November 30, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1151

Today you almost ___.”


no, i did something today.
i got a “new” car.
2015: went off on a manager.
2014: did something.
2013: got got.




November 29, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1150

“What five words describe your mood?”


drunk, fearful, pissed off, depressed, sad.
2015: tired, pissed off, blood thirsty, fucked.
2014: tired, good, melancholy, hopeful, lonely.
2013: stressed, stressed, stressed, stressed, stressed.



November 28, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1149

“What was the last risk you took?”


i really don’t remember. i know i take them, nothing stands out right now as a “big risk”.
2015: i really don’t remember. i know i take them, nothing stands out right now as a “big risk”.
2014: writing down the story: “The Pirate and the Witch.”
2013: changing jobs. 



November 27, 2016

November 26, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1147

“What three words describe your family?”


big, tall, mean.
2015: big, tall, mean.
2014: big, tall, mean.
2013: big, tall, mean.



November 25, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1146

“How much water did you drink today?”


not enough.
2015: not enough.
2014: better than last year but not enough.
2013: not enough.



November 24, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1145

“Who have you recently deleted from your contacts/address book?”


no one.
2015: no one.
2014: no.
2013: well, i did deleted someone from Facebook awhile back.



November 23, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1144

“What is your favorite brunch food?”


i don’t do bunch.
2015: i don’t do brunch.
2014: i don’t do brunch.
2013: really? this is a thing?



November 22, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1143

“What are you trying to do?”

better my life.
2015: move.
2014: better my life.
2013: bleed.



November 21, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1142

“What are your favorite shoes?”


just look back on previous year’s answers.
2015: i wear shoes. i have, 2 pair right now so, i’m not a woman of many shoes.
2014: still don’t have a pair. i have shoes, i wear them when i need to.
2013: don’t have a pair.



November 20, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1141

“What do you have to get done?”

my life.
2015:still, my room.
2014: my room. :-( 
2013: my room.


November 19, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1140

“When was the last time you checked an online social network?”


online all the time, yo.
2015: I’M ONLINE 24/7!!!
2014: I’M ALWAYS ON, ALL THE TIME!!!
2013: on one now.



November 18, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1139

“What is your dream job of the day?”


mother and wife.
2015: full time witch.
2014: full time witch.
2013: full time witch.



November 17, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1138

“Which friends(s) did you last speak to?”


Matthew.
2015: Matthew.
2014: Matthew.
2013: Matthew.



November 16, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1137

“What are you obsessed with right now?”

getting better.
2015: nothing right now.
2014: crocheting.
2013: Thor and all the Avengers.



eh


have the need to write, don’t have a thought to put down on paper.
need to get off and work on getting better. i have a plan, a weak plan but a plan.
still coming down from my trip, trying to get back to a “regular” schedule and life path.
working on my alternate universes dystopia is not a fun idea anymore.
got an idea for “Adventures of the DarkShark and his Witch” but, eh.




November 15, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1136

“Waking up was ___”

ok.
2015: kinda nice.
2014: short and unfulfilled.
2013: pleasant.



no words


i wanted to write something. something about what happen last week.
some things hit me this weekend. some things make me realized how much i don’t fit in, being in the sticks, that the city would be a good place for me.
and somehow, Matthew is not pure evil.
i think, i’m still too close to it all to sort it all out and put it in words. i need to let is fester inside of me and come out, pure and hot.



After Times "..."




there’s been tears. lots of tears and some panic.
i use the line “maybe we’ll be in the same concentration camps” with a bit a humor and a bit of fear, will this happen?
i know i have privilege. i have the whiteness and i have the looks of being heterosexual.
but i’m a woman, a pagan, a queer. there’s some marks against me and i will go down swinging.
Friday was rough but me and Matthew made it to Nicole’s. we went to two bars and then home.
the first one was ok, the second one was better, The Fortune Teller Bar. there’s a “side” joint inside of it that sells sandwiches. mine was awesome, Matthew’s was awesome. i want to say it was hipsterish but i don’t know...
i did get my fortune told. i went in, pentacle covered, and didn’t give her anything. this was going to be an ice-cold reading.
and, it was good. good things coming. odd cards but reading my own symbolism into the cards, i’m going with good coming soon.
back to Nicole’s, with her friend Todd. Matthew bailed but me and her and him stated up, smoked some pot (i don’t think i got high and next time there will be mushrooms) and gods, an airing of all the shit we lived thought. names were brought up and things and oh my gods.
my gods.
next morning came with a very hungover Nicole and me and Matthe off to see the zoo.
highlights: the Tasmanian devils, penguins, and seeing the red panda pooing.
really, the Tasmanian devils were awesome. not a lot of peeps there, they were active, and i got to see them in motion.
if opossums are what are good and light in the world, then Tasmanian devils are the dark and demons of the world.
went back to Nicole’s to find her alive. packed our stuff and we headed out to CoMo.
Chili’s, hotel, mall, grandparents, went home on Sunday.
and Monday was back to the real world.

