i am moving forward

i am moving forward.

i got some things done this weekend. not a lot but i am moving forward.

i got into my head to write a book on tarot. i’m doing a tarot thing for November and maybe, make that into a book? it will be the highlights but i can make it fuller when i add all the cards to it and my own thoughts.

my problem is that i am one for brief writings when it comes to tarot. i don’t wax on for pages, 4 cards drawn and i sum them up in a sentence.

just adding things to my goals for next year. cards keep telling me to study and i think that will be the main goal for next year.

i just need to get the cleaning done so i can work on prepping for 2027.

Witchcraft XLII

What, if anything, in my mundane life influences my witchcraft?

 

I don’t see it as the mundane influences my witchcraft but my witchcraft influences my mundane life.

I pick color based on witchcraft. I pick scents based on witchcraft. I blast certain songs out as spells in a heartbeat.

I’m a witch, 100% of the time, 24/7/365 366 on leap years. It’s all witchcraft, nothing is mundane.

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I got thoughts.

I got thoughts.

Went to a wake for a neighbor. Line was all around the inside of Morton's.  Made me think about Dad’s funeral.

And that thought started me off on another train.

I thought moving out of the trailer and into the basement would cure me of my problems. I would have space to put all my stuff and get rid of my depression and become who I wanted to be.

And then Dad died.

So, I thought after “mourning” for a year, I was ready to start living. I was going to wait for the new year to start. It was a new decade after all.

I was so hopeful on January 1st, 2020.

You know how that year turned out.

Last night I sat and wrote and all the shit that was in me for the past few weeks was gone. I have hope and plans for the new year. Get my books out, with a notebook, and start studying.

i am a healed opossum

something snapped in me. or maybe it blipped (iykyk).

i feel better. i feel like putting all that on paper got it out of my head and out of my way.

is this the shift? did i change and now i am on the other side?

i put money on a Kickstarter for a new oracle and tarot deck. and for the 1st time, i don’t feel like i am looking for answers in these decks.

what i do feel is that i need to get the books out of my bedroom and start setting up study plans for next year.

i feel that i very much need to dive into a daily practice. i feel i need to get some books out, assigned a notebook to it, and start study further into the witchcraft.

i thought i had an idea for next year theme and now i don’t know if it flows with the idea of what i want to do.

i am a healed opossum. nothing is holding me back but me. if i can set up a plan of studying and playing, i can achieve it all.

Halloween should be lit this year.

and i need to start planning that now.

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what the fuck is wrong with me?
i have been off since Endgame. i even had a fear about going on that mini adventure of seeing Endgame.
and just know i had that thought that i have TOO much Halloween stuff and i don’t need to go to Spirit Halloween next year.
so, what the fuck is wrong with me?
i won’t let myself be happy.
i keep repeating the same fucking thing about home/car/work/partner. it’s all good and healthy for me. i reached my goals. i need to put up new ones to achieve.
and if i look at Maslow’s hierarchy of needs… i have physiological needs, i’m mostly good in safety needs, i have love and belonging, i’m just now getting to esteem and self-actualization.
i’m going to skip Erik Erikson for now.
there is also the part of me that’s living in two different lanes right now. Halloween marks the end of the witch’s year. i am gearing up for that year end while also living with two more months of 2026 before i reset my goals for 2027.
and it’s like pulling teeth to pull cards and that was a part of me i liked and seek wisdom and comfort from.
and other things are falling to the wayside.
i won and now i feel i’m at my lowest and losing fast.

Witchcraft XLI

What is my learning style; books, websites, videos, more hands-on?

 

I love my books. I love picking up info from websites. I like seeing the short videos with helpful tips.

And I love taking all that and trying it with my own little hands.

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blar

well, i am here, still.

i am living beyond my dreams and i am still trying to get that into my soul and let myself enjoy that. i own my own home, car, have a partner who see me as a whole person, and a good job, on the verge of a step up.

maybe for Halloween I will have my act together and get that fucking ancestors’ alter up and running.

i set a goal for myself this weekend and i will get to it before it’s over.

i need to go to bed.

Witchcraft XL

Which cultures do I draw from in my witchcraft?

 

I draw from my own cultures:  German Roman Catholic, hick, redneck, and nerd.

