July 31, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1029

“Today you were a wallflower or a social butterfly?”

i was at work. you fucking tell me what the hell i am.
2015: kept my head down and got work done.
2014: i fucking hate people.

July 30, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1028

“Today was unusual because___.”

i open on a Saturday.
2015: first day of Jessica’s vacation.
2014: i have not blog in forever.

July 29, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1027

“What was the last road trip you took?”

trip to CoMo with Matthew for Star Trek fun.
2015: #Avengerpalzooa.
2014: mini trip to Rolla to see the bf.

July 28, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1026

“Write a phase to describe your year so far.”

gotta get moving.
2015: loved by many.
2014: hopeful for next year.

July 27, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1025

“What can you smell right now?”

the world.
2015: the world.
2014: the world.

July 26, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1024

“Are you working hard or hardly working?”

both, at the same time.
2015: both, at the same time.
2014: both.

July 25, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1023

"If you could hire any artist (living or dead) to paint your portrait, who would you pick?"

Dalí or Warhol.
2015: Dalí or Warhol.
2014: Dalí or Warhol.

July 24, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1022

“What’s in your fridge?”

i don’t own one.
2015: i really don’t own a fridge.
2014: food.

July 23, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1021

“What was the last thing you baked or cooked?”

don’t recall.
2015: made myself a breakfast burrito the other day.
2014: tacos.

July 22, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1020

“Where do you go for good ideas?”

Colt. he’s been the inspiration for the last few years’ worth of writing.
2015: Nicole.
2014: myself. if not me, then Nicole.

July 21, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1019

“Who was the last person to make you angry?”

2015: myself.
2014: the bf pisses me off mostly.

July 20, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1018

“Does anything hurt today?”

my back.
2015: i don’t think so.
2014: my back.

not a good freind

i got a surprise today.
in the mail came a small package, of a small book: The Witch’s Spell Book for Love, Happiness, and Success by Cerridwen Greenleaf.
the book fits in the palm of my hand, it is tiny and it’s fuzzy.
i txt Colt. we talk about the book (him not getting the fluffiness of the book) and about my Marvel gifts to them and it just made me sit and think.
yeah, i got them junk for Yule. it was all Marvel based but it was a grab bag for children, not for men.
this year’s Yule gift is more “adult”, still Marvel theme, but still…
i love Colt, and i love Jacob. i can’t, never put into words what Colt means to me. i cop out and say that i can sleep with Matthew, but i can’t sleep with Colt, to show the love i have for him.
i feel like a horrible friend.

July 19, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1017

“What do you need to throw away?”

a lot of crap.
2015: a lot of things.
2014: lots of things.

July 18, 2016

July 17, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1015

“How can you help?”

i ask that question a lot at work. i really don’t care about those people.
i do care about MY people. and often i ask “what do you want me to do?”
2015: ask who i have helped. they all have tags on this blog.
2014: with what? i’m okay with some vague questions and even the stupid ones are cute but this bullshit, it’s gotta stop.

July 15, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1013

“What is your heroic downfall? Your Achilles’ heel?”

i want to fix the broken but i can’t seem to fix the broken that is in me.
2015: i want to fix the broken but i can’t seem to fix the broken that is in me.
2014: i want to fix the broken.

July 14, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1012

“Do you have a secret? More than one?”

if you only knew.
2015: secrets so bad that i can’t even write them here.
2014: like i’m telling you.

July 13, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1011

“What are you sentimental about?”

things that my friends have given me.
2015: my high school band shirts. i can’t get rid of them, can’t cut them and make a quilt out of them. they just sit there, waiting.
2014: i’ve kept a blog for over 13 years. what am i not sentimental about?

July 12, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1010

“___ is perfect.”

Tom Hiddleston as Loki.
2015: Tom Hiddleston as Loki.
2014: Tom Hiddleston as Loki.

