March 29, 2013

12 years

  • a day ago: i got paid and it was nothing.
  • a week ago: i had the day off.
  • a month ago: Twilight came out and i had to deal with all that bullshit.
  • six months ago: pissed off my store had nothing for Halloween
  • a year ago: hell if i know. didn’t write about it.
  • three years ago: first of many magickal weekends with Matt.
  • five years ago: too much in love with my then boyfriend.
  • ten years ago: everybody was going to prom but me.
  • fifteen years ago: Grandma Bertha had been dead almost a year.
  • twenty years ago: gearing up for my first contest for band.
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so, 12 years. yeah.
i don’t remember when i started the anniversary post, when the bullets. i do remember as i did them, i started going back to my journals to look up dates. then it got me how long i’ve been doing this.
so, do i have anything great to say right now? any words of wisdom?
no.
shit happens. suck it up and deal with it.
let’s see if April can be the start.





March 28, 2013

Pagan Blog Prompts

“Throughout the many different cultures around the world, meal time is a coming together of the family. From the way the table is set, to the thanks we give, to the conversations we have around the table. As a Pagan, how do you and your family make meal time special?”

i don’t do anything yet. i am hoping with the start of April, i can start anew and get into food blessings, among other things.


March 21, 2013

Pagan Blog Prompts

"Ostara, also known as the Spring Equinox was just celebrated yesterday by many Pagans in the Northern Hemisphere. Today's prompt is all about Ostara. How do you celebrate it? Do you have any certain traditions or themes you focus on? What does Ostara mean to you?
Feel free to share photos, recipes, pictures of altars and more. Enjoy and Ostara blessings to you!"

did not do anything to mark Ostara this year. did the broom standing trick and that’s about it.
i will say that this Ostara marks my 8th year as a witch and 3rd year as an ordained minister.



March 20, 2013

nerdgirl out


so, i kinda forget to mention something that happen last Friday.
Laurell K. Hamilton replied back to me! like OMG!
this is the second time THIS MONTH Laurell K. Hamilton has interacted with me on Twitter!
i was so nerding out.



March 18, 2013

nerd weekend


Wednesday came with me gathering all my stuff to head south for a 3 day weekend with my bf. we were gonna have pizza and see Oz, the Great and Powerful and it was gonna be wonderful!
let’s see if that happens.
i rolled into town Wednesday afternoon and we went on a double date with Jessica and Chris. the Italian restaurant was ok (never again in a booth) and a good time was had by all.
me and Matt headed back to his house to watch season two of Game of Thrones.
and then came pizza!
Thursday we awake for more Game of Thrones and pizza. for most of the day.
the only reason we got out of bed was to get dressed was to go watch Oz.
the best part of the movie was seeing the Iron Man 3 trailer.
we did see it in 3D. i thought the 3D was good. it wasn’t a lot of stuff flying towards you but stuff to enhance the movie.
i didn’t like James Franco. i thought he played the part like douche. and when i got home and read in the Rolling Stone, Robert Downy Jr was first pick; it makes me ache a little.
and then there’s Mila Kunis as the Wicked Witch of the West.
looking back on my childhood, there are 2 and only 2 role models that truly shaped me and still are shaping me to this day, are Miss Piggy and the Wicked Witch of the West.
so when you see a childhood role model and personal hero turned into a shill voice man hating bitch with only one goal and is just flat as paint, it bothers you.
and why the hell is everyone a powerful witch but they needed a man to save them? and then it was Glinda who had the throw down with Evanora, why the hell they needed that no talent hack “wizard” to save them?
at least i got an Oz bucket.
the food was good at El Jimador. the food is always good.
home for movies and then came daylight and i had to go home.
the end.

March 9, 2013

date afternoonish



dear diary,
recall that one “date” at Eastland McDonald's? the pot and the tampons?
today’s was better.
i seduce the poor child with free food. he must have been desperate.
so i wine and dine with him 2 cheeseburgers. he felt bad because i didn’t eat. i wasn’t hungry.
it was nice. not as grand as i wanted, but it was nice.
love,
amer

March 8, 2013

about nothing


i’m gonna write my story down. not because i want to or need to, because it’s a story i want out of me and i’m setting it up as a short story, so let’s see how this pans out.
in more better news: JOSS IS ON TWITTER!!! he’s under the handle of @MuchAdoFilm. the cast of the movie is doing a bus trip to Texas.
now, i recall fondly my bandtrip days and the fun on the bus. i can only imagine a nicer bus, less and better people, and liquor making it a hell of a trip.
there are some in the fan world that wants to see that movie instead of Much Ado.
and here’s my question, do i read the play before hand, or do i want to be surprise by what happens? i don’t know what to do!




March 4, 2013

pen and paper



i have had the need and want to do old timey journaling, pen and paper. had to buy pen and paper but here i am.
brought St. John Wort. need to get my act together and i hope the pills help.
work got me down last week. cut of hours make it hard to care. give me 8 hours and i will care. maybe.
Colt pissed me off Friday but i only have myself to blame. still working on that. PaW had helped with it.
and Nathan has discovered i’m a witch. 3 years of wearing my pentacle and he never knew what it until he turned 29 and on an “end of the world” kick.
only a year till he’s 30. gods help us all.

March 1, 2013

And if darkness should fall unending, what then?




my day started off kinda awesome with a RT by Laurell K. Hamilton.




and yes, today is a dark day, as i am at the store till 10 on a Twilight midnight release night.
pray for me.
and i’ve been talking to Nicole about her wedding afghan. the colors she picked, not what i thought she was going to pick. it’s two very different variegated yarns. will have to buy some and play with it a bit.
not much to go on today. work sucks, the store is trashed and i’m sorta embarrassed by it. i’ve never seen it this bad before.
this whole “we’ll cut everyone hours but you all need to do twice the work” is bullshit. something will snap.
Saturday, i’m off and the family will be gone. so nice.
i need to clean my room.
i need a roof that don’t leak too. that won’t happen.
anyway, yarn, crochet, upbeat things.