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Witchcraft XXXIX

What do I believe is needed for a successful spell/ritual?

 

I believe when I perform them, they are successful.

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update

let’s do an old fashion update.

i am 58.3% done for the month, 42% done for the year, giving me a F.

i hoping for a D by the end of the year.

and starting 2027 with a big bang.

i almost want to start my 2027 goals but that’s not till December. my brain is confused because October is the end of my witch’s year so part of me is at the starting of the end of the year and at the end of the year.

so i got that going on in my head.

i just need to get up and freaking clean so i can get to knocking goals off the list.

Witchcraft XXXVIII

How do I create a sacred/witchy space?

 

I realized that I have hit some major goals in the last few months. And it took me some time to understand that it is time for some new goals.

The big one is getting my basement I live in in order. 

A week ago, I wrote:

I am doing hardcore cleaning today. I get depressed that my lair is trashed and I know by cleaning it, it will cure me but I'm too depressed to clean it, so there is this cycle that goes one before I Hulk out and start mad cleaning.

And that is how I am making sacred/witchy space. I am getting my house in order. I got my witch’s cabinet in order last week and it is a beauty to see.

And it makes me want to do witchy stuff.

Cleaning and organizing is how I am making sacred/witchy space.

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Witchcraft XXXVII

Who do I honor (ex: deities, ancestors, myself, etc.), and how do I, or would I like to, honor them?

 

I am hoping to start working on an ancestors altar soon. It has been on my ToDoList for forever.

I also want to get back/dig deeper into my devotion to Karpo, Greek goddess of fall.

Plus, I want to work on my outdoor space. I feel that’s for another group of “people” and I want a nicer spot to talk to them.

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next lvl of living

basement is a mess because i am doing my training to get my promotion at work. that’s this week project.

this promotion means more money, kinda more responsibility. it’s making me take notices on what i am doing now, so i can be better later.

i got plans for Endgame Friday. i need to buy the ticket and i also need to work on the magic i’ll be doing that night.

things are going forward. i am trying so hard to make things move forward.

i feel that i haven’t wasted this year. there was a lot of things i had to go through to get here.

i achieved goals! and when i realized that, finally realized that, i have set myself for new goals and to get to the next lvl of living.

update

got major cleaning done. moved the table and got to study it.

it’s the same as Grandma’s kitchen table. the top is rough as hell and someone has put boards under it so you can’t make it smaller.

this table has been in the basement as long as i can remember and it matches Grandma’s kitchen table. i have questions, so many, and no one to ask.

i took all the crap off of it and looked at it and wonder if Anton and Mary looked at this table.

i want to get it all cleaned up tomorrow, organized what’s going under the table and how. maybe hit the top of the refrigerator and then bottom of the witch’s cabinet.

i feel i can get everything cleaned this month. and if that happens, i get everything cleaned and up to date, i can start studying. i can see myself with notebooks, just thinking and making a thought board.

*sigh* i don’t want to say anything but i am feeling it.

Witchcraft XXXVI

Would I want to be dedicated/initiated?

 

That would be mean going out and being with people and, gods, people? Really? You want me out there doing group work?

As of right now, I do not feel a need to seek out a group in real life. Online, maybe, but having to drive somewhere and get along with people and their rules, that ain’t me.

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here we go...

i am not moving forward as much as i want. i blame myself and will try again tomorrow.

i need to get into the groove of 20 mins of things. 20 mins of this, 20 mins of that. moving forward with projects. get into working out (my arms need help so much) and get into meditating.

and cleaning and letting other things get done.

it’s all in my reach. i got one set of goals done, i am now working on new ones. ones i want to get done in a year and not forever.

the first full moon of fall happens right after the start of fall and on a weekend. i started making plans and then realized that’s when Endgame come back to the theaters.

so it’s one of two ways this is playing out:

1. see Endgame in Jeff on Friday and then come home for some witchcraft.
2. see Endgame with Izzy and do some, other witchcraft that night.

either way, i am seeing that fucking movie.

and making some magic.

Witchcraft XXXV

What would my perfect witchy day be like?

 

We are almost there.

I want fall. I want a gray day that’s slightly wet. I want a nip in the air where you it makes to think you need to find your hoodie soon.

