Witchcraft XLII

What, if anything, in my mundane life influences my witchcraft?

 

I don’t see it as the mundane influences my witchcraft but my witchcraft influences my mundane life.

I pick color based on witchcraft. I pick scents based on witchcraft. I blast certain songs out as spells in a heartbeat.

I’m a witch, 100% of the time, 24/7/365 366 on leap years. It’s all witchcraft, nothing is mundane.

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I got thoughts.

I got thoughts.

Went to a wake for a neighbor. Line was all around the inside of Morton's.  Made me think about Dad’s funeral.

And that thought started me off on another train.

I thought moving out of the trailer and into the basement would cure me of my problems. I would have space to put all my stuff and get rid of my depression and become who I wanted to be.

And then Dad died.

So, I thought after “mourning” for a year, I was ready to start living. I was going to wait for the new year to start. It was a new decade after all.

I was so hopeful on January 1st, 2020.

You know how that year turned out.

Last night I sat and wrote and all the shit that was in me for the past few weeks was gone. I have hope and plans for the new year. Get my books out, with a notebook, and start studying.

i am a healed opossum

something snapped in me. or maybe it blipped (iykyk).

i feel better. i feel like putting all that on paper got it out of my head and out of my way.

is this the shift? did i change and now i am on the other side?

i put money on a Kickstarter for a new oracle and tarot deck. and for the 1st time, i don’t feel like i am looking for answers in these decks.

what i do feel is that i need to get the books out of my bedroom and start setting up study plans for next year.

i feel that i very much need to dive into a daily practice. i feel i need to get some books out, assigned a notebook to it, and start study further into the witchcraft.

i thought i had an idea for next year theme and now i don’t know if it flows with the idea of what i want to do.

i am a healed opossum. nothing is holding me back but me. if i can set up a plan of studying and playing, i can achieve it all.

Halloween should be lit this year.

and i need to start planning that now.

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what the fuck is wrong with me?
i have been off since Endgame. i even had a fear about going on that mini adventure of seeing Endgame.
and just know i had that thought that i have TOO much Halloween stuff and i don’t need to go to Spirit Halloween next year.
so, what the fuck is wrong with me?
i won’t let myself be happy.
i keep repeating the same fucking thing about home/car/work/partner. it’s all good and healthy for me. i reached my goals. i need to put up new ones to achieve.
and if i look at Maslow’s hierarchy of needs… i have physiological needs, i’m mostly good in safety needs, i have love and belonging, i’m just now getting to esteem and self-actualization.
i’m going to skip Erik Erikson for now.
there is also the part of me that’s living in two different lanes right now. Halloween marks the end of the witch’s year. i am gearing up for that year end while also living with two more months of 2026 before i reset my goals for 2027.
and it’s like pulling teeth to pull cards and that was a part of me i liked and seek wisdom and comfort from.
and other things are falling to the wayside.
i won and now i feel i’m at my lowest and losing fast.

Witchcraft XLI

What is my learning style; books, websites, videos, more hands-on?

 

I love my books. I love picking up info from websites. I like seeing the short videos with helpful tips.

And I love taking all that and trying it with my own little hands.

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