November 29, 2013

5 yr blog, day 55

What five words describe your mood?

stressed, stressed, stressed, stressed, stressed.

November 26, 2013

November 25, 2013

November 24, 2013

5 yr blog, day 50

Who have you recently deleted from your contacts/address book?
well, i did deleted someone from Facebook awhile back.

November 23, 2013

November 21, 2013

5 yr blog, day 47

What are your favorite shoes?
don’t have a pair.

Pagan Blog Prompts

yeah, so from what i gather this is a vid prompt for the week about altars.
i don’t do vids and i’m not proud of my altar right now.

November 19, 2013

5 yr blog, day 45

When was the last time you checked an online social network?

on one now.

November 17, 2013

November 16, 2013

November 14, 2013

5 yr blog, day 40

What do you need to vent about?


Pagan Blog Prompts

“In this day and age, weddings come in all shapes and sizes. If you follow a Pagan spirituality, do you feel it's important to incorporate it into your wedding ceremony? Do you plan on having a handfasting? Is it simply enough to honor your deities in your heart and know they are present? How do you plan on incorporating your faith into your wedding?”

i really don’t know how off the wall my weeding will be.
i know it won’t be a hard fast pagan, it will be pagany for sure.

November 13, 2013

5 yr blog, day 39

What song could be your self-portrait?

i’m more about my theme song for the now. never thought of a self-portrait.
i really don’t know what would be a good self-portrait for me. any ideas?

November 12, 2013

5 yr blog, day 38

Is there anything missing in your life?

loaded question. don’t know if i want to air them here.

November 11, 2013

November 9, 2013

5 yr blog, day 35

Did you leave work on time?

was off today.


i got the passion to write, the ideas to write, and nothing is coming out.
pissing matches never end well and i fear tomorrow will be rough at work.
i get confused when i’m around him, even when i tell myself i got things sorted out it’s not all clear.
i’m living all in my head again.
i need to write. and i fear it’s something fresh that needs to be written. :-(

November 8, 2013

5 yr blog, day 34

What topic are you bored talking about?


Loki 3

so many feels now.
just got back from seeing Thor: The Dark World. man, what a night and what a movie.
i start off by getting all dolled up: the good jeans, black bra, silky underwear, my witch’s shoes, girl socks, i even did my makeup semi normal!
i thought i was leaving the house early when Colt txt about how’s he’s been waiting for so long.
one day…
Colt is equally dolled up in that preppy way i don’t like but works on him: jeans, red t-shirt, white dress shirt over the t-shirt, hell, he even had on his class ring.
i might have to step up my game.
he toys me with wanting to go to Columbia to see the drag show and i’m all i’m not dressed for a drag show and we are seeing THOR!
grr on that boy.
we hit Hobby Lobby first (?) to get the wrong book for his mother (and where Colt said i looked presentable and when the hell is my low self-esteem issues come to a bloody end! i’m not in high school anymore; i’m freaking 33 years old and a badass!). next was tickets, coz i was afraid they would sell out.
then Chili’s. food was good, service sucked and i left a crap tip.
they do not wait till with the Loki. that man with that hair, yes please.
and i knew when it was Joss’s scene. i guessed it and then knew it when it had a trademark of his (no, not the random killing).
the movie… it’s hard to pin it down. too much yucks at the end to really make it dark and matter, kinda too sci-fi for me and IT MADE ME CRY WHEN THEY KILL LOKI!!!
i had tears. the last time i cried at the movie was Alfred’s speech before he left Bruce Wayne in The Dark Knight Rises.
over all, i liked it and it was a good continuation of Thor’s story. not a great movie but a strong ok.  
and it starts to set up Avengers 2!!!
while walking out of the theater, i saw a poster for Captain America 2 and started on this mini rant about seeing that movie, coz if i want to be in the know for Avengers 2, got to see it. this lead to why i was on this date and it’s all Joss Whedon’s fault.
damn it Joss.
i hit the head; coz i needed to powered my nose like a racehorse about 10 mins into the movie but I WAS NOT GOING TO MISS A THING, and like a doll, Colt had the truck out front.
we rode home with music.
the child seems to had copy stuff from a roommate of long ago and had no real random on his mp3 player. nor had he really listen to all his songs.
when we got back to the truck after Hobby Lobby, it was playing “Paradises by Dashboard Light” by MeatLoaf.
and Colt learned what the song was and i showed him i can sing. *evil smile*
so on the way back we rocked it out a bit. he played “Some Nights” by fun. and that and the movie and being with Krazy brought up all sorts of feels that i don’t know. didn’t have much time to think due to Krazy and ADHD with a mp3 player.
two songs of note of the night was “True Love” by Pink, which is now, officially, me and Colt’s song. i really like the line “At the same time, I wanna hug you/I wanna wrap my hands around your neck” and then the odd duet of “Any Man of Mine” by Shania Twain.

Pagan Blog Prompt

“When celebrating the Wheel of the Year, you can interpret it many ways. You can see it as symbolic, agricultural, astrological, etc. You could even do a combination. How do you find significance of each holiday in the modern world we live in? For example, during the fall season, the holidays relate strongly to the harvest. In this day and age, most of us don't live on a farm harvesting grain and ensuring the following year's crops. How do you stay in touch with the roots of the holy days we observe when some times we are so far placed from them?
How do you interpret the Sabbats of the Wheel of the Year and make it fit the modern world around us?”

this seems to be a loaded question, due to this semi subject coming up in PaW.
i do take in the fact of the seasonal meaning of the Sabbats. i still live in the sticks so i do feel for the agricultural meaning of them.
i also enjoy the more modem meanings (What did you harvest this Mabon? What are you planting this Ostra?). i gives my religion a sense that while rooted in a “past” it’s adapting for the now and for the future.

November 6, 2013

November 3, 2013

November 2, 2013

5 yr blog, day 28

What’s your biggest expense right now?

my credit card.

this is November

it’s only been in the last few years that November has taken a new feeling.
Dr. Grey explained to me that i get the post-holiday blues after Halloween. Amanda told me i need to get married after in November so i have something to look forward to after Halloween.
fall is my time. from Mabon to Halloween, i feel charged. sun in in Libra, October starts, my birthday, fall weather, and then it all peeks when Halloween drops.
and then it’s November.
November/Thanksgiving anymore is just a hiccup, the annoy ads before the movie, till you get to MOHTERFUCKINGCHRISTMAS!!! (MFC! for short). anymore it’s an annoyance and it’s slowing creeping into October, making Halloween another bump till MFC!.
once upon a time i read that the ancient Egyptians came up with a 2 week holiday so their calendar was in tune, sorta like we have Leap Day (this was long ago, i may be wrong).
November feels like that. it feels that from the 1st to the Wednesday before Thanksgiving is all fake, for lack of a better word. it’s not a real month; it’s just a time, to keep the colander in tune, a time for oneself.
and right when i feel to need to go deep into the woods, deer season happens and i don’t want to get shot.
so, i’m in between time and right now and i’m working towards something. it’s come in such short burst but i’m going somewhere. i have this sluggish motivation but i am moving.

November 1, 2013