weekly update!

still at 6%. ok.

this week has been killer for me. i am going to say it’s all with the PMS. i can say that this week and next week, we’ll see if things are better.

i got my ring light up and trying to use it to take better pics of my readings when i post them on Instagram. i need to change how i got it set up for better results.

i want to add a reading (or 2 of them) to my shop.

i want to work on something tomorrow. i don’t know what but i want to do something.

blar

what do you call it when you have things to do and have no will power to do them?

i did get all my lunches made, clean the kitchen, did the dishes, clean out the dove and oven, and me and Mom made a Dollar Store run.

i get home, had things i wanted to do and just did none of it.

did i go anything on my Goal List? no.

did i do any bits that just needed to be done? no.

i was maxed out on all the things i had done this morning, mostly was stuff that wasn’t really for me.

and now i write about it.

weekly update

i’m up to 6% done! i am making myself read almost every day. i have hopes to do my weekly post to get my blog posts numbers up. i am still losing weight without doing anything too crazy. i want to try to start walking next month to get that working out badge clocked out.

i did do my ~*~Interview Precious ‘Possum Lenormand. i know that some of my goals are more long term and will not grant my high marks right now. i still can make some forward progress (reading) that will get me some serotonin.

Witchy Prompts, Day 20

List a few of the deities you worship and associate each with a quote your think represents them best!

 

I won’t worship anyone so, I have no quotes to post.  Prompts Found Here.

Venus of Willendorf

this year will mark 17 years i’ve been a witch. in all those years i have never felt any pull to worship any one deity.

i’ve never really tried to find anyone and i’ve been open for anyone wanting to lay claim to me. so far, no one.

in the last 3 years, i’ve been noticing things. and within the last few weeks, there’s been more noticing. it led me to just yell out that you need to hit me with a clue by four if you want me.

and it might have hit me last night.

she goes by the name Venus of Willendorf. i know i found her long ago and somehow got a magnet version of her. the figure is one of the oldest ever found and it’s all guess work who she is and what she was for.

i remember the first time seeing her thinking i have that same body. she is not all thin and lithe. she was a woman, fully formed. i felt like she was me, she was a part of me.

and last night, out of nowhere, i started off Goggleing her and looking and found her.

and this morning, i am rereading her Wikipedia article and she was found near Willendorf, Austria. a bit more Goggleing and she was found some 500 off miles away from where my family comes from in Germany.

she could have been made by my ancestors.

i’m getting her. i’m gonna try to make her a pretty place.

and we will see what happens from there.

Witchy Prompts, Day 19

How have your Gods affected your life?

 

I don’t know but I can tell you how become a witch has affected me.

Being a 13-year-old Catholic school girl* and learning that there was a Goddess, you can become a witch, and magick is real, that was all I needed to hear. It was another 10 years before I was able to start studying it but the last 12 years have been wonderful.

I don’t feel powerless. I know if shit gets bad, I can do something about it. Bitches at work, fuckers bringing me down, they are in my freezer right now. I need help with knowing the unknown, I throw my cards.

*I identify as non-binary now.

Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 18

What are your thoughts on godspousing?

 

On one hand it sounds completely bat shit crazy. On the other hand, it sounds like being a nun in the Catholic Church.

I know I don’t know much about it and what I read I think are from people who are not right about it.

 Prompts Found Here.

miles before i go before i sleep

drinking is what keeps me warm anymore.

i did watch Euphoria last night and Nate might have had the best line of that entire show, so far. i almost like him now. almost.

i am getting some stuff done for my year goals. i need to get with the crocheting.

i am reading. i think next month i want to crack into a new deck to study.

i have a habit. it’s not the best but at least i’m not doing drugs.

i am moving forward with my goals. bit by bit, i am moving forward.

Witchy Prompts, Day 17

Do you associate certain Gods with specific songs? Share them!

 

I think David Bowie is one of the Higher Powers so his music is divine.

I think of Thor (more of the Marvel one) when I hear AC/DC’s “Thunderstruck”.

