early morning ramblings

good morning.

it seems that my depression is getting the best of me. i’m not showering when i should and all i want to do is sleep.

i had a weekend off and none of that time was for me. even today, i have to go to The Store for reasons.

so, maybe next Wednesday then? a day off and stay home?

i am slowly working on my 2023 goals and getting that shit done. i wish i had the gumption to get up and clean more but, an inch is an inch.

it’s the fear of being better. what will happen to me if i am better. “if i show my family i am not a loser?” what will become of me then?

i need to eat breakfast.