things

i need to sit down and look over my goals and put them in an order of doing them. maybe not all of them but a good chunk of them.

mostly the books to read and the decks to study. by putting them in an order i have a map and can start making some forward progress.

along with that, i can put my other goals into another list.

i keep throwing away my days off and i don’t know how to stop that. i deleted TikTok so maybe that will help…?

i am not. i am not doing all that i should do and i don’t know why i-

what happens if i have that “perfect” life that is always outside my reach? i achieve an order and cleanliness-

if cleanliness is next to godliness, fuck all if that’s not a devotion to my deity…

to shower, to catch up on The Last of Us and hopefully crochet in there.

my mind is moving too fast right now.