we are moving forward.
and yes, my pronoun is we.
i hit my goals for April, and with 7 days left, trying to get more done. i know i need to pack and all that for my trip but, let me sit for a hot min.
and it’s Disco Night at the bar! i haven’t been since 2023 and i am so ready for it! i know i’m going in with my county shit so, Urban Cowboy?
i want to work on my Book of Shadows (really thinking of renaming it) and my Book of Cartomancy today. need to put away the laundry, and start packing.
and work out.
so much to do, time to get going.
how am i?
i can feel happy and depressed at the same time and man, that’s a real trip.
talking about sex and stuff with Colt and Nicole, and really, what am i looking for? i know it’s easy to get laid, Tech School would be my best bet for that. that’s not want i want.
i want to be like that.
i started watching Grey's Anatomy to see if i could learn on what was wrong with me. that show, everyone is bed hopping, going from partner to partner, with, sometimes, no questions asked. i wanted to see if i could learn on how a person could be like that and why i couldn’t be like that.
then i joined Tumblr and learned about asexual/demisexual and that i am queer.
and that felt like an answer to that question, but sex is sex so why can’t i just any dude that cross my path? why is it i want a romantic partner and not be a slut about town?
i’m going to start packing this week. i made my packing list and i need to start putting stuff together. trying to pack a hell of lot lighter than in years past.
that will be the challenge.
i booked the hotel. the car is reserved. the tickets are brought. things are falling into place.
i need to start my packing list. i need to plot out all i need for this trip and start packing.
i am so ready for this trip, to be away from fucking work for 7 whole days, in a row. that will be so nice.
i need to make of list of things i need to do, the waxing/bleaching/shaving/cutting that is all gender affirming care!
Mom made my shirt. the material is small squares of various shades of pink plaids. i told her this was the shirt i was going to wear to the bar when i hit it with Nicole and Colt.
it’s done. it’s so more county looking then i thought it was going to be.
i can’t go goth in this shirt. i was almost wanting to chuck it and then i remember “not county but cunty.”
i have tried to look up Chappell Roan makeup looks and, i’m not made for this.
back to some bad ideas and throwing eye shadow on my face.
