i’ve seen a hashtag on twitter called #1000WordsOfSummer. i thought i could join in with this but it’s a 1,000 words a day.
nerp.
what i am planning is at least 20 mins a day spent on writing. i don’t know what i’m writing but i got some paths i want to try to walk down.
and there’s always the cards to pull if i need some help.
i should just pull tarot cards and write what that is.
i need to prep for June.
there’s a time in September when the Halloween stuff starts slowly coming out and the world turns witchy and gothic and dark.
i feel that way about PRIDE. in a few days, everything will be rainbows and queer.
this PRIDE, i’m celebrating being non-binary and asexual. the asexual part was easy to deal with, the non-binary was a trip.
i know i’m not a woman, and i’m sure as hell not a man. as Prince said “I am something that you'll never understand”.
and to be perfectly honest, i chose the term non-binary because it fits me but mostly i like the colors of the flag.
i really feel the need to write again. i don’t know what to write but i want to. if i give up the hour of wasting and spent that on writing, maybe i’ll get somewhere, somehow.
here’s hoping June is better.
i got my herbs in. i have sulfur now! beside what i’m using for my spell next week, i’m making a list of all the things i want to make for, fun.
*cackles*
i also have started making another cart with me pulling out my other books to see what all i can start making.
it’s odd. as we get closer to summer, i feel a swing of getting witchyer. i thought i was a fall witch?
but really, after a month of feeling like BLAR, cleaning the basement has made be feel better. this place is SO much better.
and, i might have stopped this week, but i am still trying for 20 mins a night. it’s doing so much for me, cleaning and making me feel better and no, i’m not going to stop talking about this.
Friday night will find me in a hotel room with the boyfriend for a sleepover. i am taking my hexing book to plot out some shit.
got to keep busy.
got to get up and finish up some stuff.
let’s do it, 3 blogs post in 3 days!
i want to talk about crocheting.
with all the cleaning that i am doing, i am unearthing crochet projects i had abandoned.
i got 4 Works In Progress (WIPS): a bag for an oracle deck, an altar cloth, an afghan, and a poncho. and then i have 2 more ideas: a bag for my new tarot deck and a tablecloth for my coffee table.
i know if i sit and work on it, i can get the oracle bag and altar cloth done in a week. i need to sort out the poncho (i found ALL my hooks and need to kinda start all over on it…) and the afghan to boot.
i know the afghan needs to be reorganized to make sure i’m making it right. after that, we are off on it.
the poncho, maybe 3rd time is the charm. i found all my hooks so i know which one i want to work with and just start all over. this time, keep track of my rows better.
the bag for my tarot deck, i don’t know what color to use. nothing is coming to mind but, i really haven’t work with the deck so maybe next month when i do, a color will come to me.
the tablecloth, i think i know the yarn i want to use and i think i have a pattern for it.
just need to sit and work some yarn out.
hitting it 2 days in a row!
i want to talk about the ideal of "Unfucking Your Habitat”.
Dorothy Morrison wrote in Utterly Wicked: Hexes, Curses, and Other Unsavory Notions that part of not feeling like you yourself are not cursed is cleaning your own home space. and while there is some magickal ways to clean your space, let’s talk about PHYSICALLY cleaning your space.
i am the worst at that concept. i never had my own space till just in the last few years, to keep the way i want, and have space for all my stuff and for it to be clean. what is a non-binary to do?
i found something. i found "Unfucking Your Habitat”. it just changed the way i look at cleaning.
the biggest takeaway from this “system” is the idea of 20/10: work for 20 minutes, break for 10 minutes.
and with having weeks of feeling non-human, reading about cleaning your space to uncurse yourself, i decided i can manage to do at least 20 minutes of cleaning after working all day.
motherfuckers.
i started on Monday and shit that was just a mess got done in 20 minutes. i don’t know if i can’t covert how long it takes to clean stuff that i’m just amazed how much one can do in 20 minutes.
i read the first book and have the 2nd book on my wish list. as for this cleaning as an uncursing myself, i haven’t felt it yet. there is some magick i want to work on the next full moon and i’m hoping that all this will clear out the blars and bring in some light.
if anything, this place needs a good scrubbing.
i spend $60 on herbs last night and supported another oracle deck on Kickstarter today. i have big plans for the next full moon after reading Utterly Wicked: Hexes, Curses, and Other Unsavory Notions by Dorothy Morrison.
i am really getting my witch on.
and that’s not including the wild plans i have with for the summer with my cards.
summer, if it every get here. the weather this past few weekish is not god for me. i’m falling into an opposite of my version of SAD that happens in the fall. instead of dying for it to cool off, i’m dying for it to warm the freak up. the heat is still on, i still got my jeans on at work, and the electric blanket is on and running on my bed.
so now i’m off to do a 20 minute clean up of the basement so i can shower and drink the night away.
i might be starting to feel more human…
the past week was not good for me. my head was just in a place that was not good.
my lovely idea of coming home Friday nights, shower, pjs, wine, and Tom Hiddleston got shot to hell by Marvel. now it’s gonna be Wednesday morning and Tom Hiddleston.
i have been reading Utterly Wicked: Hexes, Curses, and Other Unsavory Notions by Dorothy Morrison. it has been giving me ideas and i’m excited about that.
the thing that is kinda getting to me is the lack of writing. i just don’t have any ideas i want to put down on paper. and even if i throw out the idea of a short story, still nothing.
Grow my business. I did get some business last month. And tomorrow I get paid!
Write 52 blog posts. This post will see me at 79% done!
Read 3 books. Read 4 books. Read 5 books. Standstill.
Develop a daily practice/meditation and set up an ancestral altar. Shadow work. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I make goals and try and something just don’t go. Maybe this is shadow work.
Crochet. I am crocheting when I’m watching TV. I am making rounds on a project so, there is some forward motion on that.
Write. Yeah, I don’t know about this anymore. I don’t think I have any creativity in me anymore. I get ideas but, in long-form, nerp. And then I thought of poetry and nerp there. I don’t have words anymore.
Improve my body. Ok, right now I am down 9.8 lbs, beating the shit out of THIS month’s goal, on day 4. I want to start working out, so there is that mini-goal of the month.
Overall, I am not moving as forwards as I want to. Steps in some places, nothing in others. Not moving forwards doesn’t mean that I am moving backward. Treading water is still moving, just moving in place
