blog of a German Roman Catholic cis school girl gone wrong/born again pagan, queer witch, reader, writer, heterosexual life partner/girlfriend, ordained minister, girlfriend, lover, hardcore crocheter, proud nerdgirl, sister-in-law, aunty, and aunt.
don’t where to go with this. let’s see if i cam make sense.
this past week i was on the work schedule of 3 AM to noon for 5 days. i go to bed about 5 PM, wake up a bit after midnight, and pretending life is normal.
i brought sleeping pills to help me.
yesterday i stayed up till about 10 PM. i was awake for 22 hours.
the last time i had an odd work schedule (10 PM to 7 AM, and that only 4 days) and i was not making it. it did something to me. the only thing that brought me back was Colt. on the last day, i got home at 8 AM, and i think i slept some and then we went and saw The Wolverine. it was when he was driving home, i closed my eyes and the wind was blowing around my hair and i felt alive. that was the last time i felt alive.
but this week had no Colt at the end of it. there was just the death of a nerd legend.
Leonard Nimoy died today. i’m not a Trekie, just dating one. it still hurts because i’m a nerd. i follow nerds on Twitter. Twitter is sad now. i’ve been crying some off and on.
i wanted to write about other stuff, but that will wait.
i vaguely recall a dream with Robert Downey Jr in Avengers 2.
2014: i have no clue where this dream came from but this is what i remember (and really, it’s more like a hazy memory of this dream then of a dream):
it was Will Wheaton and Jerry O'Connell talking about being in the movie Stand by Me.
i can understand Will Wheaton being in my dreams but all this, i have no fucking clue.
VD Day weekend was nice. the small setback was the hotel me and Matthew stayed out got new TVs that you couldn’t plug the Blu-Ray player to. that sucked. other than that, the restaurant, the night, the morning, it was all good.
it was so good that I GOT SKYRIM back on my laptop! oh happy days!
and what’s weird, as much as i’m a lover when i played WoW, more magick than anything else, in Skyrim, i’m a fighter. i dual wield and just want blood, much, much blood. save the game, kill everyone in town, or until i get killed, then open the saved game right before my murderous rampage.
i think this will help with dealing with people at work, coworkers and customers.
and then Tuesday hit me. my period started. i think, going to the bathroom where there is no heat kicked everything up a notch to me leaving work early (i threw up gum while on the floor, GUM!). i learned that i can throw up and drive at the same time and that, even after throwing up everything in your stomach, you don’t dry heave you throw up bile.