May 31, 2014

5 yr blog, day 238

“How much cash do you have in your wallet? In your bank account?”

not saying a word.

May 30, 2014

5 yr blog, day 237

“What’s the best thing you read today?”

i don’t think i did read today.

May 29, 2014

5 yr blog, day 236

“If you didn’t have any responsibilities for the day, what would you do?”

not a damn thing.

May 28, 2014

5 yr blog, day 235

"East Coast or West Coast? In between?"

no clue what you're talking about.

May 27, 2014

5 yr blog, day 234

"What gives you comfort right now?"


the fact i sat on the floor crocheting, Matthew on my left, Colt on my right, watching a Joss Whedon movie.

May 25, 2014

5 yr blog, day 232

“If you could travel anywhere tomorrow, where would you go?”

i’m going there, Springfield Mo.

May 22, 2014

5 yr blog, day 229

“When was the last time you had an inspiring conversation?”

last weekend with Nicole.

PART II: Girlfriend




so last weekend was a great treat of Nicole coming down for her sister’s graduation and me getting to spend some good quality time with her.
i got home and just had my first course when she called. i threw on my new shirt and made my way there.
i love Osage County. there was beer and wine at the high school graduation party.
the minute she hugged me and i walked to the yard for the party, i got hit my so many feels, for lack of a better word. it was just stage, like i was on the verge of breaking out into tears.
i don’t know why. it wasn’t PMS or anything, it was just sorta unsettling.
anyway, the party was great. you were supposed to leave a fond memory of the graduate and mine was “You were that weird kid with rats in your room.”
the more i talked to Audrey, the more i remember her being that weird kid. if Nicole had to baby sit her, i came over so Nicole wouldn’t kill her.
now, i can’t wait till Audrey is 21 and the 3 of us can go to the bar.
i can see now how Audrey and Nicole are sisters. Audrey just had to become human.
so the party, beer, food, good time. me and Nicole sneaked away to go to the bar. i got a much needed Dr. Pepper.
we talked, gods did we talked. i really need to go see her soon, sans Matthew.
we even walked up to the gas station for a whiskey run. i was one of those lame girls, walking the streets of Linn after dark.
i’m just glad not to have to bail anyone out of jail. 
she is just so much better than Loki.

May 21, 2014

5 yr blog, day 228

“What’s your salary?”


none of your damn business.

dream within a dream


dream this morning was a bit out there.
the setting was a bad 1970’s western. i was walking up this ladder stairs to the second floor of a building and there was Tom Hiddleston, shirtless and sweated wet. i don’t remember what he said but i think it was Shakespearean. there was a bed and i said something about how i was soft as the bed.
i think i woke up and was in Grandma Esther’s basement. some female was playing pool and i was describing my dream to Kyle from Brows Held High (for some strange reason he was there). it was kinda flirty between me and him.
and then i woke up.
i was watching Avengers before bed and Tom Hiddleston has been on my mine a lot lately.
i had a crappy day at work and was planning to go home and drink. instead, i watched Avengers. that’s when it really hit that Avengers is my go to cure all for most my problems.
and with seeing Nicole this weekend, she is better than Loki. Loki is better than both my boyfriends combine, but Nicole is world’s better than Loki.






May 20, 2014

5 yr blog, day 227

“What’s the craziest thing you’ve done for love?”

really, what has been the craziest thing? giving him all my money? trying to kiss him while he was asleep?
no, real love is what i got now. and it’s every day that is crazy.

PART I: Boyfriend One



i know i’m late with writing this all down but i see now i have a trilogy coming up within this month. so, i will write the best i can.

PART I: Boyfriend One.

i came home on the 5th to find my boyfriend in my bed.
that was the start of our 4th anniversary.
Tuesday the day started off with a trip to the hairdresser. i got a cut, eyebrows done, and red lowlights put in.
you can’t really see them but i love it. i can see the difference and i think i’m going back in October for more of a purple hue lowlights.
me and Matthew then made our way to Owensville for food and shopping.
i love the boy but he has no clothes. after he gave me his freaking yellow shirt, he moved onto wearing the St. Louis Cardinals shirt i gave him last year, ALL THE TIME.
now he has clothes.
we go home, get pizza, and watch Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.
Wednesday we made our way to Columbia to see Spiderman.
SPOILERS!!!
i don’t care for Spiderman as a comic book hero and i didn’t really care for this movie. that being said, the movie was okish.
knowing Sony is trying to build up their own type of Avengers universe, they threw a lot of stuff out there all at once. i didn’t care for that.
Jamie Fox sold me as being a nerd. he looked and acted the part. he was a waste. they could have cut him out of the movie, it would have worked fine. hell, i think the movie was too long and slow at times.
it was sad to see Emma Stone die. i just didn’t buy their love. i didn’t feel anything.
Thor’sDay was just a day of chilling before Matthew went home for school.

May 19, 2014

5 yr blog, day 226

“What’s the most creative thing you’ve done recently?”

crocheting.

May 18, 2014

5 yr blog, day 225

"If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?"

more on this latter.

May 16, 2014

5 yr blog, day 223

"What was your favorite day this week?"

Sunday was fun but Tuesday had the Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. finale.

May 15, 2014

5 yr blog, day 222

"What do you consider to be your biggest achievement?"

that i am loved by my trio of best friends.

May 14, 2014

May 12, 2014

May 11, 2014

5 yr blog, day 218

"How do you want to be remembered?"


as the most awesome person many have ever known.

May 7, 2014

5 yr blog, day 214

“Who would play you in a movie about your life? Is it a good movie?”

gods know anything.

May 5, 2014

5 yr blog, day 212

“Today was hilarious because ___.”


Jessica is going away and i’m going to be in “charge”.

May 4, 2014

5 yr blog, day 211

“When was the last time you went swimming?”

gods if i can i recall.

baby, no, truck on fire




driving home from work on April 30th, my boyfriend made mention that tomorrow (May 1st) would be our anniversary.
after a moment of cuteness, i started freaking out.


him: what’s wrong?
me: do you know what tomorrow means?
him: it’s our anniversary?
me: IT’S ONLY A YEAR TILL AVENGERS 2 COMES OUT!!!


maybe i have my priorities messed up.
so, i get home late to wake up ass early to be at work at 7.
i am proud of myself to leave the house by 5:30 AM. i had it all plotted out to stop and get gas and be at work, on time if not a bit early.
everything is going great. then i see up ahead the curvy wooded road, black smoke. as i get closer, my thought process goes “who is burning this early in the morning? i see flames, oh gods, is that pretty house on fire? no, it’s just that tuck.”
so, there was a truck, perpendicular in the road, engulf in flames. i could see the frame of the truck but the WHOLE THING WAS ON FIRE!!!
so, i watch. there was a car in front of me that stopped 4 or so on the other side of the burning truck, and i saw some people looking in the ditch (this happen in a curve, i think that’s where the other car was).
i sat there a min. i txted my mom and told her “i am not part of the wreak that happen before you get to Belle.” took a pic, and then drove back home, got gas in Linn, and made my way to work.
got to work, Mom called and we talked a bit about the wreak, i went inside, brought 9 packs of gum, and clocked in 2 mins early.
by the time i got home from a long day, Mom found the crash report. i think i got there shortly after it happen.
so, i was mostly spooked at work. just, that truck on fire. it was something out of a movie. you don’t plan on seeing that, ever.

May 3, 2014

5 yr blog, day 210

“If you could have a superpowers just for today, what would it be?”
speed.