when am i gonna be on top?
i get high hopes for things and then something comes up and it all goes to shit.
work, work comes up with 6 days in a row or just fucking shit and it takes all my soul to get going on something.
i wanted 30 journal post and 3000 words by the end of the month and that don’ts look like it’s gonna happen.
i keep thinking that this will fix me or that and i just spend money on things.
fuck, my latest ideal is that i have some form of ADHD. easier to put blame on shit then not take the blame on myself.
i need to go to bed.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
What's a deeper truth I finally "got" this year?
Daffodil, there is one thing I am suppose to "get" and I don't know if I have, yet. With a new oracle deck that came in the mail today, maybe this answer is in THAT deck.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
What inner shadows came to the surface for me?
Blackberry is more or less the Lovers card from the tarot deck.
Shadows that came up was the lover I had, he couldn't love me as I am. A lot of shit came up and that lead to him walking away from 6 years.
It was a hell of a shadow to find.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
What did I discover about myself this year?
Fireweed, I can start anew. I had a major breakup in June and I have learned that I can face the fire, watch it all burn, and start anew.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
How has 2020 forced me to grow?
Black Cohosh, 2020 has forced me to make some fucking real decisions about things. It's not been fun.
change is never ending thing that sometimes eats your soul.
work, work is a huge flux of change right now. i know i will survive, i’ve been there 10 years, nothing is gonna stop me now.
the 4 to 1 shift might be the end of me but gods, it might make me unstoppable.
i worry about the cats and how they will deal with it. i know they will be ok in the long run but when it starts, oph.
i order two books, that might be what i need to deal with this winter. i order Witchcraft for Healing: Radical Self-Care for Your Mind, Body, and Spirit by Patti Wigington and The Witch's Book of Self-Care: Magical Ways to Pamper, Soothe, and Care for Your Body and Spirit by Arin Murphy-Hiscock.
i have hopes that winter will bring me some fucking healing.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
How can I overcome any remaining challenges this year?
Fireweed is about how we can burn everything down to start anew.
No matter what 2020 throws at me, I will burn it down and bring on 2021 with all the fire I need to take on the world.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
What emotional challenges have I faced this year?
Sacred Datura: I am in month 5 of a ugly break-up. I have dealt with emotions that I thought I would never have to deal with.
It has sucked and I am trying so hard, at this point, to deal with it.
well, it was a weekend.
Matthew came up and on the last night he was here, he drank a bottle of MY wine and left the TV and X-Box on all night.
great.
i’m almost done with crocheting a bag for my Nightmare Before Christmas tarot deck. i have an idea for an altar cloth for my ancestors altar.
hell, i have an idea for an ancestors altar. that might have to wait till next year, or so.
tomorrow starts 6 days in a row, oh boy oh boy oh boy.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
What professional challenges have I faced this year?
I don’t know, just the fucking pandemic!
I am one of those “essential worker”, working at “Cloud 9” and it’s been a fun time since March. Just so much fun!
Cosmos, and we are gonna talk about me as a tarot card reader.
This has been a year, as I started my own website and trying to get into the grove of Instagram. I am still trying to sort out who I am as a cartomancer.
Digging deep with the 2020 Introspection Tarot by @purefield.healing, let's do it!
What spiritual challenges have I faced this year?
Goldenrod, yeah, this deck don't play.
This has been a year of me really deciding what I want from my spiritual practice. I started celebrating the full moon and the seasonal changes. I got the book Badass Ancestors by Patti Wigington and I think that's where 2021 is gonna take me. I can't seem to find a deity, so I'll go down the family tree and see who wants to bless me.
I wasn’t going to do any prompts for November but I found @purefield.healing and yeah, I think I need this for November.
What is the overall theme of 2020 for me? Sunflower, yes, I wanted to take change f things. I am still trying to do that but, it’s just been a kicker trying to keep it up.
Halloween was awesome.
my plans did not work out the way i wanted them but i don’t care.
i suck at fires.
i did dance naked under the light of the full moon.
i did talk to Nicole about stuff.
i need to work on my writing project tonight. i had dreams of them this morning.
hello NoJoMo/NaNoMo!
am I doing both? kinda. i want to put 100 words down for a new story. that’s not happening tonight but maybe tomorrow will bring me some luck.
i did update my tarot part of my BOS. i need to get my hard copy up and running.
i did clean a part of the basement. need to work on the other half.
i need to write about last night. it was great.
sad entry for today. spent my energy on updating my tarot site, amerwitchmagicks.com.
night.
