sluggish

i keep changing the date of this entry and never writing anything.

i know work is stressful. it feels that it sucked everything out of me and i don’t want to do anything when i get home. the idea of sitting down, drinking a glass of wine, and watching a new show, it feels too much to me.

and today. i keep seeing all this Halloween stuff out in stores and then when i get to mine, there is none. grant it, i have been collecting Halloween stuff for the past 29 years, and i am happy with all i have. i take it that i am very picky of what i buy now but it feels like there is nothing to look over. like, i can’t just look over a full display and think how someone will enjoy this and not have any pull to buy it. there is just nothing out there for me to look at.

and with fall starting so soon, i feel the nip in the air, and the other day i was crunchy leaves under my shoes and i felt nothing. nothing!

i primed Nicole’s panting a year ago and still, it’s not done and it needs to be done in 10 days.

i got three decks of cards that i need to work on.

books to be read.

stuff to make.

things to do.

words to write.

and nothing gets done.

i keep think that i got ADHD or something and i know i don’t. i just don’t do anything but be lazy.

this sluggish month is an ass and i need it to be over and better.