next week starts a new quarter, along with a new month.
blar.
i don’t know what happen over the past 24 hours but i feel better.
i don’t know if this darkness just had to go over me or what. i feel better and lighter. i feel like i want to do things and get shit done!
and i got a new oracle deck today! the first card i saw made me cry so i know this is the deck for me.
this will be the one to fix all my problems…
i got a new look on my tarot post that i want to work on tomorrow. tonight, i very much want to crochet and watch the X-Men cartoon. the new one dropped and i’m not even done with the 1st season of the original show.
and i got a breath of my ideas for my own oracle deck. i want to write it down and possibly make the 1st card.
but right now, i need to get going on something to crochet while i watch my cartoons.
i am 104% done for the month, 28% for the year, giving me a D again.
i just have no motivation this month to get anything done.
the To-Do-List gets longer and i just not.
even the idea of sitting on my couch and watching TV seems too much work right now.
time to try…
i’m 103% done for the month, 28% for the year, giving me a D grade.
today i want to clean and move forward.
and i will by getting off this fucking laptop and moving.
4 years ago, i started the tag, during the plague. it was to mark everything that was going on in this 2-week episode of this illness that will pass.
and we still here, in 2024.
i’m done with using the tag. my blogs/journals are dated. when history comes knocking, i have it written down. my view of this pandemic is different from what i have seen.
there was no lockdown for me. i worked retail. i went to work. if i didn’t go to work, i wouldn’t get paid and life would suck.
all the things that would refresh me from being a retail worker, didn’t happen: my 10th anniversary trip, seeing Marvel movies, celebrating turning 40, nope.
i went 302 days in a row of sleeping in my own bed. there were no trips to take and no boyfriend to come see me.
i didn’t get to stay home, become Tic-Tok famous, dye my hair, learn something, rest, day drink all day, work from home.
got up, went to work, pretend that everything was ok and not weird at all that i carried a note from work saying why i was out of my house, in case i got pulled over.
it’s not over. it may not be over but i am done marking it.
