domino effect

Hi. I’ve been journaling for the past 20 years. I went back to 2001 and to see what I wrote.

This. This is what sticks in my head every year on this day:

The lead story on the Today show was Michael Jordan coming back to play basketball for the Washington Wizards.

I want to say it was Kaite Couric who said that line. I caught that before going out the door, a little after 7 AM, CST, that Tuesday morning. I had a half-hour drive till I got to school.

I was 20. I was going to turn 21 in a few weeks. I still thought I was a straight girl, and I had never been kissed.

And you want to hear the sick, twisted thing about that day? Want to listen to my domino effect?

That got me my first real guy friend, and that led to me being this badass, asexual non-binary you see here today. my depression went up a notch 20 years ago, and me writing and posting on Open Diary, yeah. I got Christopher, then Brian, then Jim, and that got me to Matthew and Colt.

You can fight me on my thought process, but I was there, inside my head. If the people of Tic Tok can trace Twilight to 9/11, I can trace my own becoming then.

I end this with a song fitting about being in this county for the past 20 years.