Andrew Lloyd Webber wrote Jesus Christ Superstar, a whole musical version of a passion play.

There are songs that make me think of Deity over all, like the story of the “Hallelujah Chorus”. It’s said when Handel got writing that part, he was crying because it just poured out of him so fast.

There is the overall feeling I feel when I use to perform in a Baptist church orchestra and certain songs, especially when the choir joined us, that I felt the spirit coming down over us.

And that is my view on music, overall. I use the term “It felt like church” when I went to Ozzfest. The way Hatebreed and Disturbed person and conducted themselves on stage, I felt the Spirit there.

I just need to think on this more and write how I see music and the Great Divine work together.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 16

How do you communicate with your deities the best?

 

I talk, out loud to them, the them that listen to me. I don’t know who it is, I just get the urge to just talk out loud to them.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 15

Are you faithful to one specific pantheon or is your belief more eclectic?

 

Way eclectic.

I believe in all and everyone. I don’t party with one set. I am open for anyone wanting to lay claim on me.

The only pantheon I am faithful is Marvel. I sold my soul back in 2012 and have not looked back since.

 Prompts Found Here.

weekly update

i want to try to post every Friday, to see if my goals are being made for 2022.

as of right now, i am 2% done with my list. i have been writing posts, reading, and working on my body. i need to get one with some of my other goals. throwing cards should not be so hard for me to do but right now, it is.

sitting on my couch and watching new TV shows is too much work right now.

i think it’s the fear of doing stuff and moving forward. why finish anything and show that you are capable of doing something?

maybe i should read that book about shadow-work and see how much breaks in me.

Witchy Prompts, Day 14

How would you define your Gods (have fun with that one)?

 

Let me see if I can put this in words.

All goddesses make up The Goddess. All gods make up The God. Together, The Goddess and The God makes a Higher Power, for lack of a better term.

I also believe each individual goddess/god is their own entity. You can just exchange one for the other, even if they reign over the same area.
 

Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 13

What are some devotional acts you actively engage in?

 

The only one I really do is my daily draws of the cards.

 Prompts Found Here.

why is my couch evil now?

i got like, 3% of my 2022 goals done, so far?

today, today Age of Mythology is proving not too much fun anymore. i just can’t get off the ball and step away the laptop to do anything more.

i know i can crochet and watch TV. i know it won’t take me that long to finish up my StarMan tarot bag. i know there are new shows for me to watch instead of just rewatching the same ones, over and over and over.

i know that i can get away from the laptop and move up in my world.

but i don’t want to move away from it to the couch.

why is my couch evil now?

Witchy Prompts, Day 12

How important is mythology in your practice? How much credit do you give it?

 

I don’t any particular mythology high in my practice. I think all myths have equal weight.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 11

Do you pray? If so, what do your prayers look like?

 

I am in a Facebook group that’s for pagans and witches with a prayer thread. I start off with “Dear Gods” state what’s going on and end with “Love, Amer”.

Other times, it’s just me, looking up at the sky, talking to the birds.
 

Prompts Found Here.

A Witch's Journey

In the Year of our Lord Bowie, who crossed from this realm some 6 years now, we call this time 2022.

And on this day, we make new declarations, new paths to be made and found, new ways to grow and learn, new ways to be.

This is the year of ~A Witch’s Journey~. How is this different from last year’s ~Season of the Witch~? Last year was about reclaiming what I was, refinding what I have lost, relearning all that I never learn in the first place.

This year is about taking all that I have gain from 2021 and moving forward to a higher place in my life, heart, soul.

