Happy Southern Hemisphere Halloween!

i tried to write but gave up and went out to feed the cats. it hit me out there that.

i see Halloween as a witch’s New Year Eve and November the start of the new witch year. on the flip side of the planet, that’s what happening there. they are getting ready for Samhain and the start of their new year.

and i am feeling it here.

it makes sense. i am trying to be a devotee of Karpo, the Greek goddess of autumn. if her power is in the fall, then March is the start of her power in the southern hemisphere. She came into her powers wouldn’t i be able to feel that?

and with that thought train, May is the start of a new year for witches.

but i can’t start until i am back from my journey to the Field.

May 9th is a start for me.

weekly update

i’m 118% done for the month, 49% for the year, giving me a B grade.

(i have switched over to May goals, as there are only a few days of April left.)

i got my copy of LiL Cryptid Oracle today! and my new phone case! so excited for both!

and i am off this whole weekend! i need to pack for next weekend and plotting everything for everything and all of that.

but for tonight, we get high and be pagan.

words to paper, that what this is

tomorrow i should get my new phone case and my new oracle deck. i’ll get high and a good time will be had by all.

i need to pack on Saturday for my Marvel weekend. i need to carefully plot out my outfits, Matthew’s clothes, and all my worldly things i will need on this trip.

need to change my sheets, change my tablecloth, and changed my shoes.

May 1st is just bringing a lot of changes.

Michael made mention of selling his car to me. i would love to see this happen and it would be a hell of a financial undertaking for me. i know i can swing it, i will have to make it swing.

i feel the need to write but nothing comes out of it.

i feel the need to grow my witchcraft and that is slow.

i keep thinking the other oracle deck will bring me something closer to my deity but we have been making good with the Halloween Oracle. time will tell.

weekly update

i’m 148% done for the month, 49% for the year, giving me an A grade.

the big win is that i got a new phone. i unplugged it this morning at 3 AM and here, 13 hours later i am at 42%.

i just need to get a case for it, which is to come in 2 weeks, dear gods let me keep my phone safe.

i am writing, i am praying, i feel that i am getting better. i feel that i am becoming the person i should have been, 3 years ago?

whatever it is, i am moving forward. i am planting things i hope to harvest well this fall.

This Spiritual Awaking has been a trip

Card of the Months was Judgment, spiritual awaking. I thought it was going to be fun and games. 

 I thought.

It hit me last night. Dad died in ’18, took ’19 off and on January 1st, 2020, this is it! This is the year we move forward!

It was not.

I’m days away of going back to The Field, seeing Nicole and Colt, doing a Marvel movie weekend. I know I did one last year but this one feels so much different.

Everything seems like it was, before the plague started. This all feels, normal.

I am going to come back different, and I am praying that it will be for the better.

A Change

Something is clicking in a different direction.

I’m culling. The past month I looked over who I support on Patreon and made changes. People I have followed for years on social media, I stopped following them.

I am making good progress on my year goals. I am carving out time to start meditating and go back to working out (after Springfield).

I know I still have room for improvement with the new setup. I know it’s not fool proof and will go off without a few hits but fuck, let me stumble on the road of improvement.

pulling teeth

i was able to clean up my witch’s cabinet today. i needed to make something and just cleaned the whole spot to do it.

and then i made the thing.

i really need to get to fixing Grandma Bertha’s radio so i have a chest to put all my tarot boxes in.

i keep getting bits of an idea of a story. not bits, just random scenes and ideas. this all plays off “The Adventures of the DarkShark and his Witch” and i’m willing to go down that road and piece them all together into one long story.

i am trying to push myself with my writing and it is like pulling teeth.

i’m going to bed.

weekly update

i’m 143% done for the month, 48% for the year, giving me a A grade.

the way i am plotting out things, i think i am going to try to get back to meditation, again. one of my goals is to read Inner Temple and that would be a great way to get going on that.

i’m down 13 pounds. if i start the arm workout, i might see improvements by October. that gives me incentive to get going and look hotter for my birthday.

i am looking forward to Springfield, so fucking hard this year. i want to start packing, now.

oOo, there is witchcraft i need to do to be ready for Springfield!

blar

i tried to write yesterday and it didn’t happen.

i was going to do a set of tarot prompts and i realized that, no, not gong to work this month.

i feel the need to write, something, and nothing is pulling at my heart to put words on paper.

if i could pick a genre that would help.

i am going to try to write about my own Wheel of the Year and see how that plays out.

and i am having a hard time just trying to fill this page with words.

time to write something real.

fuck it

i open this up and i am just staring at it.

fuck it. i’m going to bed and try to read some Kissing the Limitless.

weekly update

i’m 135% done for the month, 45% for the year, giving me a A- grade.

i want to work on cleaning today so, i’m off to get my living room under control.

to write or not and let it rot inside my head

i think i need to write. put pen to paper in a notebook and not let the world see it.

or get back into fiction.

or write those non-fiction witchcraft ideas i have.

or really live out of my head and write some real shit in my journal.

i don’t know.

i need to do some cards tonight.

weekly update

i’m 120% done for the month, 40% for the year, giving me a B- grade because new month and all.

new month and new set of timelines to work towards.

i also plotted out the Spring Quarter, broken down by the month.

so, less sitting, more getting shit done.