I would also be off from work. The weather needs to be so that I can open my basement door and bring in the fresh air of the outside.

The day makes me want to work. I wan to work get up and put in the effort to do what needs to be done, be it cleaning or witchcraft.

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lighting crashes

so, lighting hit the old oak that was about 20 feet away from the house last Sunday.

and it’s been a week.

i’m sad the tree had to be cut down. feels like losing something important to me. i did find 2 acorns and put them in a crack of the stump, covering it with sawdust.

i need to find some of the bark that got blown off, for witchcraft purposes. Nicole wants some too.

got tickets to Doomsday. not seeing it in 3D IMAX because of Dune. just going to see it regular.

did not get much work done on the basement this week. things kinda fell apart after lighting hit the tree and still dealing with that.

i did get a new tarot deck this week! i got Seasons of the Witch Autumn Tarot! it’s so pretty! i’m excited to get the other ones, if they are just as cool as the Autumn deck.

Witchcraft XXXIV

What is my favorite type of magic; candle, sympathetic, sigils, etc.?

 

Right now, I am very much about the cards, tarot and oracle.

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new look

i got shit done today.

like i texted my bear this morning:

I am doing hardcore cleaning today. I get depressed that my lair is trashed and I know by cleaning it, it will cure me but I'm too depressed to clean it, so there is this cycle that goes one before I Hulk out and start mad cleaning.

and i did. i played a bit of SIMS 2 and then went on cleaning. i plan on more cleaning tomorrow.

with the blogs i follow on Tumblr, most of the witches are going into rest with fall and winter coming. i feel the opposite. i feel that that’s when i wake up.

i keep seeing signs of fall, Halloween stuff in the store, back to school shopping, and the praying mantises are out.

i feel alive. i feel like i can be me.

i feel that i am now, in this late of the year, getting my shit together.

as i stated before, i set goals with the idea that this will cure me. i hit those goals, hard. i own a house and got a new car in a matter of a few months. plus, a job that wants me to be better and a partner that is freaking Gomaz Addams.

i need new goals. i need to set new goals for myself. i hit the old ones, i can make new ones.

IT IS TIME! clean the cave and start getting weird with my studies.

oh fuck yeah.

Witchcraft XXXIII

What subject do I love to study?

 

I have goals for next year to do some looking into tarot and aligning it with other concepts.

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here we go

Things are good with me, the goal post I set, I have gone past them. I own my own home, I have a new car, a job that wants me to be better, and a partner who sees me as a whole ass human, not just parts.

i wrote that this morning. i have won and i am not celebrating to trying to be better.

this happen when we moved into the house. i thought that would cure me and it didn’t.

well, now what?

now we start the work of being better. stuff has been bad since April and i need to stop it. i need to do the work, do The Work, and make my home the place i want it to be.

that’s it. i want this place to be like i want. that is gonna take time and effort. it’s not going to happen overnight, and it’s gonna take upkeep to make it happen.

if i work 20 mins a night, i can get it done. it will be inches but it will get me there.

because, if i can get my home inline, then i can get inline. i will have the time to do the witchcraft, cast the spells, read the cards, be the bad ass witch my 4 yr-old self could only dream of.

it’s starts.

Witchcraft XXXII

Formal or informal rituals/spells? Why?

Both.

There is a need to sit down and write out a full-blown spell/ritual, to make sure it is perfect before doing the magic.

And there is a need to just do magic on the fly.

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Witchcraft XXXI

What do I gain from witchcraft and magic?

 

Everything.

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i have plans

i have plans.

plans to see Spider-Man. plans to see it with Izzy. plans for a slumber party. plans that include, and i quote: “…then all night I have you to myself.”

i wasn’t ready for this last year. i wasn’t ready for this at Halloween. it’s a toss up about if i was ready at PRIDE but i know i am now.

the last two years, so much has changed about me and how i view the world. i sit here, in my own house (THE DEED HAS MY FUCKING NAME ON IT, IT’S MINE!!!) with a car from this millennium, a job that wants to reward me for my hard work, and a partner that sees me as a whole person.

i am living my best life.

i keep saying this but, i am going to start being better. Lammas is coming up and so is fall and i am in the 100 days before Halloween.

i know August is a do-nothing month but, not this year. i want to back into the swing of The Work, of being that bitch trying to overcome her bullshit.

i have overcome, i don’t have that over my head and i am in this box of fear of taking the next step, the next lvl of being better.

