October 31, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1121

“Halloween plans? What’s your costume?”

will blog about this day, later.
2015: will blog about this later and post link here when it’s up.
2014: nothing.
2013: my plans are to go over to Colt’s for tacos and spook movies and a bit of magick.
i’m basically dressings as "myself”.

October 30, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1120

“Are you able to tell when you had enough?”

i don’t know anymore.
2015: no.
2014: to drink, yes and no.
2013: enough what?

October 29, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1119

“Camping or hotel?”

still game to pop a tent and spend a night in the backyard.
2015: still game to pop a tent and spend a night in the backyard.
2014: hotel. hotel with a whirlpool, even better.
2013: hotel. willing to try camping. told Matthew it might be fun to sleep in a tent in the backyard one night.

October 28, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1118

“___ is completely ridiculous.”

the store.
2015: i really don’t know. nothing seems out there, right now.
2014: till 2019, i got dates with Matthew, Colt, and the MCU.
2013: the fact the inbreed rednecks of Arkansas think we can do what we do with no people and no hours.

October 27, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1117

“What was the last goofy thing you did?"

don’t remember.
2015: i really don’t remember.
2014: told someone that i did not want to cuddle with their cat.
2013: truly? save a toy kitty from the jackass at the service desk.

October 26, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1116

“How do you feel about your body?”

2015: my feet are burning, due to new shoes and them getting worked on this weekend.
other than that, i’m okish.
2014: fine.
2013: today, ok. fat and a bit gooy.

late to the party

coming late to the party, i’ve started watching Orange is the New Black. wow, the lesbian sex in this show.
and, as someone who’s not seen that much lesbian porn, or had sex with another woman, umm, wow. so, is that how’s it done?
but, as much as it seems there is a dime a dozen stereotypes, there’s a woman of about every flavor in the show. it’s almost, showing all the flavors of womenness you could ever make. i’m loving it just on the bases that, i’m drawing from all the flavors. it’s feeding my soul somehow.
and for a drama, it’s nice not to see “white people” problems all the time. it’s different, all new, it’s just so damn different and it’s great.
and i have not hit the season with Ruby Rose yet.

October 25, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1115

“What is the most honest thing you’ve said today?”

2015: i think it was just a day of white lies, just to look like i’m nice and happy.
2014: i don’t recall. been keeping things to myself.
2013: whatever it was i know it was to Colt. i’m almost overly honest with him.

October 24, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1114

“How are you? Write it in a rhyming couplet (two lines of verse that rhymes and have the same rhyme).”

I worked.
I hurt.

2015: i’m off today

2014: work sucked
everything fucked.

2013: today was the same old, some old
and now in my room, it grows cold and cold 

October 23, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1113

“Who is the last person on your missed calls?”

2015: Matthew.
2014: Matthew.
2013: Matthew.

October 22, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1112

“Write a haiku about your day.”

not a good work day.
I felt like shit all day long
Not know what was wrong

2015: off on a payday,
fucking up my days of the week
day off, day on: bad.

2014: two days off, in row,
fix me and my car, free time
inventory, morrow.

2013: Wal-Mart I went to,
not mine, another i go,
Krazy, again, broke.

October 21, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1111

“What new word have you learned?”

asexual and demisexual.
2015: from a while ago but i’ve learned polyamorus and metamour.
2014: really have not learn any new worlds lately.
2013: fag hag.

October 20, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1110

“Who do you count on?”

Colt, Jacob, Matthew, Nicole, Shelby.
2015: Colt, Jacob, Matthew, Nicole, Shelby.
2014: Colt, Matthew, Nicole.
2013: Colt, Matthew, Nicole.

October 19, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1109

“What was your last credit card purchase?”

no clue and i’m not looking it up.
2015: crap from the store.
2014: soap and vitamins at the store.
2013: Much Ado About Nothing, on blu-ray.

October 18, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1108

“What famous living famous person would you want to meet for drinks?”

Joss. just Joss and some martinis.
2015: my first thought was Tom Hiddleson.
but Joss is still boss.
2014: still Joss.
2013: Joss.

lostish? maybe?

so, what has been going on?
and with that word, i just wanted to copy and paste and post it up on my blog, but no, let’s talk.
Colt left is job and is going back to the store. he was being mopy about things and, in his words, bitch slap him with a text.
i thought it more of a kick in the ass.
and then i got out of bed and started my day.
this is like the 2nd time i’ve had to be, i don’t know the words for it. it was the 2nd time that me and him texted back to “fix” things, all before i got out of bed.
oh the things i could do to that boy if we lived together.
i still need to get my act together and send Colt that email i need to send.
now i’m off to play Skyrim.

October 17, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1107

“What’s the most valuable thing you own?”

i don’t own my friends or my men but that’s what i count as most valuable.
2015: i don’t own my friends or my men but that’s what i count as most valuable.
2014: my friends
2013: money wise or what i prize?
my laptop. i think.

