July 31, 2015

5 yr blog, day 664

“Today you were a wallflower or a social butterfly?”

kept my head down and got work done.
2014: i fucking hate people.

July 30, 2015

5 yr blog, day 663

“Today was unusual because___.”

first day of Jessica’s vacation.
2014: i have not blog in forever.

July 29, 2015

July 28, 2015

5 yr blog, day 661

“Write a phase to describe your year so far.”

loved by many.
2014: hopeful for next year.

July 27, 2015

5 yr blog, day 660

“What can you smell right now?”

the world.
2014: the world.

July 26, 2015

5 yr blog, blog, day 659

“Are you working hard or hardly working?”

both, at the same time.
2014: both.

July 25, 2015

5 yr blog, day 658

"If you could hire any artist (living or dead) to paint your portrait, who would you pick?"

Dalí or Warhol.
2014: Dalí or Warhol.


Matthew came up last week and we saw Ant-Man. a good time was had by all.
Friday we started watching Wolf Hall. again, i asked Matthew if he ever thought he would be able to snuggle with a girlfriend with a show like this.
Saturday we made our way to CoMo for a fun day. we went to the mall (white people, eww) lurk around Barns and Nobel. i made Matthew call his grandparents before we went there. good thing, Grandma was still in her pjs and met us in real clothes.
had a nice visit. made plans to go out on a double date next time we were in we were in town.
then onto Ant-Man!
we had tickets in the D-box seats. they were not worth the money.
i liked the movie more than Age of Ultron. it was more free and breezy then AoU. loved seeing Agent Carter and fuck if Hydra didn’t show up. grr. it was a good tail for AoU and the end credit scene, holy shit! like half the plot of Captain America: Civil War. i was aghast by it.
then we came home and we passed out.
Sunday we, Kelly, Mom, me and Matthew, went out for fish. then Matthew drove me to Rolla cuz we were shopping that day.
“I don’t sleep. I just dream.” and i think that what i did. it was such a clear story for Adventures of the Witch and her DarkShark. i need to put that down on paper.
Matthew dropped me off at a store and i spent the rest of the day with Kelly and Mom. i was just so freaking tired the whole day and i don’t know why. Rolla Wal-Mart of freaking busy as hell (saw Colt’s parents). we get done and get to the car. i past out, thinking i would wake up at home. nope, i wake up in freaking Owensville. we went to the store, Belle for ice cream, and then home.
work was work, for the week. shoes is evil, the armpit of hell but still better than electronics, any freaking day.
Tuesday, beside Dawn being in trouble, i got to see Shelby!
i gave her “back to school but now it’s a bumming kit” gift. and we sat and talk forever. it was awesome!
and then came Windsday night.
Colt and Jacob got into a tiff and i was called, being fag hag and girlfriend and best friend to half of Team Jolt (that the best part, i came up with their couple name of Jolt!) to help. long story short, i see them being in an abuse relationship where each guy don’t want to get the other guy mad.
*sigh* i hope i can help them and that they get better.
i was so off with my days that i forgot it was Thor’sDay and forgot my Thor doll at home. i knew it was a non-payday Thor’sDay, and that the next day was Friday, but it didn’t hit me it was Thor’sDay.
so now it’s Saturday. spent the day with Mom in Jeff. the new Sam is shit. i did get Taco Bell. and a new body pillow. not at the same place.
and that was my fun filled week.

July 24, 2015

5 yr blog, day 657

“What’s in your fridge?”

i really don’t own a fridge.
2014: food.

July 23, 2015

5 yr blog, day 656

“What was the last thing you backed or cooked?”

made myself a breakfast burrito the other day.
2014: tacos.

July 22, 2015

5 yr blog, day 655

“Where do you go for good ideas?”

2014: myself. if not me, then Nicole.

July 21, 2015

5 yr blog, day 654

“Who was the last person to make you angry?”

2014: the bf pisses me off mostly.

July 20, 2015

5 yr blog, day 653

“Does anything hurt today?”

i don’t think so.
2014: my back.

July 19, 2015

5 yr blog, day 652

“What do you need to throw away?”

a lot of things.
2014: lots of things.

July 17, 2015

5 yr blog, day 650

“How can you help?”

ask who i have helped. they all have tags on this blog.
2014: with what? i’m okay with some vague questions and even the stupid ones are cute but this bullshit, it’s gotta stop.

i am not strong

i am not strong.
i thought i had gotten to a point where i didn’t need help, that i could do it on my own.
i pray to the Hulk. i pray to him for strength. my motto is “That’s my secret Cap, I’m always angry.”
i come to that point, yes, i’m always angry. that is my base, that is my center. life has a calmness when you know your center.
i need help. i need a lift, out of this dark and filth and into the pale moonlight of night.
i need to rise above all and ascend to a new lvl.
pray for me, my friends.