Witchcraft XXX

What rules, if any, do I live by when it comes to witchcraft and magic?

 

No culture appropriation. I am a white and I am trying very hard to keep my practice non-commandeering of others’ cultures.

Other then that, ward your shit, protect your own, and take no crap from lesser beings.

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Witchcraft XXIX

Do I like to be told how to do things, or would I rather figure it out on my own?

 

I rather find out. Point me to the book and let me sort it out.

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Bless me Mother-

“Bless me Mother-”

“Where the fuck have you been? I thought you been killed or even worse!”

“Are you quoting Jeff Foxworthy to me?”

“If you want my blessing, you better start talking.”

“Bless me Mother for I am not doing good.”

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. I have a job that I like and treat me fair. Last Sunday was a shit show but it was still better then that other fucking place. I have a new car now. It’s from this millennium so it’s all new and shiny to me. And I have a partner that sees me as a whole person.”

“You got your dreams Baby Opossum. You need to reach for the next level.”

“This is almost like when I moved into the basement. I thought with space I would be free from my depression. No, moved that with me.

“So now that I have the better things, car, job, partner, why do I feel so down?”

“You’re not use to being happy. You were starting to feel that last year but you had that sword over year head. That sword is gone. All the things that were holding you back are gone now. You are free.”

“Am I just not moving forward out of fear?”

“Could be.”

“Plus, if that other thing happens…”

“You’ll be living your life like a bitch about to get accused of witchcraft in Salem?"

“I won?”

“Baby, you are winning. Get out there and cut a motherfucker down.”

“Thank you Mother.”

Witchcraft XXVIII

Am I interested more in magic, or spirituality?

 

At this point, I don’t see a difference between magic and spirituality.

The more I look into one, the more I feel that flows with the other.

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Witchcraft XXVII

How do I see gender (roles) in witchcraft?

 

I’m non-binary. I don’t think there should be gender roles in witchcraft.

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Witchcraft XXVI

What is my favorite element?

 

At first, my mind went to the periodic table of elements, and I was drawing a blank on which one i liked.

If we go with air/water/fire/earth as the elements, i love them all.

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Witchcraf XXV

Which things about witchcraft worry or scare me?

 

Not a damn thing.

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Witchcraft XXIV

Do I like research and gathering info, or do I like things handed to me?

 

I want to do the research. Point me to the book or website and let me gather what I need.

And that’s the kicker. I can tell you I need X and you can give me X and that’s that. But if you tell me to take this road to X, I might find other things on the road that I didn’t know I need or find something I need for something else.

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need to write more then just this

oh, i need to write but i don’t have the time…

i am getting better. i am trying to focus on getting The Work done and not playing on my phone. i am getting things done but, not enough? always trying for tomorrow to be better the yesterday.

i need to write the thoughts in my head about PRIDE, sex, gender, and all sorts of things like that.

i have been talking to Cole about it. i have my date with Izzy Saturday and after party at the hotel with just one bed this time…

Witchcraft XXIII

Which texts/quotes best describe my current path?

 

For this year I wrote some lyrics on my bathroom wall and I am going to post them here.

They are from “Everyone Scream” by Florence and the Machine.

 The witchcraft, the medicine, the spells and the injections
The harvest, the needle, protect me from evil
The magic and the misery, madness and the mystery
Oh what has it done to me
Everybody scream

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XXII

What kind of witch do I feel I am?

 

Feral Opossum.

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update?

this is not how i thought this month would go.

i still feel that something is holding me back. like, i have depression and it’s not letting me live the life i want.

and on paper, things are good. friends, job, family, things look good.

so why can’t i put down my phone and actually do some fucking work?

i throw cards and it’s the same answer all the time, get up and fucking study.

i cut down on goals for the year because i am trying to get a better focus on who i want to be this year.

i see what the problem is and the laziness comes and gets me and i don’t do anything.

fuck, i don’t even play SIMS right now. that feels like too much work, trying to start up new houses and families.

i use to get my money goals in. not right now i am.

did it start when i crapped out on my posting my cards of the day? i have been trying very hard to get back into that.

let me post this, do a work out (I AM SEEING IZZY IN 15 DAYS I NEED TO LOOK GOOD!!!), and see what the night beings me.

