January 31, 2016

January 30, 2016

5 yr blog, day 847

“What do you want to forget?”


yeah, i don’t want to forget anything.
2015: um, yeah. keeping a journal, online to boot, for the past 14 years. don’t know how i can forget anything at this point.
2014: what’s the point of having a blog for 13 odd years if you want to forget something?


January 29, 2016

5 yr blog, day 846

“What was the last TV show you watched?”


i was off so i watched a lot of TV today.
2015: Agent Carter.
2014: Supernatural.


blar


i sorta been off my “meds” for the past month. i’m trying to get back into the swing of things and been taking them. i don’t know if it’s in my head or for real but i feel better.
makes me think that a friend who’s in a bit of a funk that maybe he needs to check his stuff too.
been making a to do list and not hitting it as hard as i should. i’m trying to get onto that and start making progress.
i was told that i need to relax and that is my problem. every free min is a wasted min on nothing. i don’t do anything to move myself forward.
i need to move forward.




January 28, 2016

5 yr blog, day 845

“How do you describe your home?”

worthless.
2015: shack in the woods.
2014: shack in the woods.


January 27, 2016

5 yr blog, day 844

“Which art movement best describe you today? (Surrealism? Modernism? Dada?)”


worthless.
2015: rustic.
2014: cartoon.


blar



life gets in the way of being and writing down what has happen.
on the 17th, Colt and Jacob came up just to see me for moments. i did get my Christmas gifts from them, many things Marvel and penguin, and i did give them their gift of an Avengers calendar.
it seems i learned two things from my boys: i can handle two at a time, Colt and Jacob, or Colt and Matthew. when it’s all 3 of them, that’s my limited and that sends me into a panic. hopefully i can be better prepared for May.
also, it seems that right before i see Colt, there is drama. i won't go into details but sometimes i really wonder about how me and Colt are together.
a snow storm rolled into and i crashed at Shelby’s. it was a fun night and we are so doing this once a month.
i know my type for boys: nerdy, queerish, likes cats.
and now i know my type for girls: short, blonde, odd.
January has been a rough month to get up and get going. i’m hoping to get a kick and get shit down. Mom is back to work and i have free range of things.
let’s get going, now.

January 26, 2016

5 yr blog, day 843

“Today you needed more ___.”

internet.
2015: money.
2014: i don’t think i needed more of anything today.


January 25, 2016

5 yr blog, day 842

“What makes you ‘you’?”

i ain’t got time for this shit.
2015: DNA.
2014: DNA.


January 24, 2016

5 yr blog, day 841

“If you were going to start your own company, what would it be?”


Penguin Magicks: a combo of my talents of witchcraft and of crocheting.
2015: Penguin Magicks: a combo of my talents of witchcraft and of crocheting.
2014: Penguin Magicks: a combo of my talents of witchcraft and of crocheting.


January 23, 2016

5 yr blog, day 840

“Do you need a break? From what?”

yes, work.
2015: i’m on a break!
2014: nothing right now. i’ve been on a break too long.


January 22, 2016

5 yr blog, day 839

“Are you seeking security or adventure?”

adventure.
2015: both, at the same time.
2014: both, at the same time.


January 21, 2016

5 yr blog, day 838

“What are you looking forward to?”


i don’t know anymore.
2015: AVENGERS: AGE OF ULTRON!!!
and there’s Phantom in March.
2014: short term, VD with the bf. long term, Avengers 2.



January 20, 2016

5 yr blog, day 837

“Are you holding a grudge? About?”


see last year’s.
2015: when i was 16, i told the only blood grandfather i have ever known he was going to burn in hell for killing my grandma.
i don’t give a fuck anymore about grudges anymore.
2014: well, my sister told me i’m going to hell and i’m not all into her now.



January 19, 2016

5 yr blog, day 836

“List three foods you ate today.”
  1. Cherry Dr. Pepper
  2. McDonald's
  3. Catholic nachos

2015:
  1. Cherry Dr. Pepper
  2. salad
  3. McDonald's
2014:
  1. Cherry Dr. Pepper
  2. really bad pizza
  3. McDonald's

January 18, 2016

5 yr blog, day 835

“What was peaceful about today?”


not a damn thing.
2015: nothing. i’m on day 5 of 6 in a row. i feel like shit everywhere and i hate what few friends i have.
2014: men’s underwear or baby food. i pray at either place there is such calmness.


January 17, 2016

5 yr blog, day 834

“What’s the oldest thing you’re wearing today?”


my skin.
2015: i’ve had this body for 34 years now. how’s that for oldest thing?
2014: i’ve had my pentacle for 9 years now.


January 16, 2016

5 yr blog, day 833

“Do you owe someone money? Does someone owe you?”


no, i do not.
2015: to the Discover and that rat bastard owes me money.
and Matthew owes me a bit, too.
2014: i owe to Discover and there’s a rat bastard who owes me.



January 15, 2016

5 yr blog, day 832

“On a scale of one to ten, how was your lunch today?”


McDonald's.
2015: homemade so, better than last year.
2014: fair.


January 14, 2016

5 yr blog, day 831

“Are you a leader or a follower?”


i don’t know anymore.
2015: i can do both.
2014: both?


January 13, 2016

5 yr blog, day 830

“Where do you want to travel next?”


Springfield.
2015: TO STL TO SEE PHANTOM!!!
and Nicole.
2014: STL to see Nicole.



January 12, 2016

5 yr blog, day 829

“What’s your favorite accessory?”

my pentacle and my shark necklace.
2015: my pentacle.
2014: my pentacle.


