January 30, 2014

5 yr blog, day 117

“What do you want to forget?”
what’s the point of having a blog for 13 odd years if you want to forget something?

Pagan Blog Prompts

“Divination can come in many shapes. When doing divination of any sort, where do you feel the information is coming from? How is it reaching you? Do you consider the tools you use sacred, or are they merely a form of receiving a message? Are there people who are not good candidates for receiving divination services? What are your thoughts on the mechanics of divination?”

i really believe that the info is coming from the gods. i think it gets filter thought what i can see but i know it’s not all me. it’s them too.
i read tarot cards and i have an oracle pack also. and i believe that my cards are sacred but they are still a tool.
there are people who are not good for receiving divination. it may not be them in general, but their current stage that would not bode well to know.
i use tarot cards so my thoughts may not bode well with other types of divination.
i ask questions, i throw the cards (or spin them, on my itouch) i read and i think. they work for me, and they work for those who i read.

January 29, 2014

5 yr blog, day 116

“What was the last TV show you watched?”


a farewell

i really don’t know how to start this. i’ve been thinking over and over so let’s see how this goes.
i’m a nerd. one of the nerdy things i do is watch internet reviewers.
i wrote about all the reviewers i have come to love and adore last year, 4/13/2014: “9 inches”.
this group is part of a bigger picture, http://thatguywiththeglasses.com. working in toys and electronics during the Christmas season, i would run to McDonald's on my lunch hour and huddle over my itouch/smartphone and watch their shows. it kept me sane.
there’s many more reviewers on the site then the ones i watch. and every year, they would gather together and come out with the anniversary specials.
i’ve never seen the first one. i did see the next one, Kickassia. it’s ok.
it was Suburban Knights that i was amazed by. and then the follow up, To Boldly Flee, was amazing as well.
and i follow a slew of them on Twitter. and they are friend with each other, and it gets to a point it feels like they are my friends.
so last Saturday, i checked Twitter. it was a tweet here, a tweet there. i hit the ‎The Official Channel Awesome Facebook Group of Facebook and it was all too true.
Justin “JewWario” Carmical had died, last Thursday.
slowly Twitter and Facebook became sad.
i wasn’t a fan of JewWario. i watched one of his videos, long ago, and i just didn’t care for the subject.
my sadness came from everyone’s else sadness. and then i started thinking of what i have watched with him.
there was crossovers: him, Spoony and Joe in a hotel for a con, Spoony’s review of Breaking Dawn with him and Linkara on the phone (that review was longer than the movie i think), his part with The Nostalgia Chick’s review of Les Miserables (the musical, not the movie), his wonderful cameo in Oancitizen’s review of The Man Who Fell to Earth.
but the anniversaries, that’s where i love him the most.
in Suburban Knights, Justin was Jareth, from Labyrinth with a well-placed cucumber. in To Boldly Flee he was sorta the George Takei of the ship. and he was priceless with his shirt off, sword fighting.
he was a celebrity, but there is no fanfare of his passing, just one small Facebook group with many nerds posting videos and pictures.
without sounding tripe, Justin, you were loved by many. i’m sorry to see you go. those hours in McDonald's, watching To Boldly Flee, you made me laugh. i thank you for that.
may you cross over into a happier place.

2014, so far

i write so i don’t forget.
Christmas was crap but that’s par for the course.
New Year’s was a drunken blur of booze, the bf, and Avengers.
did see American Hustle. i liked it.
had a drunken night at Colt’s. like an ass i did not get his *** done. i was able to give him an Iron Man blanket, shirt, and ornament (which he broke).
he gave me a penguin, not a penis, and $15 Google. it was that that got to me, not the penguin.
then Tom came over and the fun started.
the boys had girls drinks, i was doing shots of vodka (and then shots of Crown with Tom), there was hamburgers, The Wolverine played Lego Marvel Super Heroes, did card readings, watched Labyrinth (and they weren't turned on by David Bowie!).
here’s my blanket statement, the day boys act like girls ten years younger. i didn’t like yr old girls when i was one, i don’t like them as 20 something boys.
Krazy, my dear Krazy, i worry and pray for him so much.
my new job is fucking AWESOME!!! the worst day so far has been SO MUCH BETTER THEN ANY DAY IN THE HELL OF ELECTRONICS!!!
i really like it. can you tell?
and by my count i’ve lost 6 lbs. after 2 years of gaining, i’m happy to be losing. it’s not a diet, it’s an eating plan. i hope to start working out soon.
ok, what really got me to sit down and write is what happened lately. that’s for another entry.

January 28, 2014

January 27, 2014

5 yr blog, day 114

“Which art movement best describe you today?
(Surrealism? Modernism? Dada?)”