Witchraft XXI

How much is witchcraft woven into my daily life; is this too much, too little or just enough?

 

I’m a witch. I practice witchcraft.

The way I practice, it’s in everything I do.

Last week I made a post saying I was doing ancient magic of cooking hamburgers. The way I shape the ground beef, picking out the seasoning, it’s just a ritual I love to do.

It’s all woven into my life.
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Witchcraft XX

When do I feel most magical?

 

October and Halloween, for sure.

And it is all comes together. When I have been plotting something and then that one piece hits me and it all makes sense and I can see it.

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Witchcraft XIX

How do I see mythological creatures?

 

Real. If not in this world as flesh and blood, then in another world or layer.

They exist in some form.

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where have i been?

where have i been?

work is ok, home is ok. after all the stress and bullshit, both came out fine and dandy.

the new floor is almost stripy. it’s great.

one year free. that’s what i keep thinking. i am one year free from all the bullshit that i thought was going to take me out. like a opossum, i am coming back from the dead to hiss at all you fuckers.

Cole is moving back to St. Louis so Colt is the only one left in Springfield. i am worried about him being by himself. i won’t be there till Doomsday and that’s a long ways away.

i want to get back into doing more. i keep saying that i am starting THIS month and then things fall apart. this time i am going to move forward. one year free and i am going to run with that freedom. get back to reading and studying and cleaning. things are fine at home and at work. i am fine. it is time to move forward.

Witchcract XVIII

What do I believe happens to us when we die?

 

Oh, this is a fun question for me and I have given it some thought.

Once upon a time I was at my grandfather’s funeral, plotting out a curse to put on his soul. He killed my grandmother, destroyed my family, and I wanted revenge only a witch can do.

As I was updating the plot of the cures to my Facebook group, while at the funeral, a question was brought up. Part of my curse was I had brought 2 quarters with me, tokens to give to the Ferry Man to take over the river Stxy. I had leaned over his dead body and told him was gonna burn in hell for killing Grandma and I held his tokens for the Ferry Man, and that he needed both to cross over. My plan was to spend one quarter at the store and chuck the other into the ferry point of a local river.

So, the question of the curse was if my grandfather didn’t believe in the Greek myth of the afterlife, would the curse still work?

And that lead me to my own idea of the afterlife.

I think we start a journey after we die. We go through all the trials, St Peter at the pearly gates, Anubis with the scales, the Ferry Man at the river.

Every culture has a theory and I think they are all right and all happen to us. Like a video game, we go through each one until we hit where we are supposed to be.

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Witchcraft XVII

Which aspects of witchcraft appeal to me most, which the least?

 

What I like is how I decide what I want to work on and be better at. Right now, I am trying to improve my daily practice. I have hopes to investigate ancestor worship and deity work later.

What I like the least is more how there is zillions of beginner books but nothing about what to do after that. You get the basics under your hat and you think, what’s next?

I know now that I had the freedom to just go out and start exploring on my own but 20 years ago, I was a bit lost.

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Witchraft XVI

Would I like to work with a group some of the time, all of the time or not at all?

 

I have been solitary for over 20 years. I don’t know if I could work with a group if I wanted to.

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am i still alive?

am i still alive?

i know i am not living.

this past week has been stressed plus. work was just stressing with a F.O.R. and big wigs showing up. on the day of, i was the only blue shirt there and i was on side 1 for breakfast. i hold power and must use it wisely.

home is stressful too. Monday, the people will be here to put in the new floor and new shower and MY shower will get fixed (leaks like it’s on). ALL the things had to be to moved out of the rooms and we are done to just the bare necessities.

i have this thought that if the floor Grandma put in lasted 50 years, maybe we can get 50 years out of this floor. Jehoshaphat will be 52 and maybe a grandma in her own right.

i’ll be 96, gods willing.

i cleaned the hell out of my bathroom today.

i made hell of progress today. i just need to move. i want to try to do 20 mins a day this week, just to keep things going forward.