July 11, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1009

“If you were a literary character, who would you be?”

still going with the Wicked Witch.
2015: still would be the Wicked Witch. her and Miss Piggy were the biggest influences on me.
2014: Wicked Witch of the West! 

July 10, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1008

“When was the last time you spoke to your parents?”

2015: today.
2014: today.

July 9, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1007

“Today was delightful because ___.”

new cell phone, tablet, and watch.
2015: there was nothing delightful about today. it marked day 3 of being in shoes. it was hell.
2014: there was nothing delightful about today.

July 8, 2016

i haz...

and here dear diary is the rest of the story.
yesterday my phone took a swim in the toilet. i quickly grabbed it and took it apart, thinking that that saved it.
i was wrong.
when i got to break and put it back together, it was fine except it thought it was August 26, 2014 and about 9 in the morning.
and then i found out it wouldn’t charge.
so i spent most of today without a phone and tonight, did a run to the ATT store for a phone.
just a phone. that’s all i wanted. i have a new laptop i’m trying to pay off, just a phone.
“It was only a kiss.”
i walked out with my new phone, and i tablet, and a smart watch.
dear sweet baby Loki.
i’m ok. it’s a kick in the head for the set up but the bill is only supposed to be $20 more a month and i’ll be ok.
living in a box by the river.
so looking forward to the high speed WiFi at the hotel on Tuesday.

5 yr blog, day 1006

“What do you have to lose?”

2015: everything.
2014: everything.

July 7, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1005

“What’s the next book you want to read?”

2015: i have no idea.
2014: i have no idea.

July 6, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1004

“Who is your best friend?”

Nicole, hands down.
2015: still gonna say Nicole. she’s been here the longest.
2014: Nicole.

July 5, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1003

“What is your motto?”

yup, still going with “That’s my secret Cap. I’m always angry.”
2015: still gonna go with last year’s quote.
2014: “That’s my secret Cap. I’m always angry.”

and on day 7

and i am alive.
i worked 6 days in a row, over the 1st of the month weekend, that also was a holiday weekend. i was fit to be tied at the end.
tea. tea is what is getting thought this. it’s SUMMER OF TEA and i have been using my tea maker and brewing all sorts of oddness. mixing and matching and honey and lemon and let’s see what the hell happens!
and i also got an idea for another story, a fun little rom com with a twist. i got a titles, i got the charterers, need to sit down and start the first wave of it. i just needs names for everyone.
and i need to sit down and listen to Heathen before i buy Diamond Dogs. i reckon that Diamond Dogs would be the best David Bowie to listen to to write a dystopia story to.
next week is Matthew’s birthday and i am really looking forward to the room with the whirlpool and high speed internet.
need to go eat and get my clothes off the line. and i need to work some on getting my life better.

July 4, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1002

“___ is funny.”

2015: still think i’m funny.

July 3, 2016

5 yr blog, day 1001

“What was the last beach you went to?”

Cocoa. back in 2002.
2015: Cocoa. back in 2002.
2014: Cocoa. back in 2002.

July 2, 2016

July 1, 2016

5 yr blog, day 999

“Water, ice, or steam?”

2015: wind.
2014: wind.


i got to the of work and my mind was not working. and that bother me because my Hulk strength didn’t kick in so i was feely pretty worthless.
i went on break, pop in my earbuds and rocked out my music.
and right now, i have my beloved Meat Loaf blasting out of my laptop.
and i am doing my damnest to sing along, at the top of my lungs, to all the really good parts.
and i am human again.

i've been bad

i’ve been bad. i don’t go to bed till 2 in the morning for the past few days. i haz the internet in my room right now and, yes i have been bad.
i have been working on my newish story. i think i need David Bowie to help me with this.
i still haven’t listen to Heathen yet but i do have in on the laptop now.
and i need to find out how to get my playlist on my laptop.
and i need to find my tarot cards.
and i need to sit down and think on how i want to flex my magick on some people.
oh look! i need video games and look, i have Steam back on this laptop!