January 26, 2014

5 yr blog, day 113

“Today you needed more ___.”

i don’t think i needed more of anything today.

January 24, 2014

5 yr blog, day 111

“If you were going to start your own company, what would it be?"

Penguin Magicks: a combo of my talents of witchcraft and of crocheting.

January 23, 2014

5 yr blog, day 110

“Do you need a break?
From what?”

nothing right now. i’ve been on a break too long.

Pagan Blog Prompts

“In this day and age, exchange of information is so easy. Rituals and spells can be shared in a matter of seconds. Do you think using a spell from someone else is effective? Can it be? How about writing spells for others? What are the ethics of doing so?

hmm. yes and no?
i think in using someone’s spell can be a test if the spell is “good” overall or one of those “it works for me and only me.”
writing spells for others, no. i’ll make you charms and tell you what you need and do but you got to sit and hash it yourself.

January 22, 2014

5 yr blog, day 109

“Are you seeking security or adventure?”

both, at the same time.

January 21, 2014

5 yr blog, day 108

“What are you looking forward to?”

short term, VD with the bf. long term, Avengers 2.

January 20, 2014

5 yr blog, day 107

“Are you holding a grudge? About?”

well, my sister told me i’m going to hell and i’m not all into her now.

January 19, 2014

5 yr blog, day 106

“List three foods you ate today.”
  1. Cherry Dr. Pepper
  2. really bad pizza
  3. McDonald's

January 18, 2014

5 yr blog, day 105

“What was peaceful about today?”
men’s underwear or baby food. i pray at either place there is such calmness.  

January 17, 2014

5 yr blog, day 104

“What’s the oldest thing you’re wearing today?”

i’ve had my pentacle for 9 years now.

January 16, 2014

Pagan Blog Prompts

“Have you ever had a spiritual experience that was so amazing it changed you? What happened? How did you feel? How did you change or grow from it?
Today's prompt is all about moving spiritual experiences.

if i had one that changed me, it was the first time i saw The Phantom of the Opera.
it was everything i dreamed of and so much more. it was just mind blowing and perfect.
it changed me because i was so inspired to write but everything just came out as a poor copy of the song lyrics. it would take weeks before i would find my voice to go back to writing poetry.

5 yr blog, 103

“Do you owe someone money?
Does someone owe you?”

i owe to Discover and there’s a rat bastard who owes me.

January 15, 2014

5 yr blog, day 102

“On a scale of one to ten, how was your lunch today?”


January 14, 2014

January 10, 2014

5 yr blog, day 97

“Write down something that inspired you today.”


January 9, 2014

5 yr blog, day 96

“Was today typical?
Why or why not?”

no. i’m still trying to sort out my new life in apparel.

Pagan Blog Prompts

“Many Wiccans feel a connection to a God or Goddess and choose to work with them exclusively as a Matron or Patron deity. Do you work with a Matron or Patron? How did you find yourself working with them?
If you don't work with any specific deities, do you feel you need to choose, or is working with general terms like God and Goddess just fine?

i don’t have a matron or a patron.
i have been praying to the Hulk for the last year, or two. he’s been great when i was in electronics but i need to tweaked him to fit in apparel.
other than that, i’m fine with praying to the Lord and Lady, the God and the Goddess.
i do hope to find a matron and/or a patron one day.

January 8, 2014

5 yr blog, day 95

“What song is stuck in your head?”
“Counting Stars” by OneRepublic.

January 7, 2014

5 yr blog, day 94

“You are lucky; how so or not so?”

i’m a witch, i make my own luck.

January 6, 2014

5 yr blog, day 93

“Today was tough because ___”

it’s Monday and i worked.

January 5, 2014

5 yr blog, day 92

“What was the last restaurant you went to?"


January 4, 2014

January 3, 2014

January 2, 2014

5 yr blog, day 89

“Can people change?”


Pagan Blog Prompts

“Today's prompt is about the "color" of your magick. We have ALL heard the discussions...white magick vs. grey magick vs. black magick...does magick have a color? What do the colors mean? If white is "good" then is black "bad"? What constitutes "bad"? Is the whole argument invalid? Doesn't the practitioner determine if the magick being worked is good or bad? If so, then is magick "neutral"? So many angles. Today's prompt is a bit of a heavy one. Enjoy!”

ok, for reals now:
magick has no color. it’s clear.
is it good to cast a healing spell on a person? yes, that would be good and “white magick” because you are making someone better. BUT wouldn’t it be “evil and black” because you are killing millions of germs, who are just trying to live!
if anything, magick is gray. what i’m throwing as protection magick may seem as a curse to someone.

January 1, 2014

5 yr blog, day 88

“What is your mission?”

2014: lose 30 lbs and clean my room.