To get Better

I want to be Better.

To be Better, I need to put in The Work.

To put in The Work, I need to work.

And that is the stopping stone.

From the top, what will happen to me if/when I am Better?

Define Better: being better means a clean living space, working out, a daily practice of my religion, a sense that my time off is dedicated to creativity and not to catching up with life.

Clean living space- it means what it means. Everything is put away, trash gone, closet organized, bathroom sparkles, there is no need for overhaul, just upkeep. Clean to let Babies come down. Clean so Colt can visit.

Working Out- putting in the time to move my body to get healthier, to get stronger.

Daily practice- become more magickal. To connect to what is out there, establish ties to the other worlds, aspire to a higher life. I want to my Mystical!

Time off- I feel I don’t own my time. I feel that because I don’t do “The Work” because WORK is soul-sucking, eye bleeding, mind-destroying, I need “Rest,” and then I feel guilty about “Rest” as I see it as laziness, that fucking Puritan thought-form.

I don’t come from Puritan. I come from English Quakers and German Lutherans.

I need to reset my thought into action. Easier said than done.

This power has to come from within, in a long, slow, painful procedure.

To get Better.