March 31, 2015

5 yr blog, day 542

“What inventions can you not live without?”

very much the same as last year.
it’s the number one way i keep in touch with Colt.
2014: copping out and saying EVERYTHING that goes with smartphones.


March 30, 2015

March 29, 2015

5 yr blog, day 540

“Write down a few lines from a song or poem that you identify with today.”

all the songs on my iTunes have been my friends lately.
2014: "Everyone goes away in the end." line from "Hurt." it's the Johnny Cash version that’s been hitting my bones.

14 years!

  • a day ago: eh day of work.
  • a week ago: trying to recover from 6 days in a row.
  • a month ago: everything was going right.
  • six months ago: dealing with my new life and preparing for Oktober.
  • a year ago: my Colt moved away.
  • three years ago: i was working till midnight.
  • five years ago: i thought i was going to be a teacher and not even with Matthew yet.
  • ten years ago: i had an angel, on OD, and Angelfire.
  • fifteen years ago: it was 2000. i don’t have a journal for that year.
  • twenty years ago: 1995. i was almost out of St. George.

March 28, 2015

5 yr blog, day 539

“What do you want to remember about today?”

Brett’s birthday is tomorrow.
2014: last lunch with Colt.

March 27, 2015

5 yr blog, day 538

“When was the last time you felt like you were on top of the world?”


at the strip club with Nicole and Matthew.
2014: no clue, but the last time i felt really alive was when i went to see The Wolverine with Colt.

March 26, 2015

5 yr blog, day 537

“Who do you aspire to be like?”

Miss Piggy is still the woman.
2014: Miss Piggy.

March 24, 2015

5 yr blog, day 535

“What did you daydream about today?”

nothing.
2014: no clue.

March 23, 2015

5 yr blog, day 534

“Are you country or rock ‘n’ roll (or hip-hop, emo, folk, punk…)?”

still everything.
2014: everything.

March 22, 2015

5 yr blog, day 533

“Jot down a news story from today.”

Wichita State beat Kansas.
PS: still nothing on the airplane.
2014: Malaysia Airlines Flight 370 is still missing.
future self, whatever happen to it?



March 21, 2015

5 yr blog, day 532

“The first thing you ate today was ___.”

i really don’t remember.
2014: fuck if i know.
“Gluten free waffles.”


March 20, 2015

5 yr blog, day 531

“What was the last book you read?”

Sex From Scratch by Sarah Mirk.
2014: i have no clue. :'(

March 19, 2015

5 yr blog, day 530

“Describe your work ethic.”

get shit done.
2014: do what you can, and don’t get in trouble.

March 18, 2015

5 yr blog, day 529

“In three words, describe your spirituality.”

horribly lapsed pagan.
2014: has been pagan.

March 17, 2015

5 yr blog, day 528

“What new activity have you tried?”

going to the strip club. ;-)
2014: nothing lately.

March 16, 2015

March 15, 2015

5 yr blog, day 526

“What do you not want to talk about?”

money.
2014: everything.

March 14, 2015

5 yr blog, day 525

“What is true?”


this is like “what color is the dress”. fuck off.
2014: fuck you. give me two lines to write this shit out? this is something that takes books and lifetimes to sort out. no.

March 13, 2015

5 yr blog, day 524

“If you could add one hour to your day, what would you do with it?”

one more hour with Nicole.
2014: sleeping.

March 12, 2015

March 11, 2015

5 yr blog, day 522

“What was something you wanted today, but couldn’t have?”

time and money.
2014: million dollars.

March 10, 2015

5 yr blog, day 521

“What was the last movie you rented?”


Sylvia.
2014: The Astronaut's Wife.

March 9, 2015

5 yr blog, day 520

“A person you wanted to ignore today ___.”

my mother.
2014: everyone.

March 8, 2015

5 yr blog, day 519

“What’s the last song you listen to?”

something off my itouch last night.
2014: i don’t recall.

March 7, 2015

5 yr blog, day 518

“It’s not a good idea to experiment with___.”


people’s emotions.
2014: the truth.

March 6, 2015

5 yr blog, day 517

“What would you like to ask your mother?”




don’t want to talk to her right now.
2014: why haven’t you killed Dad yet?

March 5, 2015

March 4, 2015

5 yr blog, day 515

“Who is your nemesis?”




right now, myself. need to work on that.
2014: The Joker.

March 3, 2015

5 yr blog, day 514

“Did you sleep alone last night?”

yes.
2014: yes.

my body is not ready




i did it. i went out and walked for a hair under 14 mins with a speed of almost 3 mph.
3 mph. damn if i can keep that up i’ll be unstoppable.
and i did 100 sit-ups on the ab lounger. they were sad but damn if i did not do them all!
I WILL BE PRETTIER THEN COLT FOR AVENGERS!!!
Matthew is doing good. i’m hoping that he gets all B’s in his classes.
next week, i’ll be in the STL to see Phantom with Nicole and Matthew and i hope to see the penguins too.
Phantom, Nicole, penguins vrs Colt and Avengers; gods, which weekend is going to rock the most?
all this in a 2 month time span.
my body is not ready.
my body is not ready.
shout out to Shelby! as she watched her tag climbs up the ranks. she is my closest friend as she lives only one county over.

March 2, 2015

5 yr blog, day 513

“Salty or sweet?”


i still stand by my 2014 statement: Tom Hiddleston.
2014: Tom Hiddleston.

March 1, 2015

5 yr blog, day 512

“How could today been better?”


warmer, car not be in a ditch, father dead.
2014: it could have been warmer.