July 15, 2015

5 yr blog, day 648

“What is your heroic downfall? Your Achilles’ heel?”

i want to fix the broken but i can’t seem to fix the broken that is in me.
2014: i want to fix the broken.

July 14, 2015

5 yr blog, day 647

“Do you have a secret? More than one?”

secrets so bad that i can’t even write them here.
2014: like i’m telling you.


i was thinking i had not written for the month but i have.
so in today’s pointless post, i got my hair cut and did my fastest mile, 19:03. getting a mile under 19 mins is SO within my reach now.
Matthew’s bday was Sunday. we met in Rolla for a minidate.
what killed me is that i’m more up on the new line of comics Marvel is coming out then he is. he was not that great of help with picking out which books for me to read.
and what i’m seeing Marvel doing could be views as “PCing” their books: more women leads, more minority leads. i see this as a way to get more of a variety out there. a hero is more than a white man.
and i’m going to go more “evil feminist” on peeps about this.
and by peeps, i mean white men.
this weekend brings the first origin story we had in the MCU since Captain America: The First Avenger, over 4 years ago, with Ant-Man. i will be the first to say this, based on the trailer this movie looks stupid, but it’s a Marvel movie. i go where my gods take me.
then again, i saw a movie with a talking raccoon and his tree person and that took over the world.
Matthew and my sister will both be there this weekend. that should prove for some fun.
i need to clean my room.

July 13, 2015

5 yr blog, day 646

What are you sentimental about?”

my high school band shirts. i can’t get rid of them, can’t cut them and make a quilt out of them. they just sit there, waiting.
2014: i’ve kept a blog for over 13 years. what am i not sentimental about?

July 11, 2015

5 yr blog, day 644

“If you were a literary character, who would you be?”

still would be the Wicked Witch. her and Miss Piggy were the biggest influences on me.
2014: Wicked Witch of the West!

July 10, 2015

5 yr blog, day 643

“When was the last time you spoke to your parents?”

2014: today.

back to Yule

this past week i spent 24 hours in shoes. i fucking hate shoes and i have no desire to be there ever again.
in happier news, i hope i scared some customers this week. while in the back, i looked on the tall racks and what did we have but the Halloween sleepers for babies.
i cackled, loud and long.
and then Jessica said we can’t put them out till after Back to School is over.
told her that Monday, i’m putting them out.
and really with BtS, i’m in Christmas gift buying i found the perfect thing for Colt. it’s a *******, but it has ****** all over it. it was right there on the shelf, waiting for me.
and then that brought up the deal that, well, i need to get Jacob the same thing.
so, next Wal-Mart we look and i got him one that is ***** and has ****** ** **. i like it. i have no clue if he will.
we’ll see how this plays out in December.
and now, i’m making a matching set of crochet prince and princess dolls. looking over the what’s out there, i’m back to my doll patterns, the one i made the Iron Man doll.
so, i can make them look like anyone.
anyone, Colt and Jacob. i know you read this. you’ve been warned.
dear 16 yr old self, enjoy your days of no one liking you. it’s gonna be a bitch when you are borderlineing on 3 boyfriends, plus your girlfriends, and all the gifts you think you can whip up with hook and yarn.
dear gods, enjoy them.
but this will all have to wait till the mod set for NEW YARN!!! BUY ALL THE YARN!!!
ok, i can do this.

July 9, 2015

5 yr blog, day 642

“Today was delightful because ___.”

there was nothing delightful about today. it marked day 3 of being in shoes. it was hell.
2014: there was nothing delightful about today.

July 8, 2015

5 yr blog, day 641

“What do you have to lose?”

2014: everything.

July 7, 2015

5 yr blog, day 640

“What’s the next book you want to read?”

i have no idea.
2014: i have no idea.

July 6, 2015

5 yr blog, day 639

“Who is your best friend?”

still gonna say Nicole. she’s been here the longest.
2014: Nicole.

July 5, 2015

5 yr blog, day 638

“What is your motto?”

still gonna go with last year’s quote.
2014: “That’s my secret Cap. I’m always angry.”

July 4, 2015

5 yr blog, day 637

“___ is funny.”

still think i’m funny.

July 3, 2015

5 yr blog, day 636

“What was the last beach you went to?”

Cocoa. back in 2002.
2014: Cocoa. back in 2002.

July 2, 2015

July 1, 2015