i’m living in one right now and see no way out.
September 30, 2016
September 29, 2016
September 28, 2016
September 27, 2016
September 26, 2016
September 25, 2016
September 24, 2016
my dearest DarkShark,
when you told me you quit Twitter, it felt like i lost my whole audience, and my voice. it felt like i had no one to write for anymore.
so, i’m trying to sit and write and might as well make it a letter to you.
this summer has felt like a waste. i didn’t walk like i did last year, i didn’t work on moving out. i kept putting everything off. off until i’m dead, i guess.
my new goal is Oktober. i hoping by thing it will be fall.
and maybe it’s that i have SAD, due to sunshine, summer, heat, and humidity. this summer it was a fight not to get heat rash under my boobs.
so, here’s to me thinking Oktober will be the cure for things.
i still need to get colors and yarn and get to work on you and Jacob’s Yule gifts. i’m trying with the more grown up theme but it’s still Marvel, and i’m crocheting them.
i just feel weird about doing this as a joint gift.
i am trying to work on this new story idea. one day you’ll get a random email from me and it will be the first scene.
i wanted to write more but… i gave up on thought. it seems i have them until they need to be put on paper. and then they fail.
love you, my DarkShark.
cannot wait to see you again.
September 23, 2016
well the Quote of the Day from Penguin Ministry is from T. Thorn Coyle: “Creativity is a natural function.”
2015: well the Quote of the Day from Penguin Ministry is from Lord Byron: “I only go out to get me a fresh appetite for being alone.”
2014: “Happy Marvel Mabon! Blessed be, motherfuckers.”
September 22, 2016
September 21, 2016
September 20, 2016
*looks at last year. sigh*
September 19, 2016
September 18, 2016
September 17, 2016
September 16, 2016
so, here i am, 2 in the morning, typing on my Bluetooth keyboard to my tablet. oh what a time to live in.
i know this will get posted in daylight, and this blahness will pass over and what not, etc.
watching Project Runway has hit a spot in me that i want to create. i looked up my old Crayola fashion designer toy set. the modern one is all about "upload to out app and see a real person wearing it!!!" and i guess that's all cool, but not for me.
maybe it’s also the fact that Shelby is up in school learning how to get in Project Runway. and i want to draw people with clothes.
i want to paint.
i need to clean my room.
September 15, 2016
i am blessed that i still have all the same peeps that i had from last year: Colt, Jacob, Matthew, Nicole, and Shelby.
shout out to Jessica and my girls Ellie and Emily. if i have to build a white girl tribe, it will be with Ellie and Emily.
2015: i’m putting peeps in alphabetical order: Colt, Jacob, Matthew, Nicole, and Shelby.
2014: Colt, Matthew, Nicole.
(it’s way past my bedtime.)
i want to write my new idea of a story. i keep trying to start with the start but i think i need to just write and start putting it together.
i don’t know if i’m the hero of this story because i still have Colt in it. i actually put him in there twice.
i think it will be a good story and i need to just throw shit down and send it to Colt for him to look over.
i need to start writing, i really don’t care what. i tried writing poems and it just falls flat. i looked up different forms and still, no spark.
September 14, 2016
August seems to be the month i can’t get shit together. 2 years ago i blamed it on a mental break down and i’m not using that excuse this year.
i think it’s just it’s the end of summer and not the beginning of fall and the heat got to me.
it’s still not fall yet but i feel it coming. gods i hope it’s coming soon.
when it rained last week, i had 5 leaks in my room. i brought more drop clothes to keep down on ruining everything.
i hope with fall coming, that i start working on my room. i’m done with Skyrim (until i get the DL stuff). if it cools off, i can work.
i have been crocheting something for Shelby. i think it’s almost done. after that, i need to work on Jessica’s thing.
and then the boy’s gift.
also working with Nicole to get time off for her birthday.
i know this is a crappy post. i need to get back to a grove, of writing, working, being a better human.
hell, i failed/failing at Instagram.
i need such a kick in the ass.
September 13, 2016
September 12, 2016
September 11, 2016
what do you like/what is your passions? now go, work on that and be the best you can be.
2015: i stick by last year’s answer.
2014: don’t worry about what other people say. you are awesome as you are.
September 10, 2016
i… don’t think i am confused by anything right now.
or rather, i am not spending time on things i can logic.
2015: i’m looking over last year’s answers and i’m not confused by it anymore.
this year’s confusion is based on my boyfriend.
2014: that i’m turned on by gay men, drag queens, and nude women.
September 9, 2016
September 8, 2016
September 7, 2016
September 6, 2016
i have found much comfort in watching Brows Held High.
2015: i don’t remember.
2014: i think it was “Does American Beauty Still Hold Up?” by the Nostalgia Critic.
September 5, 2016
September 4, 2016
September 3, 2016
still trying to get my spark back.
2015: lately, nowhere. i know they are out there, the gods, i just haven’t felt them, or anything, lately.
2014: March of the Penguins. that’s were i first found it.