work is killing me slowly

work is killing me slowly.

Black Friday, the big one, is this Friday and i am dreading it. i don’t know if it’s the day that is getting to me or the fact that after it will be full on fucking Christmas and gods, i don’t want that.

where my work close hit my skin, it makes my body hurt.

and i know this is all mental. i hate that work is so in my head right now. i hate that my mental problems are coming out as pain in my body.

i’ve had coworkers do this job high, drunk, went home for a shower, went home for sex, while my ass is there for 9 hours, stone cold sober.

is this why i’m such a bad ass at work?