it was fantastic.
the movie: 2 hours of Pedro Pascal. what more could a Marvel girl ask for? for reals, after watching the other 3 Fantastic Four movies (MY GODS, WHAT THE HELL WAS THE 2015 ONE?!?!?!) i think this one was just right.
now, on to the date.
i live too much in my head.
it was wonderful. he was a perfect gentleman. he open doors and paid for dinner and the movie.
he’s so different from anything i ever dealt with.
we talked. it felt like he was giving me all his red flags and i can deal with them.
i like him. i really like him.
and i dressed fem up for this date. and at one point i just felt so butch next to him. and it was nice to feel that way.
i want to do it again.
i am 95% done for September, 69% done for the year, giving me a B-.
what happen to August? we don’t talk about him.
and my seasonal depression is flaring up early this year.
i have a date Sunday. it’s a 1st date and it’s the first 1st date i’ve been in 25 years.
i’m now getting stressed and nervous about it. i had an outfit picked out and now, i don’t know.
i need to throw cards.
there is really nothing to update.
i have hit a stuck part. didn’t want to but here i am.
card of the month said so…
i need to get up and get going with something.
done for the month, 66% done for the year, giving me a B grade.
i am working on September’s goals right now.
did the witchcraft yesterday, tonight it is getting the full moon treatment.
and it’s the 1st full moon of summer. THE full moon for love magic!
is my witchcraft love magic? kinda? maybe? ain’t all magic love magic?
i need a drink.
“You are doing some witchcraft?”
“Yeah. Read some new stuff and it’s a full moon so I thought I try my hand at it.”
“What book?”
“You haven’t heard of it.”
“Try me.”
“Magic Lessons by Alice Hoffman.”
“Alice Hoffman? Didn’t she write Practical Magic?”
“Yes.”
“Is Magic Lessons a witchcraft book?”
“It’s a prequel to Practical Magic.”
“What the fuck?”
“So, in Supernatural, Sam and Dean have an anti-possession tattoo. By my research, it’s a totally made-up sigil for the show and a common symbol of the show.
“If every fan of the show believes that symbol is an anti-possession, then it is my belief that it is a legit anti-possession symbol.”
“Where the hell are you going with this?”
“If every person who reads Alice Hoffman believes what she writes is real witchcraft, then it is real witchcraft.”
“And you are going with that?”
“Works for me.”
i am done with my goals for the month, 64% done for the year, giving me a B-.
and i got a date this month.
i really want to work and get all of September’s goals done. i don’t know if that is possible but i can fucking try.
and the date this month, just realized that i haven’t been on a first date in 20 years and this is the 1st person i found all on my own in 23 years.
there are things i want to say but i don’t want to put out there in this world’s internet.
or just put them out there at all. words have power.
fuck, i casted a spell with my fucking Tinder profile.
and there is magic i’m planning on working next week, full moon and all.
and it’s for my date.
:-)
