and it’s not what we want.
i tell Matthew he’s everything i ever needed and nothing that i wanted. and i’m happy with him. more so then with any other guy.
i’m praying and rooting for you DarkShark.