May is coming up and i didn’t get one last year. it was robbed from me. but i am so much better then i was an year ago that i refuse to let shit bog down on me anymore. i have one stressor in my life, and the more i think of cursing him, the more he falters, without me throwing the curse.

i am taking a shower that should clean my soul. tomorrow is the start of my work week and there is work to be done.

Witchcraft XV

How do I believe divination works?

 

I use cartomancy for my divination so, how do the cards work?

There’s layers to it. When I throw my cards I feel I am yelling into the void and the void is giving me clues and hints.

Sometimes I think it’s the deck itself that is doing the talking, like this set of cards know what’s going on, not that it’s any higher powers talking to me.

With that, I have use cards to talk to higher powers/things that go bump in the night/my Friend in the backyard. Ask a question, pull a card for the answer.

Sometimes I think I am looking for an answer and the cards make me think about that is going on.

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Witchcraft XIV

Which (witchy) holidays, if any, would I like to celebrate and how?

 

Halloween is my high holy day. I ward, I light a fire at night and watch The VVitch outside after casting my spells.

My practice is right now at a time of change. I am marking the Witch’s Sabbats because I have the Seasons of the Witch oracle decks and using them in my daily draws.

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Witchcraft XIII

What in nature am I drawn to; the ocean, animals, the trees, etc.?

 

I like penguins, groundhogs, opossums, and vultures.

I love lilacs and all the flowers I have growing around my house.

I love the Gasconade River.

I like to get lost in the woods.

I love living out in the sticks.

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doing it

i am doing it.

i made a plan last week. cue up my podcast, set timer for 20 mins, and go.

i got shit done. i got The Work done! i am making steps on getting this place up to snuff for wanting to do all my goals for the year.

i hit the 60% mark for the month. that is low but i am proud of the shit that got done.

i am making strides and i pray i can keep this momentum up and going!

Witchcraft XII

What are the basic morals and ethics I feel I should live by?

 

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Witchcraft XI

Do I want to practice something similar to my ancestors?

 

It’s a hot mess of me finding out what my ancestors did.

I thought I came from a long line of German Roman Catholics. Then I find out we were Lutherans in the old county.

And on the other side, a mix of English Quakers.

And then I went down a rabbit hole of the Venus of Willendorf.

She was found 10 hours away (driving) from where my people came from in Germany. Not knowing what all was going on 30,000 years ago, my ancestors may have worship her.

Do I want to practice something similar to my ancestors? I think I am.

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trying to move

i am trying.

no SIMS tonight, i need to get shit done.

after i post this, i’m throwing cards, shower, meditate, and start a notebook.

this notebook is going to be a planner of sorts. i want to make list and plot out when i can do stuff and then DO IT!

chatted with Colt last night and i put words together.

i realized i have this habit of "doing ThIs will cure me of my current problem!" and then doing the thing, being better for a while, and then going back to square one.

i need to make real changes, no matter how small, to be able to move forward.

there is nothing holding me back but myself.

LIVE

i need to write and this is a half ass way of doing it.

i need to write, with pen and paper, something that might not make it to the world’s view and just kept to myself.

i know i need to write a plan. i tried this week and i got somewhere but not as far as i wanted.

i need to buckle down. do more, play less, get shit done. i don’t have doom hanging over my head, i have light and life and spring is almost here.

which means fall is starting soon (on the other side of the world) and i’m taking that energy and move forward with it.

i need to go. no more with plotting one thing that will cure me and then it happens and i don’t change.

change, i need to change and live.

Witchcraft X

What are my views on cursing/hexing?

 

Let’s say your friend get sick, cancer. You whip up a wonderful healing spell, to help them get cured of cancer.

It’s a healing spell, nothing as bane as a curse or hex. You would never do that!

But to the cancer, it’s a death curse, pure and simple.

Any work is bane work if you think about it. You want a job, you craft a spell for it, it pushes other people out of the way so you are the one getting the goods. You cursed someone so they didn’t get the job.

I firmly believe in hexing and cursing. It’s not evil or bad, it’s another tool in your caldron.

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Shadow and Light

 

This past week has been not good for me. I didn’t know I was waiting for Thursday afternoon.

It started that morning with work being work and me reaching god statues and being recognized by management that I am awesome. By the afternoon, I received not news but realization that a dark cloud that’s been over my head since May is now fucking gone.