October 16, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1106

“You woke up at ___.”

i don’t remember but i know i took a pic of the full moon at 4:33 AM.
2015: bit before 9 AM.
2014: quarter to 8 AM.
2013: quarter to 9 AM.

October 15, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1105

“How much time do you spend commuting?”

2015: same as the last 2 year’s answers.
2014: same as last year’s answers. what i have learn is that there’s this space/time thing. the slower i go from Belle to Owensville, the faster i get to the store.
2013: takes about 45 mins to get to work, an hour to get back.

October 14, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1104

“What expression do you overuse?”

none, right now.
2015: none right now.
2014: “My show’s on.”
2013: ask the DarkShark.

October 13, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1103

“You have no patience for___”.

working in retail, you learn that there is no logic to i can’t have patience for anything, anymore.
2015: i really don’t know anymore. i think i’ve given up on a “normal” life so i’m just coasting till death.
2014: lack of myself.
2013: myself.

October 12, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1102

“One word for today.”

2015: zoning.
2014: rainy.
2013: long.

sweet 36

so last week was my birthday and partying and many good things.
Matthew got here on time and we made our way north. the hotel was nice and i was able to crochet and finished Shelby’s shawl, thank the gods.
after some running a round, we fulfill Matthew’s dream/goal/fantasy of picking up a collage girl on a street corner. Shelby and Matthew met and i think they liked each other.
Chili’s was ok. and then the movie!
we saw The Magnificent Seven.
the movie, it made me fall in love with Vincent D’Onofio (seeing this and Daredevil, when the hell are they going to give the man an award for acting!?!). Chris Pratt makes a great cowboy and i think, this was my first Denzel movie.
overall, the movie was good. it reminded me of Avengers, group of oddballs forming a team to take out the bad guy. it was, different but i liked it.
i LOVED how the rhythm of the theme was the backbone of the all the side music. it was awesome.
dropped off Shelby, me and Matthew head back to the hotel to ring in my birthday.
on my day, i dressed like a normal adult, went to the mall, went to Grandma and Grandpa Bob’s and then home.
it was low key birthday.

October 11, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1101

“What makes you feel wonderful?”

it cooled off.
2015: right now, Oktober.
2014: not having to work tomorrow.
2013: today, the fact i got Much Ado About Nothing.

October 10, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1100

“Write down the name of someone you had a good conversation with recently.”

2015: i talk to everyone.
2014: no one.
2013: fucking Colt. :-(

October 9, 2016

October 8, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1098

“What is your biggest dream?”

cleaning my room.
2015: moving out.
2014: moving out.
2013: children. having them, pregnancy, birth.

October 7, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1097

“Are you happy with your choices today?”

not really.
2015: maybe.
2014: no.
2013: sorta. should have gone to bed earlier than 5 AM. need to work on my room and diet. did get money sorted out.


i need to write about my birthday party. it’s almost past my bedtime right now or i would have wrote it.
i need to start crocheting on Jessica’s afghan. i need to buy green and find my black and start making some squares.
i need to work on being better. i don’t want to be in the Shack in The Woods for my 37th bday.
i’m almost 40.
i need a drink.

October 6, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1096

“Do you have any new friends?”

2015: yes i do! his name is Jacob.
2014: Shelby.
2013:  Colt. in fact, he’s part of my 3.
Tom might rank up here one day.

October 5, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1095

“What questions makes you anxious?”

“You’re not full time?”
2015: “When are you gonna have kids?”
2014: “Do you work here?”

October 4, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1094

“In three words, describe your love life.”

i don’t know where to start with this. i’m not who i was last year and my love life is not the same. if anything, i’ve opened my mind to new ideas.
2015: i can’t. the love i have makes it so that i’m in a love compound. there is too many people to just sum it up in 3 words.
2014: Matthew, Colt, Nicole.

October 3, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1093

"What was the last bad movie you watched?”

still Transformers: Age of Extinction.
2015: still Transformers: Age of Extinction.
2014: Transformers: Age of Extinction.

October 2, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1092

“What do you crave?”

days off to party with Matthew and Shelby.
2015: my days off and to see my men together.
2014: life.


here we are, Oktober. dear gods, it’s been a long time.
i did see someone call it the 1st of Halloween. i think that’s the best idea ever.
it was to be the start of things and it didn’t really happen. i need to start moving forward or i’m only going to doom myself.

October 1, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1091

“What are you a geek about?”

first off, it’s nerd.
Joss is has my heart. Buffy all the way!
but Joss is what got me into the MCU.
2015: yes, first off it’s nerd.
the biggest is, of course, Joss. Joss will always be first.
and with Joss, that lead to the MCU.
2014: first, it’s nerd.
second, i’m all about Joss Whedon, the MCU, and Doug Walker.