i end this month at 119% done, 90% for the year, with an A+ grade.
this weekend starts the last quarter of the year. i think i am going to start making a ToDoList for next year.
i still don’t know what theme i want for next year. this year’s theme of “A Witch’s Journey” did not go as i planned (and with 3 moths still left, who knows where i will end up).
i need to do a real blog.
i make plans. i am doing the plans.
is this progress?
and is it too early to start working on goals for 2023?
i still need to sit down and plan out things for my birthday weekend. i need things done, i need to buy things, just lost to do before i can just sleep on the 4th.
i’m 119% done for the month, 89% done for the year, giving me a A+ grade!
i might get all this done this year!
and i’m crazy to start plotting out next year.
i just felt another snap in me.
i really wanted a clean space for Oktober and i feel that may not happen.
what i am doing is cleaning more.
i am aiming for 20 mins of cleaning up on Sunday, Monday, and Thursday nights. i have hope this cut down on how much cleaning i need to do on my days off. i did get my kitchen area done so Wednesday plans is the living room. my 20 mins a night will focus on my crafting table.
i know what i need to do. with what i wrote yesterday and some tarot prompts i’m working on, i see that plan i need to make and set and do.
i know this is gonna be a bitch but, i deserve nice things. i deserve my day off to be a day off and to work on my and not my living space.
i know this will be work. i know this is going against the nature that i have built for myself. i know that this is not my fault but i am fucking fixing it now.
maybe this isn’t a generational curse but this feels like a huge shift for me.
i now have a better goal in mind for the last half of this month.
i want it so when i come home from my birthday weekend, this place is clean and i can go full hog witch in it.
i need to get the work done. i can not just sit and not do anything. i rest too much and not work enough.
i’m tired of my making excuses and all this shit. i don’t’ keep up because i just slack off on my days off.
i don’t know if this is because i don’t get 2 days off in a row (a “weekend”) or me being “lazy”.
and it’s not just work. last night i wanted to sit down and have a beer and relax. i just sat on my laptop and rage quite video games.
how bad is it that i make plans for relaxation and can’t even follow on with that?
i need help.