I woke up to the sun shining and the cats singing. I saw this spread the other day and thought that this will give me insight but I have that now. I still want to do it because getting better is a never-ending action and this will get me to a new level of better.

What is hidden? Forget-Me-Not. What is hidden is this new life I can live out now. Things are going well and I don’t have to fear pending doom.

What is revealed? Sage. That I am done with one part of my life and can move to the next part.

How can the shadow serve you? Daisy. The shadow can show me the way to the light.

How can the light guide? Violet. I just need to bask in the light.

I thought February was going to be my starting month. I didn’t know that I needed things to align and it would take all of February.

I am ready for March.

Witchcraft IX

Simple or elaborate spells/rituals? Why?

 

Some days I need to pull out all the stops, light all the candles, put on the ritual dress.

Some days it’s just yelling in my backyard.

I need both. It’s just the way I roll.

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update

i am 67% done for the month, 12% done for the year, giving me a F.

i am not doing good. i fall into the Sims hole and not doing any The Work.

i don’t think i am going to reach my goal for this month. things just got away from me and Sims is sucking me down.

and with all that’s going on, i’m not seeing Izzy till freaking Ostara. haven’t seen them since Halloween and we are both ready for another date.

there is something poetic about the lining of our dates. and pagan.

they see me as a whole person and i swear it’s the first time a partner has seen me as a whole person. maybe it’s because i am a whole person now, not finding bits of myself and building who i am.

i need to get back on track. reading a page a day is moving forward and i’m not even doing that.

here’s to hoping by next week i am moving forward.

Witchcraft VIII

How do I believe magic works?

 

I believe that there is an energy that flows. I believe that magic is part of that, if not that. I believe that when I use certain herbs and colors and what not, I am bending that energy to make into that, i.e. using lavender to make things calm.

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the cards said to write and here i am

the cards said to write and here i am.

things are good. things are moving forward. i need to pick up speed but overall, i am content with myself.

Lent started today and i be damn if an asshole tried to manplain it to me. 8 years of Catholic wasn’t for nothing, motherfucker.

keep having chats with Izzy about stuff and, i’m going down a path i never thought i would. i don’t know if i am 100% certain and don’t know if i will live up to what they want but i am willing to try.

i have high hopes we see each other next week. i have hope in myself that i can live up to the texts i’ve been sending him.

i want to talk to Nicole but i am hesitant about it. i don’t know if i can commit to something so why ask for advice?

Fat Monday

want to write, have nothing to write.

Wednesday is Ash/Fish Day and i will be damn if any one tries to explain it to me.

trying to get another date with Izzy and shit keeps coming up. the texts, i think i am in danger but the good kind.

i think i am in good hands.

i just want those hands on me.

today marks 3 years of being celibate and being a recreational marijuana user. it also marks being 2 years single and 10 months of texting Izzy.

i am moving forward. just not in the ways i think i would be.

time to get some shit done to do The Work tonight.

blar

well, it’s been a week.

work has been a trip, mostly due to higher ups coming in and being dicks. that’s all i have to say about that shit.

Sims have been fun and i am trying to work a good balance of playing them and getting The Work done.

the cards say to study and i am failing with that. i need to clean a bit to get to the studying.

Witchcraft VII

What kind of deities, if any, do I want to honor?

 

Karpo. She is the Greek goddess of fall. I have fallen off the wagon so bad that a goal of this year is to get back into a devotion towards her.

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What's It All About?

i am still here. i only wanted to take January “off” and kick off February and then life happens.

i have been slacking. i tried playing Sims 4 and i just don’t care for the game. off chance i went to look to see if they had Sims 2 and they did. all of them for $30.

and down that hole i went, bad.

i am failing with doing The Work and that needs to stop, now. i am not moving forward and that is someone i don’t want to be.

the basement is getting cleaner, i have a job i like that is 1,000 times less stressful, i have a Bear in Rolla that likes me and wants me, i have my wonderful friends in Springfield, i have the fucking best niblings in the world, too many things are positive in my life for me to turn into mush.

so, tonight is the last night of goofing off. i need to buckle up and get to The Work. i need to step up my reading and studying. i need to get going with the cleaning.

is this all going to happen overnight? no. will i have setbacks, in this month alone? yes? can i read one page a day? fuck yes, i can do at least that.

let’s get going.

