day 1, in so many ways

well hello November, i am glad to see you.

Halloween was wonderful. it was spent outside, with a fire, and The Witch and it was delightfully spooky. it fed my soul.

there was a bit of night magick and the use of my Halloween miracle.

in this, the year of myself 42, i, i feel that there has been a shift in me. i feel changed and i feel that i need to act on that.

there was a snap in my soul. that’s the only way i can describe it. i know it started on my birthday eve and more Oktober went on, the more i began to realized it.

i don’t want to be this current version of myself. i want to be better. i want to be better on all levels. i want to move past this person of wanting and be the person of has. i has it. i has the skills and powers to be better, so now i need to use them for that.

i don’t know anymore to explain then the view of being very selfish and focusing all on me and coming out the other side a bigger, badder, badass.

and not i need to take some time to do some creative writing because what am i but horrible at doing it all and failing one week in.