“You need to confessed.”
“I need to confessed? For what?”
“You know what you did.”
“Do I need to confess or do you need ME to confesses?”
“Just do it!”
“Bless me Mother for I have…”
“Screamed.”
“Oh. You want to talk about that.”
“Yes. Start at the beginning.”
“So, when I saw Deadpool and Wolverine last summer and Blade showed up, I had a reaction.”
“You about jumped out of your chair in the theater.”
“Yeah… I didn’t know I had that in me. I don’t know what came over me at that point.”
“And then you have been watching a certain ad on the internet of late.”
“Ok. I re-watched The Last of Us and it has reawakened my love of Pedro Pascal. And he is so fucking cute in the ad and he looks at you and tells you that you are perfect do I need to say more?”
“He’s in Fantastic Four that’s coming out this summer.”
“Yeah… kinda worried about myself with that movie.”
“And then you screamed today.”
“Yeah. I was surprised too.”
“Tell me like I don’t know.”
“Marvel put out a video of who’s suppose to be in Doomsday and it was a good mix of names and then one popped up and I screamed about it.”
“Who was it?”
“Can I mention that I completely missed Tom Hiddleston’s name was in this list?”
“That makes it even worst. Who made you scream?”
“Channing Tatum.”
“Why?”
“I did not know how much his Gambit meant to me.”
“How feral are you going to go in Doomsday?”
“I don’t know!”
“Tom Hiddleston, Pedro Pascal, and Channing Tatum.”
“And David Harbour.”
“Is there any one in the line up that isn’t going to make your feral?”
“Some of the women, maybe.”
“You need a boyfriend.”
“Bless me Mother, I need a boyfriend.”
“Bless you, indeed.”
“As the Earth holds me. As the Sky sees me. As the Sun rises within me. I step out to greet the Day.”
last week marked the 20th anniversary of me being a witch. and reading Evolutionary Witchcraft is showing me how much i have grown as a witch and as a human.
i am not the same bitch i was, with a Silver RavenWolf book in one hand and that was pretty much it. i thought i knew everything, with that one book.
20 years later, do i know everything now? fuck no. do i want to know everything? not really.
what have i learned? i path is very tarot heavy. that is my one magic i do daily.
am i where i want to be as a witch? no. i am hoping that this year i will get there. i am reading and studying and moving forward.
and now, i need to do The Work.
“I am worthy of love and happiness. I deserve all the good things that come into my life.
I trust in my ability to overcome challenges and grow stronger with each experience.
I choose to focus on the present moment and let go of worries about the past or future.
I am surrounded by love and support. I am connected with the universe and guided by its wisdom.”
i hit my goals for the month. anything more i do is just bonus points and less work in December.
i am working. i am done with the deck studying for the year and i started in on my witchcraft books. read it all, then go back and think about it and hit it again.
i am moving forward. it took a while but with the new season coming, i got to get going. and i am. i got shit done today, even after working upstairs. i can do this. an inch a day will get me there faster then nothing at all.
go me.
i don’t know what happens but things happen. i didn’t fall off the earth, but a vacation like that sounds nice.
i am booking along with my goals. i got a short list of things i want to 20 min a night it but Mom wants stuff down and that shoots my plans down. i need to work harder on that.
the new Daredevil show started and i have not watch it. i am behind. i am behind with the MCU. ya know something is up if yer girl is behind with the MCU.
i know why. and i know why i get weird when Colt says he has a gift for me.
so many signs says i need to move forward. i think i am. i know i’m not going backwards. i’m not going-
i am treading water. i am just treading water and not going anywhere.
i am keeping my head above water. i am doing that.
tomorrow i start reading Evolutionary Witchcraft. i feel that this is a good step for me. after that, it’s onto Crafting a Daily Practice.
maybe this is the movement i need.
“Blessed me Mother Feral for I am alive.”
“That’s always a good sign.”
“Yeah. I want to talk about my Valentines Weekend.”
“Ooo, I can hear the caps in your words. How was it? Big date.”
“I went alone.”
“How asexual of you.”
“Beside the weather and the fact I couldn’t get my oil change because the shop was out of oil, it was a great time.”
“Tell me about it.”
“The weather was crap but I was only going to Jeff because I really didn’t need to go to The City. I have enough gummies to get me to May.
“The shop was out of oil so I drove to the store to sit and use their Wi-Fi. I could get in the parking lot so, I stayed in the car.”
“Kind of creepy, go on.”
“I get to the movie theater and spent half the money on a soda then on the ticket. Fucking hell this, ANYWAY! I got a Mt Dew because they had no Dr. Pepper and man, that was a trick.
“How was the movie?”
“Captain America: Brave New World was nice. It felt like old Marvel but with new focus. The white man was the bad guy, the heroes were all POCs. It wasn’t the greatest thing ever but it was good.”
“End scene?”
“Open ended as fuck. Springfield will tell with Thunderbolts*.”
“Springfield is in-”
“Two months, 1 week, 5 days, 3 hours, give or take.”
“O… K… What happen after the movie?”
“I fought with Google maps because it wanted to take me to the Chili’s in Springfield and not the one over the hill. I won.
“I got to Chili’s and got a table and order my steak and shrimp fajitas. Once I got my food, I popped an earbud in and listen to Midnight Burger while I ate. I used my gift card and only had to pay $10 for the whole meal.”
“Tipped 30%?”
“In fucking cash. I was an easy $8 for them.
“While I was there, my phone told me that is was suppose to snow so I hurried my ass to the liquor store and decided to skip the library.”
“Making good choices I see.”
“I spend a 100 at the store.”
“What the hell did you get?”
“Rumple Minze, a big bottle of Everclear, and I found a bottle of pomegranate liqueur.”
“Why?”
“Witchcraft.”
“Is that all you going to say about it?”
“And then I came home.”
“That’s all?”
“I thought of him once while I was sitting at Chili’s.”
“But you were sitting in a 3-person row and had room for Nicole and Colt.”
“Yeah. I hope to seduce Colt to come up here to see The Fantastic Four: First Steps.”
“But you did this all on your own.”
“Yes. If the weather was better, I think I would have had a better time. But, if i need to see Fantastic Four by myself, I know I can do it.”
“Fuck right.”
“Fuck. Right.”