Witchcraft VI

 

Where do my witchy talents lie?

 

I know tarot is a big part of my practice and power. I also have a way in just creating spells in a hell of a creative way (love spell using a song from Rocky Horror Picture Show).

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Witchcraft V

What areas of witchcraft would I like to learn more about?

 

I have plans this year to work on some things with the tarot. I got some, ideas, and I want to try them out.

As for witchcraft as a whole, nothing is really hitting me right now.

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Witchcraft IV

Do I want to follow a path that has to do with a little nature, or a lot of nature?

 

My path has the right amount of nature for me.

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weekly update

i am 97% done for the month, 9% done for the year, giving me a F.

but i got the crafting shelf organized! fuck yes!

and i got projects unearthed that i need to work on.

and i got an idea what i want to paint. i have small canvas i can try things out on before i get out the big one.

next week i need to work on getting the crafting table cleaned off and then the living room and the altars.

the next step i need to work on is stop the scrolling in bed and start reading more. at minimum, i need to work on that Halloween poem book and the Sylvia Plath book.

and to get on with the working out and meditating.

i am moving forward, in more then one way.

Witchcraft III

What in witchcraft makes me happy?

 

That there is an answer for everything.

Whatever problem I have, I can find/work up a spell to solve it.

And there are so many ways to do witchcraft. I have body scrubs, body sprays, candles, charms. It’s all magic and it all works.

I am not powerless. I can look over my books and think and find an answer for anything.

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weekly update

i am 75% done for the month, 7% done for the year, giving me a F.

i am making forward progress on my weekends. i am cleaning and getting stuff done. what i am not doing is stuff during the week. i need to start doing something there.

i need to stop with the “doom scrolling” at night and just start reading in bed. i have too many books (just got 3 this week) and am not reading them. i saw a post where someone had a room floor covered with books they have not read, a foot or more deep.

i don’t want to be that person.

it also means i’m not going to the library for a while.

i also need to get on with working out and meditating.

and working towards the next level of my daily practice.

i did a post on Tumblr today that made me pause. it was about worshiping the Norse deities and said that start with what feels familiar/makes sense to you. after that, “Let your worship change as you develop a stronger interpersonal relationship with (and deeper understanding of) the deity you're venerating. You have complete freedom.”

i have fallen off the worshiping of Karpo that i don’t feel anything anymore. and last year made me rethink of how i ward my home and the adding of the seasonal oracle decks of Seasons of the Witch, i do have a lot of things in my head that i need to sit and work on.

but first, i need to clean this lair of mine.

maybe for Imbolc i can get the witchcraft rolling.

Witchcraft II

How do I see the divine?

 

My view of the divine have changed so much over the years I have been practicing.

Right now, I see the divine in the smallest of thing and the largest of things. Seeing the pray mantis in the fall, that is divine. The moon, that’s the divine. Sunsets and sunrises, all divine.

Nature is the divine for me.

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weekly update

i am 53% done with my January goals, 5% done for the year, giving me a F!

and we are only 3 days into this year!

i got my bedroom redone and i love it. there is more space. is it perfect? no but it will get tweaked as the year goes on.

i started on my vanity drawers. gods smack me if i buy another handkerchief.

after i wash them all, put them back into the vanity, i want to clean out the rest of that area. i know there are things i just need to toss and recognize what i have.

my plan is to start on one end of the basement and work my way towards the front. maybe by the end of the month i’ll be done? it would be nice.

i want everything to have a place, and not just a pile. i want to remember where i put things so they are not lost.

i think other parts of my life are in order that i feel the need to get my lair in order. a prim and proper order, and not this pile is the jean pile.

Witchcraft I

What draws me to witchcraft?

 

My first memories of wanting to be a witch was wanting to be the Wicked Witch of the West from The Wizard of Oz. If I had to be green and deal with monkeys, so be it.

It wasn’t till I found the witchcraft section of my small-town library that I discovered that witches were real, and I can learn to cast spells.

And then I found out about a goddess, Catholicism was way over for me.

I have been practicing for over 20 years now and only getting better every day.

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