Before Times “Come At Me Bro!”




it was a great night, in the before time.
Ethan picked me up and we had an uneventful ride to see Shelby. Ethan had David Bowie and i greatly need to hear those songs.
we met up with Shelby, who Snapchatted the night away. me and Ethan are part of her squad.
i’m part of 2 squads. when did i become so popular?
we ate at Chili’s. the top shelf Long Island Ice Tea was good and got my feet warm.
and then we had ice cream at Sonic.
the movie, the movie. what can i say?
trippy as fuck. hate to see it on acid or other but damn, what a trip.
welcome to the MCU Benedict. glad to see you here.
the ending… SPOILERS!!!
should have seen the Time Stone showing up. i was wrapped up too much in the story to even think about it.
and then Thor shows up and hey, look! let’s set up the movie that’s coming out NEXT FUCKING YEAR!
end of SPOILERS.
and then we came out of the movie and looked on the internet.








November 14, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1135

“What do you need to vent about?”


*uncontrollably laughing about what all has been going on in the political year*
2015: nothing.
2014: work.
2013: work.



November 13, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1134

“What song could be your self-portrait?”





“Heroes” by David Bowie?
2015: still have not found one.
2014: still have not found a song that would be me.
as for a theme song for the now, i don’t have one. went kinda dark where the songs of Buffy and Muppet’s Most Wanted got to me.
2013: i’m more about my theme song for the now. never thought of a self-portrait.
i really don’t know what would be a good self-portrait for me. any ideas?





November 12, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1133

“Is there anything missing in your life?”




i am working on that.
2015: lots of things.
2014: Colt.
2013: loaded question. don’t know if i want to air them here.
children.




November 11, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1132

“What do you always avoid?”


work.
2015: life.
2014: i don’t know. it changes so often that i can’t keep up.
2013: creepers at work, ass mangers Chris.



November 10, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1131

“Where do you find pleasure?”




in the simpleness of my friends.
2015: still with my men, now that i have 3: Colt, Jacob, and Matthew.
2014: with my men.
2013: everywhere.



Trick or Treating



Halloween was wonderful. i went over to Jessica’s with chili for Trick or Treating. we made it around the block before Emily and the dog had to go home.
we went 2 miles, came home, passed out some candy, had a piƱa coladas, and then i went home.

November 9, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1130

“Did you leave work on time?”


yes.
2015: yes.
2014: off today.
2013: was off today.



November 8, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1129

“What topic are you bored talking about?”



the election.
2015: same as last year.
2014: sometimes when Matthew goes on about Star Trek too much.
2013: nothing.



November 7, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1128

“Who is your hero?”




i hope my new hero will be Dr. Strange.
2015: Colt.
2014: i don’t feel i have any heroes right now. ask me again next year.
2013: THOR!!!



November 6, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1127

“What time did go to bed last night?”



kinda later then i wanted to.
2015: eh.
2014: about same time as the last few days.
2013: way too late.



Dread

written on the 3rd of November, right before going in the store.
I’m sitting in the parking lot of the store, filled with dread. I know, once I go in, it’s gonna be “MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS” shoved down my throat so hard I’ll be shitting Christmas trees. 


It’s November. It’s gray today and kinda rainy. These are the days I live for, gray fall days in a post Halloween world. It’s the days I was made for. 


I think I liked Christmas, once upon a time. In days where it didn’t start till day after Thanksgiving/December 1st. Where you only had 25 days to get it all in: sing all the songs, watch all the movies, eat all the cookies! And then the afterglow that lasted till January 2nd and then it was depressing cold winter. 


My 25 days of Christmas was used up before the middle of Halloween, once the Christmas trees were put out on display. 


I’m done with Christmas. I know I have a few gifts to crochet but other than that, I have no love in my heart for this blasted season.

November 5, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1126

“What should remind as-is?”



nothing. i’m hoping that i am at a start of a reboot.
2015: nothing. i am in a major need of a reboot.
2014: nothing.
i need a change.
2013: nothing.




November 4, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1125

“Today you made___.”



nothing.
2015: nothing.
2014: a choice.
2013: an endcap.



November 3, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1124

“When did you last hold a baby?”



Halloween, 2016!
2015: way long ago when Ellie was one.
2014: longer ago when Ellie was one.
2013: long ago when Ellie was one.



November 2, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1123

“What’s your biggest expense right now?”

student loans.
whoot for it not being my credit card this year!!!
2015: still, my credit card.
3 years in a row, this has to stop.
2014: still, my credit card. :-/
2013: my credit card.





November 1, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1122

“What was something you couldn’t do today?”


start.
2015: all my work.
2014: hide.
2013: relax.