i was at work. you fucking tell me what the hell i am.
July 31, 2016
July 30, 2016
July 29, 2016
trip to CoMo with Matthew for Star Trek fun.
July 28, 2016
July 27, 2016
July 26, 2016
July 25, 2016
July 24, 2016
July 23, 2016
July 22, 2016
July 21, 2016
July 20, 2016
i got a surprise today.
in the mail came a small package, of a small book: The Witch’s Spell Book for Love, Happiness, and Success by Cerridwen Greenleaf.
the book fits in the palm of my hand, it is tiny and it’s fuzzy.
i txt Colt. we talk about the book (him not getting the fluffiness of the book) and about my Marvel gifts to them and it just made me sit and think.
yeah, i got them junk for Yule. it was all Marvel based but it was a grab bag for children, not for men.
this year’s Yule gift is more “adult”, still Marvel theme, but still…
i love Colt, and i love Jacob. i can’t, never put into words what Colt means to me. i cop out and say that i can sleep with Matthew, but i can’t sleep with Colt, to show the love i have for him.
i feel like a horrible friend.
July 19, 2016
July 18, 2016
July 17, 2016
i ask that question a lot at work. i really don’t care about those people.
i do care about MY people. and often i ask “what do you want me to do?”
2015: ask who i have helped. they all have tags on this blog.
2014: with what? i’m okay with some vague questions and even the stupid ones are cute but this bullshit, it’s gotta stop.
July 16, 2016
July 15, 2016
i want to fix the broken but i can’t seem to fix the broken that is in me.
2015: i want to fix the broken but i can’t seem to fix the broken that is in me.
2014: i want to fix the broken.
July 14, 2016
July 13, 2016
things that my friends have given me.
2015: my high school band shirts. i can’t get rid of them, can’t cut them and make a quilt out of them. they just sit there, waiting.
2014: i’ve kept a blog for over 13 years. what am i not sentimental about?
July 12, 2016
July 11, 2016
still going with the Wicked Witch.
2015: still would be the Wicked Witch. her and Miss Piggy were the biggest influences on me.
2014: Wicked Witch of the West!
July 10, 2016
July 9, 2016
July 8, 2016
and here dear diary is the rest of the story.
yesterday my phone took a swim in the toilet. i quickly grabbed it and took it apart, thinking that that saved it.
i was wrong.
when i got to break and put it back together, it was fine except it thought it was August 26, 2014 and about 9 in the morning.
and then i found out it wouldn’t charge.
so i spent most of today without a phone and tonight, did a run to the ATT store for a phone.
just a phone. that’s all i wanted. i have a new laptop i’m trying to pay off, just a phone.
“It was only a kiss.”
i walked out with my new phone, and i tablet, and a smart watch.
dear sweet baby Loki.
i’m ok. it’s a kick in the head for the set up but the bill is only supposed to be $20 more a month and i’ll be ok.
living in a box by the river.
so looking forward to the high speed WiFi at the hotel on Tuesday.
July 7, 2016
July 6, 2016
July 5, 2016
and i am alive.
i worked 6 days in a row, over the 1st of the month weekend, that also was a holiday weekend. i was fit to be tied at the end.
tea. tea is what is getting thought this. it’s SUMMER OF TEA and i have been using my tea maker and brewing all sorts of oddness. mixing and matching and honey and lemon and let’s see what the hell happens!
and i also got an idea for another story, a fun little rom com with a twist. i got a titles, i got the charterers, need to sit down and start the first wave of it. i just needs names for everyone.
and i need to sit down and listen to Heathen before i buy Diamond Dogs. i reckon that Diamond Dogs would be the best David Bowie to listen to to write a dystopia story to.
next week is Matthew’s birthday and i am really looking forward to the room with the whirlpool and high speed internet.
need to go eat and get my clothes off the line. and i need to work some on getting my life better.
July 4, 2016
July 3, 2016
July 2, 2016
July 1, 2016
i got to the of work and my mind was not working. and that bother me because my Hulk strength didn’t kick in so i was feely pretty worthless.
i went on break, pop in my earbuds and rocked out my music.
and right now, i have my beloved Meat Loaf blasting out of my laptop.
and i am doing my damnest to sing along, at the top of my lungs, to all the really good parts.
and i am human again.
i’ve been bad. i don’t go to bed till 2 in the morning for the past few days. i haz the internet in my room right now and, yes i have been bad.
i have been working on my newish story. i think i need David Bowie to help me with this.
i still haven’t listen to Heathen yet but i do have in on the laptop now.
and i need to find out how to get my playlist on my laptop.
and i need to find my tarot cards.
and i need to sit down and think on how i want to flex my magick on some people.
oh look! i need video games and look, i have Steam back on this laptop!