weekly update

26% for the year, 104% for the month, 65% average! D! whoot!

among doing the work, i hit a bump that led me to an awaking.

my main question to myself was why was not working on theses goals? i know this is a year long project but i should be up to 25% for the year and i was just dragging my feet on everything.

and then it hit me.

what happens when i get all my goals done? what happens when i get everything done on this list?

and that is what i’m scared of. i am scared of the after. i’m scared of hitting all the marks and having free time. i didn’t put any goals for writing this year. if i get everything done, i could write. i could work more on my witchcraft. i could read more, work out more, meditate more. what could i not do?

and that is what i want and scared of working for it.

and now that is a shadow that has been chasing me, i’m chasing it.

i am going to be that bitch to get shit done!