September 14, 2022

what do i want?

i now have a better goal in mind for the last half of this month.
i want it so when i come home from my birthday weekend, this place is clean and i can go full hog witch in it.
i need to get the work done. i can not just sit and not do anything. i rest too much and not work enough.
i’m tired of my making excuses and all this shit. i don’t’ keep up because i just slack off on my days off.
i don’t know if this is because i don’t get 2 days off in a row (a “weekend”) or me being “lazy”.
and it’s not just work. last night i wanted to sit down and have a beer and relax. i just sat on my laptop and rage quite video games.
how bad is it that i make plans for relaxation and can’t even follow on with that?
i need help.

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