today, today was the day i was going to get stuff done and i didn’t. i’ll wait till next week.
and that’s my game, always next week it’ll get done and it never does. there is this thing in me where i cannot get over and out and just do.
and this afternoon it was a fight to stay awake. i wanted to nap but no, i fought it, did nothing, and feel worthless for the effort.
i need to walk. that’s not happening.
i was so motivated to do stuff last year i don’t know where it all went. i can, i can do it all but i just end up not.
i need to find my spark, that kick to do. i need something to push me.
i need someone to push me.
i need to be pushed.