The overall goals of the year:

~*~Read 6 books.
~*~Lose 21.8 pounds.
~*~Write 132 blog posts.
~*~Work out more.
~*~Write my Gender Itinerary.
~*~Do my DNA from Ancestry.com.
~*~Print off my Book of Shadows.
~*~Build that fucking Ancestor Altar.
~*~Study True Heart Intuitive Tarot Deck.
~*~Study Ghoulish Garb’s Terror Tarot.
~*~Study Practical Magick Inner Witch Oracle.
~*~Study Mystical Penguin Tarot.
~*~Interview Precious ‘Possum Lenormand.
~*~Interview Rainbow Tarot.
~*~Interview Seasons of the Witch: Samhain Oracle.
~*~Interview True Heart Intuitive Tarot.
~*~Interview Ghoulish Garb’s Terror Tarot.
~*~Interview Practical Magick Inner Witch Oracle.
~*~Interview Mystical Penguin Tarot.
~*~Make a Book of Cartomancy.
~*~Make a bag for Supernatural Deck.
~*~Make a bag for Rainbow Deck.
~*~Make a bag for True Heart Intuitive Tarot Deck.
~*~Make a bag for Ghoulish Garb’s Terror Tarot.
~*~Make a bag for Mystical Penguin Tarot.
~*~Crochet an Asexual/Non-binary flag.
~*~Work on my afghan.
~*~Work on Grandma’s Radio Chest.

A year focus on cartomancy and creating.

A year with cards in my hands, yarn about me, and words coming from me.

This will be a journey and I do not know where it will take me. I have hopes and I have reality.

Witchy Prompts, Day 10

If you could have a direct conversation with your deity/deities right now, what would you tell them?

 

As I don’t have a have one, I don’t know what questions I would ask if I was able to talk to one.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 9

Do you have a patron/matron? How did you choose them?

 

No.  Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 8

What are some of your stronger UPG’s?

 

The only one I can think of is the 3 of Swords.

Traditionally, the card means pain and grief. I’ve seen the card to mean love and family. The 3 swords, piercing a heart. It reminds me too much of my polyamory life, 3 souls in one relationship.

I can’t think of anything else off the top of my head that is “wrong” that I hold near my heart.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 7

What does your ideal altar look like?

 

That varies so much.

I have 2 altars right now, one in my bedroom and one in my living room.

My bedroom one is more of my working altar. When I need do the magick or honor someone, I dress it as I see fit and that is simple. There’s a black cloth, white candles, simple incense burner, everything plain and simple.

My living room alter is just covered with stuff. Bits and bobs and candles, crocheted doilies, toys, a small cauldron, rubber duck, a lot of rocks, just stuff. All of it with a gothic/Halloween vibe to it or just what I think is pretty.

Both of these altars are ideal to me. And my ideal altar is still out there, waiting for me to make it too.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 6

Are there Gods you willfully don’t follow? What are the reasons behind this choice?

 

The Christen/Jewish/Islam god. I got to no truck dealing with that mess.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 5

Do you believe in spirits, angels or demons?

 

Yes.
 

Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 4

How do you picture the universe? What is your idea of its cosmology?

 

I see the universe like the scientist say it is, with all the starts and planets. I know that there is more then what’s on this earth, that there has to be.

My idea of its cosmology is all the origin myths are true.

I think it was the Big Bang and then everything started cooking. Like, we are just some higher power/deity’s science experiment/SIMS game.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 3

Is your practice more ritualistic or casual? What does it look like?

 

Very casual.

I don’t know how to put in words how it looks like.

Right now, I’m very much focus on tarot and oracle cards.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 2

What draws you to your Gods? What do you like about them?

 

I don’t really have any gods. I am trying to get into ancestry worshiping and that has been a hell of a trip in studying the family tree.

 Prompts Found Here.

Witchy Prompts, Day 1

Were you born into your faith? If not, how did you discover it?

 

Fuck no. I was born into a German Roman Catholic family.

When I was 4, I wanted to be a witch. I wanted what the Wicked Witch of the West had. I watched The Wizard of Oz just for her.

Ten years later, I found To Ride a Silver Broomstick by Silver Ravenwolf and fuck, I could become a witch, there was a Goddess and yes, you can do magick!

Ten years after that, I brought the book and got serious with becoming a witch.

That was 12 years ago this spring.

 Prompts Found Here.