1/1/2025

hello.

yesterday i was working myself into a worrying fit over this year. and then it hit me. i don’t need to worry because the cards will tell me what’s what.

and i threw them last night and i need to go over it all.

the theme of this year is Sacred Opossum. finishing up Dune: Prophecy, i really want to live that life of a nun/witch who is a studious bitch. i want books and notebooks and be learning.

and that will take time and effort. time i have, effort i am working on.

i also want my lair to be clean. i have let things fall off the trail and i want to get back onto it.

and i am going to get up and start getting shit done.

2024

 

This place is always such a mess

Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn

I'm so alone

Feel just like somebody else

Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same

i’m 106% done for the month, 19% for the year, giving me a D-. 

i’m 98% done for the month, 27% for the year, giving me a D- right now.

i am 92% done for the month, 34% for the year, giving me a D- grade.

i am 91% done for the month, 42% done for the year, giving me a D+ grade.

Happy Pride!

i’m here.

let’s look back on what i was doing 10 years ago. 

hello you fucking glory bitch of September!

i’m not well.

Bless me Mother for I have sinned.

Friday morning came to me with some time for moving meditation at work. 

Bless me Mother Feral, I need to vent.

“Bless me Mother Feral, I need to vent.”

“Mother Feral? Is that my name now?”

“Works for me.”

*takes a shot* “Hit me.”

“I’m getting a lot of feels as 2024 ends and 2025 is getting ready to start. I know I’m a witch and I can do stuff but I feel like I shouldn’t/don’t do anything.”

“So not to jink the year?”

“Yes and no.”

“Keep going.”

“Well, it took me a long time but I got a grip on what the theme 2025 is going to be.”

“Sacred Opossum.”

“Yeah. With Agatha All Alone, Dune: Prophecy, and UNEND, the idea of groups of witches, learning and growing just hit me. I want to be do that. I want a year of studying.”

“A year and a day?”

“Oh, I didn’t even think about that. I got the books for it.”

“And a list of goals that you are working on.”

“I made a bingo card out of them. I’m hoping that gives me a boost to get shit done.”

“You seem to be going into this year with hope.”

“It’s not like that. I don’t think.

“It’s more of, there’s a shit show coming and I feel that the best I can do is to fully work on myself. I don’t know where I heard it from but queer joy is going to be an act of rebellion. That the happier I can make myself, the more it will be a fuck you to the shit storm.”

“You’re not becoming a Hermit are you?”

“Maybe? Fool and Hermit feels like the combo I’m feeling and that’s why I came up with Sacred Opossum.”

“What about dating?”

“What about dating?”

“Well, you been single for almost a year and things tried to happen and you stopped them.”

“I had many learning experiences this past year and I will be applying the knowledge I have learn going forward.”

“You going to burn that candle that was part of the love spell you did on Halloween?”

“There’s going to be a lot of witchcraft going on next year. Lots of cards and books and building altars and writing..”

“Sounds like a full-time job. Maybe you won’t have time to burn that love spell candle.”

“Maybe I’ll do it to spite the fuck out of you.”

“Spite and anger are twins. And you are always angry.”

“That’s my secret.”

“Do you want penance?”

“Naw. I’m going to catch up on my shows and call it a night.”

the state of Amerwitch

and what state am i in?

i am still here. i am still here and i am still moving forward.

i pull my cards and i tell my story. the cards have never led me wrong, no matter the deck.

fall is done. i plan on warding once i post this. i need to work on some cleaning.

i need to gather the books i want to read and plot out how i am moving forward with my witchcraft.

i want to start working out. i need to carve out time for that.

i need to, overall, come up with a plan on how to get it all done: working out, cleaning, witchcraft, studying my new decks, crocheting.

i know a large part of that will be stop playing games and start focusing more on The Work.

and i know this is going to be a slow process, to get to that level.

it’s the matter of getting up and getting going.

and that’s i am going to do.

Sacred Opossum

Friday morning came to me with some time for moving meditation at work.

this year is almost over and 2025 is coming towards me. i need a theme for next year and nothing is coming to me. i thought that “aimless” would be one but i have goals and plots for the next year.

lunch come and i go to work on the set of tarot prompts. here’s my questions for the day:

“What am I moving toward if I stay aligned with my current path? What would I move toward if I take my journey in a different direction?”

awesome! this is just what i was thinking about! let’s do this! i pull up my tarot app and got

“What am I moving toward if I stay aligned with my current path? Empress.

What would I move toward if I take my journey in a different direction? Fool.

i got called out by my fucking tarot app. cards are gonna cards, fucking hell.

and this morning i was thinking about it again. i remember after the election, someone posted on Facebook this thing of RPG classes and how they apply to fights we will have in the next administration. i thought to myself that i am going to be the fool and hermit: crack jokes, stay home, and work on myself.

Fool. Hermit? what are those cards called in the Starman Tarot? The Sacred Clown and The Alien. could i be the sacred alien-

Sacred Opossum.

Sacred Opossum. my first thought it was perfect and so fucking stupid at the same time. the more i think about it, the more i love it.

if the name of my witchcraft is Feral Opossum, then Sacred Opossum is very much the path i want next year to be.