King

In the year of Our Lord-

And we are stopping right there. I usually start off with the year of Our Lord Bowie and, bless His name, we are not doing that this year.

I was at a loss on what would be the theme for this year, what would be the tag on my blog to note that this happen in 2023.

And when I was doing my year reading, the song came on and that solidified that inking of an idea I had for my theme: “King” by Florence and the Machine.

The line “I am no mother, I am no bride, I am king” hit me. I am no mother, I am no bride, what am I then?

I am King.

Last year was a trip of discovering Florence and the Machine and I went down the on all the vids I could find on the YouTubes.

Along with the theme song of “King”, my Year Card is Moon: “I perceive the truth through the inner veil and its reflection.” And that hits me so well for this year.

As for my goals for 2023, I take a moment to acknowledge that I won in getting shit done in 2022 but I did not get everything done. Most of what I did not get done carried over to this year.

What I discovered at my birthday and am carrying on in this year is that I want things. If I cannot get the things I want, I will defy my last 42 years and be the better version of me that I never knew I could be. This is not going to happen overnight; this will be a yearlong work.

By the end of this calendar year, I want to fill my clean, empty hall with grand self-mythology.

2022

In the Year of our Lord Bowie, crossed from this realm some 6 years now, we call this time 2022.

i’ve been snowed in for the last 3 days.

dear amer

70% done for the month (and it’s only day 1), 23% for the year, giving me a F grade, eh.

there won’t be a weekly update this week.

HAPPY PRIDE!!!

hi.

i should be in bed now.

part of my goals for this year was to write a 146 post.

HAPPY OKTOBER!!!

well hello November, i am glad to see you.

well, we are here.

update...

i’m still here.

i’m falling into a pit of not light and i don’t like it.

i think i am having anxiety over work and i really don’t like that. i don’t know what to do to make that better.

maybe i’m putting too much faith in the new year will bless me with something all new with everything.

maybe the pressure of improving my life is getting to me.

maybe i am living all in my head too much.

not an update

i am tempted to write a weekly update but, nah. none this week.

i did get part of the living room clean and ½ of my alter cleaned off. i really reorganized it and now have more room to burn things.

because i have the need to set things on fire, all the time.

hopefully get the other half cleaned off and build an altar to Karpo and get back on that train.

weekly update

well, we are here.

98% done for the year goals. will i hit 100%? i don’t know. i am working forward.

i want to get all my laundry done for tomorrow and i want to finish cleaning my bedroom. i keep debating if i want to add more mood lighting to it and, i’m so on the fence on it.

and, maybe clean the bathroom.

tonight feels like a night to crawl into bed and watch TV on my tablet.