January 11, 2016

5 yr blog, day 828

“Today you lost___”


a hero.
Rest in Peace David Bowie.
2015: nothing. in fact, i found a lot of stuff.
2014: time. 



January 10, 2016

5 yr blog, day 827

“Write down something that inspired you today.”



Blackstar by David Bowie.
2015: Colt.
2014: deadline.


January 9, 2016

5 yr blog, day 826

“Was today typical? Why or why not?”

eh.
2015: eh.
2014: no. i’m still trying to sort out my new life in apparel.


January 8, 2016

5 yr blog, day 825

“What song is stuck in your head?”


none really.
2015: it took me a long time to realize why the song “Hurt” sounds with me so much. i have both Johnny Cash’s and Nine Inch Nails’ version on my itouch but it’s Johnny Cash’s that really pulls on my heart.
2014: “Counting Stars” by OneRepublic.


January 7, 2016

5 yr blog, day 824

“You are lucky; how so or not so?”


sometimes, we need to let go and let the higher powers show us the way.
2015: i try to make my own luck. roll with the bad and ride the good hard.
2014: i’m a witch, i make my own luck. 


January 6, 2016

5 yr blog, day 823

“Today was tough because ___”

i was sick.
2015: the slow wait till Agent Carter came on!
2014: it’s Monday and i worked.


You Make Me Feel





i posted this on my Tumblr and on Facebook.  
it needs to be here, too.

I’m a white girl from the sticks who was lucky to have music around her her whole life. I was raised on 70’s music, and then bad 80’s county before I went out on my own.
But I know my history. And the pop and rock playing now on the radio can all be traced back to the dawn of time.
This is Aretha Franklin, the Queen of Soul. I have one song of hers; “Think” from the Blues Brothers soundtrack.
I know this is to honor Carole King but Aretha took the cake.
She walks out in a fur coat, puts her PURSE down on the piano, sits down and started playing and then singing.
SHE PUT HER PURSE DOWN ON THE PIANO.
In the world of Divas we have, here is a woman of age who kept her things with her.
And then she stands up to sing and ends up taking her coat off and leaving it on the floor.
I can’t even.
I’m pagan but my first religion was music. In a Facebook group I made the statement that where your gods are, there’s your church.
My church is this video.


January 5, 2016

5 yr blog, day 822

“What was the last restaurant you went to?”

McDonald’s.
2015: McDonald's.
2014: McDonald's.


hello 2016



hello 2016. did not know how i was going to see you in.
i wanted to do a recap entry and lots of other things but life took a changed.
it rained. it rained for 3 days. i had 2 tubs filled with water in my room, plus some other buckets, plus the leak right over my bed.
and the one at the head of my bed.
i ended up with 2 loads of laundry due to wet stuff (make it 3, found another wet pile).
anyway, it rained and the rivers rose. i got stuck on the wrong side.
for 3 nights.
bless Judy; she let me crash at her house for those 3 nights.
it showed me how much i need to move, to be on the other side of the river, in my own hole of a place.
her house remained me of Nelda Mae’s and Esther’s. lots of Roman Catholic pics and statues.
and i know that the church my brother got marred had a shit ton of statues and what not, but there was no gods there.
Judy’s had a calmness to it. it was nice.
and on the third day, the river came down, the 31st.
my New Year’s weekend plans went off well. Matthew came up, we watched the 1st two of the original trilogy, and on New Year’s went to see the new Star Wars movie.
it was ok.
Star Wars is not my childhood, not my nerddom. i think i’m the only person within my age and who i follow on the internet who's of this kind.
the movie was ok. i can see where they are setting up things.
my only complaints of the movie is that Kylo Ren is a whiny bitch who throws fits when he didn't get is way (Vader just force chock a bitch and moved on and side note, is Adam Driver suppose to be good looking? i can’t tell) and there needs to be MORE of Captain Phasma. i want to see her bad ass (or at least her face).
and i am so ready for a Finn and Poe romance. YOU HEAR ME DISNEY? YOU GOT BALLS THEN PUT IN SOME QUEERNESS IN THE GALAXY FAR, FAR AWAY?!?
so yeah, it was an ok movie.
saw the grand’rents, did our thing at Barns and Noble, had shit service at Chili’s (i’m sorry, i don’t like using their computer at the table and so you didn’t get a tip), and that was all on New Year’s.
Elizabeth (Matthew’s cousin) did send me an awesome Christmas gift of 2 spooky crochet books. i really need to make her something out of those books.
so, over all 2015 ended ok and 2016 has started off all right. i hope to write more, move more, MOVE, and crochet more this year.
gods watch over me and give me the kick in the ass to see to these things.

January 4, 2016

5 yr blog, day 821

“The best part of today?”

i’m not working tomorrow.
2015: i was off!
2014: i’m not in electronics!


January 3, 2016

5 yr blog, day 820

“What are you reading right now?”

nothing.
2015: Neil Patrick Harris: Choose Your Own Autobiography by Neil Patrick Harris.
2014: American Gods by Neil Gaiman. 


January 2, 2016

5 yr blog, day 819

“Can people change?”


i’m trying to.
2015: it is humanly possible, as our bodies changes every freaking seconds.
on the deeper stuff, i don’t know.
2014: yes.



January 1, 2016

5 yr blog, day 818

“What is your mission?”


i’ll come back to this later.
2015: MOVE!
2014: lose 30 lbs and clean my room.